| BY Merlins Rock, where Dagonet the fool | |
| Was given through many a dying afternoon | |
| To sit and meditate on human ways | 2125 |
| And ways divine, Gawaine and Bedivere | |
| Stood silent, gazing down on Camelot. | |
| The two had risen and were going home: | |
| It hits me sore, Gawaine, said Bedivere, | |
| To think on all the tumult and affliction | 2130 |
| Down there, and all the noise and preparation | |
| That hums of coming death, and, if my fears | |
| Be born of reason, of whats more than death. | |
| Wherefore, I say to you again, Gawaine, | |
| To youthat this late hour is not too late | 2135 |
| For you to change yourself and change the King: | |
| For though the King may love me with a love | |
| More tried, and older, and more sure, may be, | |
| Than for another, for such a time as this | |
| The friend who turns him to the world again | 2140 |
| Shall have a tongue more gracious and an eye | |
| More shrewd than mine. For such a time as this | |
| The King must have a glamour to persuade him. | |
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| The King shall have a glamour, and anon, | |
| Gawaine said, and he shot death from his eyes; | 2145 |
| If you were King, as Arthur isor was | |
| And Lancelot had carried off your Queen, | |
| And killed a score or so of your best knights | |
| Not mentioning my two brothers, whom he slew | |
| Unarmored and unarmedGod save your wits! | 2150 |
| Two stewards with skewers could have done as much, | |
| And you and I might now be rotting for it. | |
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| But Lancelots men were crowded,they were crushed; | |
| And there was nothing for them but to strike | |
| Or die, not seeing where they struck. Think you | 2155 |
| They would have slain Gareth and Gaheris, | |
| And Tor, and all those other friends of theirs? | |
| Gods mercy for the world he made, I say, | |
| And for the blood that writes the story of it. | |
| Gareth and Gaheris, Tor and Lamorak, | 2160 |
| All dead, with all the others that are dead! | |
| These years have made me turn to Lamorak | |
| For counseland now Lamorak is dead. | |
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| Why do you fling those two names in my face? | |
| Twas Modred made an end of Lamorak, | 2165 |
| Not I; and Lancelot now has done for Tor. | |
| Ill urge no king on after Lancelot | |
| For such a two as Tor and Lamorak: | |
| Their father killed my father, and their friend | |
| Was Lancelot, not I. Ill own my fault | 2170 |
| Im living; and while Ive a tongue can talk, | |
| Ill say this to the King: Burn Lancelot | |
| By inches till he give you back the Queen; | |
| Then hang himdrown himor do anything | |
| To rid the world of him. He killed my brothers, | 2175 |
| And he was once my friend: Now damn the soul | |
| Of him who killed my brothers! There you have me. | |
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| You are a strong man, Gawaine, and your strength | |
| Goes ill where foes are. You may cleave their limbs | |
| And heads off, but you cannot damn their souls; | 2180 |
| What you may do now is to save their souls, | |
| And bodies too, and like enough your own. | |
| Remember that King Arthur is a king, | |
| And where there is a king there is a kingdom. | |
| Is not the kingdom any more to you | 2185 |
| Than one brief enemy? Would you see it fall | |
| And the King with it, for one mortal hate | |
| That burns out reason? Gawaine, you are king | |
| Today. Another day may see no king | |
| But Havoc, if you have no other word | 2190 |
| For Arthur now than hate for Lancelot. | |
| Is not the world as large as Lancelot? | |
| Is Lancelot, because one womans eyes | |
| Are brighter when they look on him, to sluice | |
| The world with angry blood? Poor flesh! Poor flesh! | 2195 |
| And you, Gawaine,are you so gaffed with hate | |
| You cannot leave it and so plunge away | |
| To stiller places and there see, for once, | |
| What hangs on this pernicious expedition | |
| The King in his insane forgetfulness | 2200 |
| Would undertakewith you to drum him on? | |
| Are you as mad as he and Lancelot | |
| Made ravening into one man twice as mad | |
| As either? Is the kingdom of the world, | |
| Now rocking, to go down in sound and blood | 2205 |
| And ashes and sick ruin, and for the sake | |
| Of three men and a woman? If it be so, | |
