| THE DARK of Modreds hour not yet availing, | |
| Gawaine it was who gave the King no peace; | |
| Gawaine it was who goaded him and drove him | |
| To Joyous Gard, where now for long his army, | |
| Disheartened with unprofitable slaughter, | 1215 |
| Fought for their weary King and wearily | |
| Died fighting. Only Gawaines hate it was | |
| That held the Kings knights and his warrior slaves | |
| Close-hived in exile, dreaming of old scenes | |
| Where Sorrow, and her demon sister Fear, | 1220 |
| Now shared the dusty food of loneliness, | |
| From Orkney to Cornwall. There was no peace, | |
| Nor could there be, so Gawaine told the King, | |
| And so the King in anguish told himself, | |
| Until there was an end of one of them | 1225 |
| Of Gawaine or the King, or Lancelot, | |
| Who might have had an end, as either knew, | |
| Long since of Arthur and of Gawaine with him. | |
| One evening in the moonlight Lancelot | |
| And Bors, his kinsman, and the loyalest, | 1230 |
| If least assured, of all who followed him, | |
| Sat gazing from an ivy-cornered casement | |
| In angry silence upon Arthurs horde, | |
| Who in the silver distance, without sound, | |
| Were dimly burying dead men. Sir Bors, | 1235 |
| Reiterating vainly what was told | |
| As wholesome hearing for unhearing ears, | |
| Said now to Lancelot: And though it be | |
| For no more now than always, let me speak: | |
| You have a pity for the King, you say, | 1240 |
| That is not hate; and for Gawaine you have | |
| A grief that is not hate. Pity and grief! | |
| And the Queen all but shrieking out her soul | |
| That morning when we snatched her from the faggots | |
| That were already crackling when we came! | 1245 |
| Why, Lancelot, if in you is an answer, | |
| Have you so vast a charity for the King, | |
| And so enlarged a grief for his gay nephew, | |
| Whose tireless hate for you has only one | |
| Disastrous appetite? You know for what | 1250 |
| For your slow blood. I knew you, Lancelot, | |
| When all this would have been a merry fable | |
| For smiling men to yawn at and forget, | |
| As they forget their physic. Pity and grief | |
| Are in your eyes. I see them well enough; | 1255 |
| And I saw once with you, in a far land, | |
| The glimmering of a Light that you saw nearer | |
| Too near for your salvation or advantage, | |
| If you be what you seem. What I saw then | |
| Made life a wilder mystery than ever, | 1260 |
| And earth a new illusion. You, maybe, | |
| Saw pity and grief. What I saw was a Gleam, | |
| To fight for or to die fortill we know | |
| Too much to fight or die. Tonight you turn | |
| A page whereon your deeds are to engross | 1265 |
| Inexorably their story of tomorrow; | |
| And then tomorrow. How many of these tomorrows | |
| Are coming to ask unanswered why this war | |
| Was fought and fought for the vain sake of slaughter? | |
| Why carve a compost of a multitude, | 1270 |
| When only two, discriminately despatched, | |
| Would sum the end of what you know is ending | |
| And leave to you the scorch of no more blood | |
| Upon your blistered soul? The Light you saw | |
| Was not for this poor crumbling realm of Arthur, | 1275 |
| Nor more for Rome; but for another state | |
| That shall be neither Rome nor Camelot, | |
| Nor one that we may name. Why longer, then, | |
| Are you and Gawaine to anoint with war, | |
| That even in hell would be superfluous, | 1280 |
| A reign already dying, and ripe to die? | |
| I leave you to your last interpretation | |
| Of what may be the pleasure of your madness. | |
| |
| Meanwhile a mist was hiding the dim work | |
| Of Arthurs men; and like another mist, | 1285 |
| All gray, came Guinevere to Lancelot, | |
| Whom Bors had left, not having had of him | |
| The largess of a word. She laid her hands | |
| Upon his hair, vexing him to brief speech: | |
| And youare you like Bors? | 1290 |
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| I may be so, | |
| She said; and she saw faintly where she gazed, | |
| Like distant insects of a shadowy world, | |
| Dim clusters here and there of shadowy men | |
| Whose occupation was her long abhorrence: | 1295 |
| If he came here and went away again, | |
| And all for nothing, I may be like Bors. | |
| Be glad, at least, that I am not like Mark | |
| Of Cornwall, who stood once behind a man | |
| And slew him without saying he was there. | 1300 |
| Not Arthur, I believe, nor yet Gawaine, | |
| Would have done quite like that; though only God | |
| May say what theres to come before this war | |
| Shall have an endunless you are to see, | |
| As I have seen so long, a way to end it. | 1305 |
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| He frowned, and watched again the coming mist | |
