SO draw near their end these garrulous notes. There have doubtless occurrd some repetitions, technical errors in the consecutiveness of dates, in the minutiæ of botanical, astronomical, &c., exactness, and perhaps elsewhere;for in gathering up, writing, peremptorily dispatching copy, this hot weather, (last of July and through August, 82,) and delaying not the printers, I have had to hurry along, no time to spare. But in the deepest veracity of allin reflections of objects, scenes, Natures outpourings, to my senses and receptivity, as they seemd to mein the work of giving those who care for it, some authentic glints, specimen-days of my lifeand in the bona fide spirit and relations, from author to reader, on all the subjects designd, and as far as they go, I feel to make unmitigated claims.
The synopsis of my early life, Long Island, New York city, and so forth, and the diary-jottings in the Secession war, tell their own story. My plan in starting what constitutes most of the middle of the book, was originally for hints and data of a Nature-poem that should carry ones experiences a few hours, commencing at noon-flush, and so through the after-part of the dayI suppose led to such idea by my own life-afternoon now arrived. But I soon found I could move at more ease, by giving the narrative at first hand. (Then there is a humiliating lesson one learns, in serene hours, of a fine day or night. Nature seems to look on all fixed-up poetry and art as something almost impertinent.)
Thus I went on, years following, various seasons and areas, spinning forth my thought beneath the night and stars, (or as I was confined to my room by half-sickness,) or at midday looking out upon the sea, or far north steaming over the Saguenays black breast, jotting all down in the loosest sort of chronological order, and here printing from my impromptu notes, hardly even the seasons groupd together, or anything correctedso afraid of dropping what smack of outdoors or sun or starlight might cling to the lines, I dared not try to meddle with or smooth them. Every now and then, (not often, but for a foil,) I carried a book in my pocketor perhaps tore out from some broken or cheap edition a bunch of loose leaves; most always had something of the sort ready, but only took it out when the mood demanded. In that way, utterly out of reach of literary conventions, I re-read many authors.
I cannot divest my appetite of literature, yet I find myself eventually trying it all by Naturefirst premises many call it, but really the crowning results of all, laws, tallies and proofs. (Has it never occurrd to any one how the last deciding tests applicable to a book are entirely outside of technical and grammatical ones, and that any truly first-class production has little or nothing to do with the rules and calibres of ordinary critics? or the bloodless chalk of Allibones Dictionary? I have fancied the ocean and the daylight, the mountain and the forest, putting their spirit in a judgment on our books. I have fancied some disembodied human soul giving its verdict.)