| Gods mercy for the world he made, I say, | |
| And say again to Dagonet. Sir Fool, | |
| Your throne is empty, and you may as well | 2210 |
| Sit on it and be ruler of the world | |
| From now till supper-time. | |
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| Sir Dagonet, | |
| Appearing, made reply to Bediveres | |
| Dry welcome with a famished look of pain, | 2215 |
| On which he built a smile: If I were King, | |
| You, Bedivere, should be my counsellor; | |
| And we should have no more wars over women. | |
| Ill sit me down and meditate on that. | |
| Gawaine, for all his anger, laughed a little, | 2220 |
| And clapped the fools lean shoulder; for he loved him | |
| And was with Arthur when he made him knight. | |
| Then Dagonet said on to Bedivere, | |
| As if his tongue would make a jest of sorrow: | |
| Sometime Ill tell you what I might have done | 2225 |
| Had I been Lancelot and you King Arthur | |
| Each having in himself the vicious essence | |
| That now lives in the other and makes war. | |
| When all men are like you and me, my lord, | |
| When all are rational or rickety, | 2230 |
| There may be no more war. But whats here now? | |
| Lancelot loves the Queen, and he makes war | |
| Of love; the King, being bitten to the soul | |
| By love and hate that work in him together, | |
| Makes war of madness; Gawaine hates Lancelot, | 2235 |
| And he, to be in tune, makes war of hate; | |
| Modred hates everything, yet he can see | |
| With one damned illegitimate small eye | |
| His fathers crown, and with another like it | |
| He sees the beauty of the Queen herself; | 2240 |
| He needs the two for his ambitious pleasure, | |
| And therefore he makes war of his ambition; | |
| And somewhere in the middle of all this | |
| Theres a squeezed world that elbows for attention. | |
| Poor Merlin, buried in Broceliande! | 2245 |
| He must have had an academic eye | |
| For woman when he founded Arthurs kingdom, | |
| And in Broceliande he may be sorry. | |
| Flutes, hautboys, drums, and viols. God be with him! | |
| Im glad they tell me theres another world, | 2250 |
| For this ones a disease without a doctor. | |
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| No, not so bad as that, said Bedivere; | |
| The doctor, like ourselves, may now be learning; | |
| And Merlin may have gauged his enterprise | |
| Whatever the cost he may have paid for knowing. | 2255 |
| We pass, but many are to follow us, | |
| And what they build may stay; though I believe | |
| Another age will have another Merlin, | |
| Another Camelot, and another King. | |
| Sir Dagonet, farewell. | 2260 |
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| Farewell, Sir Knight, | |
| And you, Sir Knight: Gawaine, you have the world | |
| Now in your fingersan uncommon toy, | |
| Albeit a small persuasion in the balance | |
| With one mans hate. Im glad youre not a fool, | 2265 |
| For then you might be rickety, as I am, | |
| And rational as Bedivere. Farewell. | |
| Ill sit here and be king. God save the King! | |
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| But Gawaine scowled and frowned and answered nothing | |
| As he went slowly down with Bedivere | 2270 |
| To Camelot, where Arthurs army waited | |
| The Kings word for the melancholy march | |
| To Joyous Gard, where Lancelot hid the Queen | |
| And armed his host, and there was now no joy, | |
| As there was now no joy for Dagonet | 2275 |
| While he sat brooding, with his wan cheek-bones | |
| Hooked with his bony fingers: Go, Gawaine, | |
| He mumbled: Go your way, and drag the world | |
| Along down with you. Whats a world or so | |
| To you if you can hide an ell of iron | 2280 |
| Somewhere in Lancelot, and hear him wheeze | |
| And sputter once or twice before he goes | |
| Wherever the Queen sends him? Theres a man | |
| Who should have been a king, and would have been, | |
| Had he been born so. So should I have been | 2285 |
| A king, had I been born so, fool or no: | |
| King Dagonet, or Dagonet the King; | |
| King-Fool, Fool-King; twere not impossible. | |
| Ill meditate on that and pray for Arthur, | |
| Who made me all I am, except a fool. | 2290 |
| Now he goes mad for love, as I might go | |
| Had I been born a king and not a fool. | |
| Today I think Id rather be a fool; | |
| Today the world is less than one scared woman | |