| That hid with a cold veil of augury | |
| The stillness of an empire that was dying: | |
| And are you here to say that if I kill | |
| Gawaine and Arthur we shall both be happy? | 1310 |
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| Is there still such a word as happiness? | |
| I come to tell you nothing, Lancelot, | |
| That folly and waste have not already told you. | |
| Were you another man than Lancelot, | |
| I might say folly and fear. But no,no fear, | 1315 |
| As I know fear, was yet composed and wrought, | |
| By man, for your delay and your undoing. | |
| God knows how cruelly and how truly now | |
| You might say, that of all who breathe and suffer | |
| There may be others who are not so near | 1320 |
| To you as I am, and so might say better | |
| What I say only with a tongue not apt | |
| Or guarded for much argument. A woman, | |
| As men have known since Adam heard the first | |
| Of Eves interpreting of how it was | 1325 |
| In Paradise, may see but one side only | |
| Where maybe there are two, to say no more. | |
| Yet here, for you and me, and so for all | |
| Caught with us in this lamentable net, | |
| I see but one deliverance: I see none, | 1330 |
| Unless you cut for us a clean way out, | |
| So rending these hate-woven webs of horror | |
| Before they mesh the world. And if the world | |
| Or Arthurs name be now a dying glory, | |
| Why bleed it for the sparing of a man | 1335 |
| Who hates you, and a King that hates himself? | |
| If war be warand I make only blood | |
| Of your red writingwhy dishonor Time | |
| For torture longer drawn in your slow game | |
| Of empty slaughter? Tomorrow it will be | 1340 |
| The Kings move, I suppose, and we shall have | |
| One more magnificent waste of nameless pawns, | |
| And of a few more knights. God, how you love | |
| This game!to make so loud a shambles of it, | |
| When you have only twice to lift your finger | 1345 |
| To signal peace, and give to this poor drenched | |
| And clotted earth a time to heal itself. | |
| Twice over I say to you, if war be war, | |
| Why play with it? Why look a thousand ways | |
| Away from what it is, only to find | 1350 |
| A few stale memories left that would requite | |
| Your tears with your destruction? Tears, I say, | |
| For I have seen your tears; I see them now, | |
| Although the moon is dimmer than it was | |
| Before I came. I wonder if I dimmed it. | 1355 |
| I wonder if I brought this fog here with me | |
| To make you chillier even than you are | |
| When I am not so near you
. Lancelot, | |
| There must be glimmering yet somewhere within you | |
| The last spark of a little willingness | 1360 |
| To tell me why it is this war goes on. | |
| Once I believed you told me everything; | |
| And what you may have hidden was no matter, | |
| For what you told was all I needed then. | |
| But crumbs that are a festival for joy | 1365 |
| Make a dry fare for sorrow; and the few | |
| Spared words that were enough to nourish faith, | |
| Are for our lonely fears a frugal poison. | |
| So, Lancelot, if only to bring back | |
| For once the ghost of a forgotten mercy, | 1370 |
| Say now, even though you strike me to the floor | |
| When you have said it, for what untold end | |
| All this goes on. Am I not anything now? | |
| Is Gawaine, who would feed you to wild swine, | |
| And laugh to see them tear you, more than I am? | 1375 |
| Is Arthur, at whose word I was dragged out | |
| To wear for you the fiery crown itself | |
| Of human torture, more to you than I am? | |
| Am I, because you saw death touch me once, | |
| Too gross a trifle to be longer prized? | 1380 |
| Not many days ago, when you lay hurt | |
| And aching on your bed, and I cried out | |
| Aloud on heaven that I should bring you there, | |
| You said you would have paid the price of hell | |
| To save me that foul morning from the fire. | 1385 |
| You paid enough: yet when you told me that, | |
| With death going on outside the while you said it, | |
| I heard the woman in me asking why. | |
| Nor do I wholly find an answer now | |
| In any shine of any far-off Light | 1390 |
| You may have seen. Knowing the world, you know | |
| How surely and how indifferently that Light | |
| Shall burn through many a war that is to be, | |
| To which this war were no more than a smear | |
| On circumstance. The world has not begun. | 1395 |
| The Light you saw was not the Light of Rome, | |
| Or Time, though you seem battling here for time, | |
| While you are still at war with Arthurs host | |
| And Gawaines hate. How many thousand men | |
| Are going to their death before Gawaine | 1400 |
| And Arthur go to theirsand I to mine? | |
| Lancelot, looking off into the fog, | |
| In which his fancy found the watery light | |