| Wherefore a field of waving men may soon | 2295 |
| Be shorn by Times indifferent scythe, because | |
| The King is mad. The seeds of history | |
| Are small, but given a few gouts of warm blood | |
| For quickening, they sprout out wondrously | |
| And have a leaping growth whereof no man | 2300 |
| May shun such harvesting of change or death, | |
| Or life, as may fall on him to be borne | |
| When I am still alive and rickety, | |
| And Bediveres alive and rational | |
| If he come out of this, and theres a doubt, | 2305 |
| The King, Gawaine, Modred, and Lancelot | |
| May all be lying underneath a weight | |
| Of bloody sheaves too heavy for their shoulders | |
| All spent, and all dishonored, and all dead; | |
| And if it come to be that this be so, | 2310 |
| And it be true that Merlin saw the truth, | |
| Such harvest were the best. Your fool sees not | |
| So far as Merlin sees: yet if he saw | |
| The truthwhy then, such harvest were the best. | |
| Ill pray for Arthur; I can do no more. | 2315 |
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| Why not for Merlin? Or do you count him, | |
| In this extreme, so foreign to salvation | |
| That prayer would be a stranger to his name? | |
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| Poor Dagonet, with terror shaking him, | |
| Stood up and saw before him an old face | 2320 |
| Made older with an inch of silver beard, | |
| And faced eyes more eloquent of pain | |
| And ruin than all the faded eyes of age | |
| Till now had ever been, although in them | |
| There was a mystic and intrinsic peace | 2325 |
| Of one who sees where men of nearer sight | |
| See nothing. On their way to Camelot, | |
| Gawaine and Bedivere had passed him by, | |
| With lax attention for the pilgrim cloak | |
| They passed, and what it hid: yet Merlin saw | 2330 |
| Their faces, and he saw the tale was true | |
| That he had lately drawn from solemn strangers. | |
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| Well, Dagonet, and by your leave, he said, | |
| Ill rest my lonely relics for a while | |
| On this rock that was mine and now is yours. | 2335 |
| I favor the succession; for you know | |
| Far more than many doctors, though your doubt | |
| Is your peculiar poison. I foresaw | |
| Long since, and I have latterly been told | |
| What moves in this commotion down below | 2340 |
| To show men what it means. It means the end | |
| If men whose tongues had less to say to me | |
| Than had their shoulders are adept enough | |
| To know; and you may pray for me or not, | |
| Sir Friend, Sir Dagonet. | 2345 |
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| Sir fool, you mean, | |
| Dagonet said, and gazed on Merlin sadly: | |
| Ill never pray again for anything, | |
| And last of all for this that you behold | |
| The smouldering faggot of unlovely bones | 2350 |
| That God has given to me to call Myself. | |
| When Merlin comes to Dagonet for prayer, | |
| It is indeed the end. | |
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| And in the end | |
| Are more beginnings, Dagonet, than men | 2355 |
| Shall name or know today. It was the end | |
| Of Arthurs insubstantial majesty | |
| When to him and his knights the Grail foreshowed | |
| The quest of life that was to be the death | |
| Of many, and the slow discouraging | 2360 |
| Of many more. Or do I err in this? | |
| No, Dagonet replied; there was a Light; | |
| And Galahad, in the Siege Perilous, | |
| Alone of all on whom it fell, was calm; | |
| There was a Light wherein men saw themselves | 2365 |
| In one another as they might become | |
| Or so they dreamed. There was a long to-do, | |
| And Gawaine, of all forlorn ineligibles, | |
| Rose up the first, and cried more lustily | |
| Than any after him that he should find | 2370 |
| The Grail, or die for it,though he did neither; | |
| For he came back as living and as fit | |
| For new and old iniquity as ever. | |
| Then Lancelot came back, and Bors came back, | |
| Like men who had seen more than men should see, | 2375 |
| And still come back. They told of Percival | |
| Who saw too much to make of this worn life | |
| A long necessity, and of Galahad, | |
| Who died and is alive. They all saw Something. | |
| God knows the meaning or the end of it, | 2380 |
| But they saw Something. And if Ive an eye, | |
| Small joy has the Queen been to Lancelot | |
| Since he came back from seeing what he saw; | |
| For though his passion hold him like hot claws, | |
| Hes neither in the world nor out of it. | 2385 |
| Gawaine is king, though Arthur wears the crown; | |
| And Gawaines hate for Lancelot is the sword | |
| That hangs by one of Merlins fragile hairs | |
| Above the world. Were you to see the King, | |
| The frenzy that has overthrown his wisdom, | 2390 |
| Instead of him and his upheaving empire, | |
| Might have an end. | |
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| I came to see the King, | |
| Said Merlin, like a man who labors hard | |
| And long with an importunate confession. | 2395 |
| No, Dagonet, you cannot tell me why, | |
| Although your tongue is eager with wild hope | |
| To tell me more than I may tell myself | |
| About myself. All this that was to be | |
| Might show to man how vain it were to wreck | 2400 |
| The world for self if it were all in vain. | |
| When I began with Arthur I could see | |
| In each bewildered man who dots the earth | |
| A moment with his days a groping thought | |
| Of an eternal will, strangely endowed | 2405 |
| With merciful illusions whereby self | |
| Becomes the will itself and each man swells | |
| In fond accordance with his agency. | |
| Now Arthur, Modred, Lancelot, and Gawaine | |
| Are swollen thoughts of this eternal will | 2410 |
| Which have no other way to find the way | |
| That leads them on to their inheritance | |
| Than by the time-infuriating flame | |
| Of a wrecked empire, lighted by the torch | |
| Of woman, who, together with the light | 2415 |
| That Galahad found, is yet to light the world. | |
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| A wan smile crept across the weary face | |
| Of Dagonet the fool: If you knew that | |
| Before your burial in Broceliande, | |
| No wonder your eternal will accords | 2420 |
| With all your dreams of what the world requires. | |
| My master, I may say this unto you | |
| Because I am a fool, and fear no man; | |
| My fear is that Ive been a groping thought | |
| That never swelled enough. You say the torch | 2425 |
| Of woman and the light that Galahad found | |
| Are some day to illuminate the world? | |
| Ill meditate on that. The world is done | |
| For me; and I have been, to make men laugh, | |
| A lean thing of no shape and many capers. | 2430 |
| I made them laugh, and I could laugh anon | |
| Myself to see them killing one another | |
| Because a woman with corn-colored hair | |
| Has pranked a man with horns. Twas but a flash | |
| Of chance, and Lancelot, the other day | 2435 |
| That saved this pleasing sinner from the fire | |
| That she may spread for thousands. Were she now | |
| The cinder the King willed, or were you now | |
| To see the King, the fire might yet go out; | |
| But the eternal will says otherwise. | 2440 |
| So be it; Ill assemble certain gold | |
| That I may say is mine and get myself | |
| Away from this accurst unhappy court, | |
| And in some quiet place where shepherd clowns | |
| And cowherds may have more respondent ears | 2445 |
| Than kings and kingdom-builders, I shall troll | |
| Old men to easy graves and be a child | |
| Again among the children of the earth. | |
| Ill have no more kings, even though I loved | |
| King Arthur, who is mad, as I could love | 2450 |
| No other man save Merlin, who is dead. | |
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| Not wholly dead, but old. Merlin is old. | |
| The wizard shivered as he spoke, and stared | |
| Away into the sunset where he saw | |
| Once more, as through a cracked and cloudy glass, | 2455 |
| A crumbling sky that held a crimson cloud | |
| Wherein there was a town of many towers | |
| All swayed and shaken, in a womans hand | |
| This time, till out of it there spilled and flashed | |
| And tumbled, like loose jewels, town, towers, and walls, | 2460 |
| And there was nothing but a crumbling sky | |
| That made anon of black and red and ruin | |
| A wild and final rain on Camelot. | |
| He bowed, and pressed his eyes: Now by my soul, | |
| I have seen this beforeall black and red | 2465 |
| Like thatlike thatlike Vivianblack and red; | |
| Like Vivian, when her eyes looked into mine | |
| Across the cups of gold. A flute was playing | |
| Then all was black and red. | |
| |
| Another smile | 2470 |
| Crept over the wan face of Dagonet, | |
| Who shivered in his turn. The torch of woman | |
| He muttered, and the light that Galahad found, | |
| Will some day save us all, as they saved Merlin. | |
| Forgive my shivering wits, but I am cold, | 2475 |
| And it will soon be dark. Will you go down | |
| With me to see the King, or will you not? | |
| If not, I go tomorrow to the shepherds. | |
| The world is mad, and Im a groping thought | |
| Of your eternal will; the world and I | 2480 |
| Are strangers, and Ill have no more of it | |
| Except you go with me to see the King. | |
| |
| No, Dagonet, you cannot leave me now, | |
| Said Merlin, sadly. You and I are old; | |
| And, as you say, we fear no man. God knows | 2485 |
| I would not have the love that once you had | |
| For me be fear of me, for I am past | |
| All fearing now. But Fate may send a fly | |
| Sometimes, and he may sting us to the grave. | |
| So driven to test our faith in what we see. | 2490 |
| Are you, now I am coming to an end, | |
| As Arthurs days are coming to an end, | |
| To sting me like a fly? I do not ask | |
| Of you to say that you see what I see, | |
| Where you see nothing; nor do I require | 2495 |
| Of any man more vision than is his; | |
| Yet I could wish for you a larger part | |
| For your last entrance here than this you play | |
| Tonight of a sad insect stinging Merlin. | |
| The more you sting, the more he pities you; | 2500 |
| And you were never overfond of pity. | |
| Had you been so, I doubt if Arthurs love, | |
| Or Gawaines, would have made of you a knight. | |
| No, Dagonet, you cannot leave me now, | |
| Nor would you if you could. You call yourself | 2505 |
| A fool, because the world and you are strangers. | |
| You are a proud man, Dagonet; you have suffered | |
| What I alone have seen. You are no fool; | |
| And surely you are not a fly to sting | |
| My love to last regret. Believe or not | 2510 |
| What I have seen, or what I say to you, | |
| But say no more to me that I am dead | |
| Because the King is mad, and you are old, | |
| And I am older. In Broceliande | |
| Time overtook me as I knew he must; | 2515 |
| And I, with a fond overplus of words, | |
| Had warned the lady Vivian already, | |
| Before these wrinkles and this hesitancy | |
| Inhibiting my joints oppressed her sight | |
| With age and dissolution. She said once | 2520 |
| That she was cold and cruel; but she meant | |
| That she was warm and kind, and over-wise | |
| For woman in a world where men see not | |
| Beyond themselves. She saw beyond them all, | |
| As I did; and she waited, as I did, | 2525 |
| The coming of a day when cherry-blossoms | |
| Were to fall down all over me like snow | |
| In springtime. I was far from Camelot | |
| That afternoon; and I am farther now | |
| From her. I see no more for me to do | 2530 |
| Than to leave her and Arthur and the world | |
| Behind me, and to pray that all be well | |
| With Vivian, whose unquiet heart is hungry | |
| For what is not, and what shall never be | |
| Without her, in a world that men are making, | 2535 |
| Knowing not how, nor caring yet to know | |
| How slowly and how grievously they do it, | |
| Though Vivian, in her golden shell of exile, | |
| Knows now and cares, not knowing that she cares, | |
| Nor caring that she knows. In time to be, | 2540 |
| The like of her shall have another name | |
| Than Vivian, and her laugh shall be a fire, | |
| Not shining only to consume itself | |
| With what it burns. She knows not yet the name | |
| Of what she is, for now there is no name; | 2545 |
| Some day there shall be. Time has many names, | |
| Unwritten yet, for what we say is old | |
| Because we are so young that it seems old. | |
| And this is all a part of what I saw | |
| Before you saw King Arthur. When we parted. | 2550 |
| I told her I should see the King again, | |
| And, having seen him, might go back again | |
| To see her face once more. But I shall see | |
| No more the lady Vivian. Let her love | |
| What man she may, no other love than mine | 2555 |
| Shall be an index of her memories. | |
| I fear no man who may come after me, | |
| And I see none. I see her, still in green, | |
| Beside the fountain. I shall not go back. | |
| We pay for going back; and all we get | 2560 |
| Is one more needless ounce of weary wisdom | |
| To bring away with us. If I come not, | |
| The lady Vivian will remember me, | |
| And say: I knew him when his heart was young, | |
| Though I have lost him now. Time called him home, | 2565 |
| And that was as it was; for much is lost | |
| Between Broceliande and Camelot. | |
| |
| He stared away into the west again, | |
| Where now no crimson cloud or phantom town | |
| Deceived his eyes. Above a living town | 2570 |
| There were gray clouds and ultimate suspense, | |
| And a cold wind was coming. Dagonet, | |
| Now crouched at Merlins feet in his dejection, | |
| Saw multiplying lights far down below, | |
| Where lay the fevered streets. At length he felt | 2575 |
| On his lean shoulder Merlins tragic hand | |
| And trembled, knowing that a few more days | |
| Would see the last of Arthur and the first | |
| Of Modred, whose dark patience had attained | |
| To one precarious half of what he sought: | 2580 |
| And even the Queen herself may fall to him, | |
| Dagonet murmured.The Queen fall to Modred? | |
| Is that your only fear tonight? said Merlin; | |
| She may, but not for long.No, not my fear; | |
| For I fear nothing. But I wish no fate | 2585 |
| Like that for any woman the King loves, | |
| Although she be the scourge and the end of him | |
| That you saw coming, as I see it now. | |
| Dagonet shook, but he would have no tears, | |
| He swore, for any king, queen, knave, or wizard | 2590 |
| Albeit he was a stranger among those | |
| Who laughed at him because he was a fool. | |
| You said the truth, I cannot leave you now, | |
| He stammered, and was angry for the tears | |
| That mocked his will and choked him. | 2595 |
| |
| Merlin smiled, | |
| Faintly, and for the moment: Dagonet, | |
| I need your word as one of Arthurs knights | |
| That you will go on with me to the end | |
| Of my short way, and say unto no man | 2600 |
| Or woman that you found or saw me here. | |
| No good would follow, for a doubt would live | |
| Unstifled of my loyalty to him | |
| Whose deeds are wrought for those who are to come; | |
| And many who see not what I have seen, | 2605 |
| Or what you see tonight, would prattle on | |
| For ever, and their children after them, | |
| Of what might once have been had I gone down | |
| With you to Camelot to see the King. | |
| I came to see the King,but why see kings? | 2610 |
| All this that was to be is what I saw | |
| Before there was an Arthur to be king, | |
| And so to be a mirror wherein men | |
| May see themselves, and pause. If they see not, | |
| Or if they do see and they ponder not, | 2615 |
| I saw; but I was neither Fate nor God. | |
| I saw too much; and this would be the end, | |
| Were there to be end. I saw myself | |
| A sight no other man has ever seen; | |
| And through the dark that lay beyond myself | 2620 |
| I saw two fires that are to light the world. | |
| |
| On Dagonet the silent hand of Merlin | |
| Weighed now as living iron that held him down | |
| With a primeval power. Doubt, wonderment, | |
| Impatience, and a self-accusing sorrow | 2625 |
| Born of an ancient love, possessed and held him | |
| Until his love was more than he could name, | |
| And he was Merlins fool, not Arthurs now: | |
| Say what you will, I say that Im the fool | |
| Of Merlin, King of Nowhere; which is Here. | 2630 |
| With you for king and me for court, what else | |
| Have we to sigh for but a place to sleep? | |
| I know a tavern that will take us in; | |
| And on the morrow I shall follow you | |
| Until I die for you. And when I die
| 2635 |
| Well, Dagonet, the King is listening. | |
| And Dagonet answered, hearing in the words | |
| Of Merlin a grave humor and a sound | |
| Of graver pity, I shall die a fool. | |
| He heard what might have been a fathers laugh, | 2640 |
| Faintly behind him; and the living weight | |
| Of Merlins hand was lifted. They arose, | |
| And, saying nothing, found a groping way | |
| Down through the gloom together. Fiercer now, | |
| The wind was like a flying animal | 2645 |
| That beat the two of them incessantly | |
| With icy wings, and bit them as they went. | |
| The rock above them was an empty place | |
| Where neither seer nor fool should view again | |
| The stricken city. Colder blew the wind | 2650 |
| Across the world, and on it heavier lay | |
| The shadow and the burden of the night; | |
And there was darkness over Camelot.
THE END | |