| Of a dissolving moon, sighed without hope | |
| Of saying what the Queen would have him say: | 1405 |
| I fear, my lady, my fair nephew Bors, | |
| Whose tongue affords a random wealth of sound, | |
| May lately have been scattering on the air | |
| For you a music less oracular | |
| Than to your liking
. Say, then, you had split | 1410 |
| The uncovered heads of two men with an axe, | |
| Not knowing whose headsif thats a palliation | |
| And seen their brains fly out and splash the ground | |
| As they were common offal, and then learned | |
| That you had butchered Gaheris and Gareth | 1415 |
| Gareth, who had for me a greater love | |
| Than any that has ever trod the ways | |
| Of a gross world that early would have crushed him, | |
| Even you, in your quick fever of dispatch, | |
| Might hesitate before you drew the blood | 1420 |
| Of him that was their brother, and my friend. | |
| Yes, he was more my friend, was I to know, | |
| Than I had said or guessed; for it was Gawaine | |
| Who gave to Bors the word that might have saved us, | |
| And Arthurs fading empire, for the time | 1425 |
| Till Modred had in his dark wormy way | |
| Crawled into light again with a new ruin | |
| At work in that occult snakes brain of his. | |
| And even in your prompt obliteration | |
| Of Arthur from a changing world that rocks | 1430 |
| Itself into a dizziness around him, | |
| A moment of attendant reminiscence | |
| Were possible, if not likely. Had he made | |
| A knight of you, scrolling your name with his | |
| Among the first of menand in his love | 1435 |
| Inveterately the firstand had you then | |
| Betrayed his fame and honor to the dust | |
| That now is choking him, you might in time | |
| You might, I sayto my degree succumb. | |
| Forgive me, if my lean words are for yours | 1440 |
| Too bare an answer, and ascribe to them | |
| No tinge of allegation or reproach. | |
| What I said once to you I said for ever | |
| That I would pay the price of hell to save you. | |
| As for the Light, leave that for me alone; | 1445 |
| Or leave as much of it as yet for me | |
| May shine. Should I, through any unforeseen | |
| Remote effect of awkwardness or chance, | |
| Be done to death or durance by the King, | |
| I leave some writing wherein I beseech | 1450 |
| For you the clemency of afterthought. | |
| Were I to die and he to see me dead, | |
| My living prayer, surviving the cold hand | |
| That wrote, would leave you in his larger prudence, | |
| If I have known the King, free and secure | 1455 |
| To bide the summoning of another King | |
| More great than Arthur. But all this is language; | |
| And I know more than words have yet the scope | |
| To show of whats to come. Go now to rest; | |
| And sleep, if there be sleep. There was a moon; | 1460 |
| And now there is no sky where the moon was. | |
| Sometimes I wonder if this be the world | |
| We live in, or the world that lives in us. | |
| |
| The new day, with a cleansing crash of rain | |
| That washed and sluiced the soiled and hoof-torn field | 1465 |
| Of Joyous Gard, prepared for Lancelot | |
| And his wet men the not unwelcome scene | |
| Of a drenched emptiness without an army. | |
| Our friend the foe is given to dry fighting, | |
| Said Lionel, advancing with a shrug, | 1470 |
| To Lancelot, who saw beyond the rain. | |
| And later Lionel said, What fellows are they, | |
| Who are so thirsty for their morning ride | |
| That swimming horses would have hardly time | |
| To eat before they swam? You, Lancelot, | 1475 |
| If I see rather better than a blind man, | |
| Are waiting on three pilgrims who must love you, | |
| To voyage a flood like this. No friend have I, | |
| To whisper not of three, on whom to count | |
| For such a loyal wash. The King himself | 1480 |
| Would entertain a kindly qualm or so, | |
| Before he suffered such a burst of heaven | |
| To splash even three musicians. | |
| |
| Good Lionel, | |
| I thank you, but you need afflict your fancy | 1485 |
| No longer for my sake. For these who come, | |
| If I be not immoderately deceived, | |
| Are bearing with them the white flower of peace | |
| Which I could hope might never parch or wither, | |
| Were I a stranger to this ravening world | 1490 |
| Where we have mostly a few rags and tags | |
| Between our skins and those that wrap the flesh | |
| Of less familiar brutes we feed upon | |
| That we may feed the more on one another. | |
| |
| Well, now that we have had your morning grace | 1495 |
| Before our morning meat, pray tell to me | |
| The why and whence of this anomalous | |
| Horse-riding offspring of the Fates. Who are they? | |
| |
| I do not read their features or their names; | |
| But if I read the King, they are from Rome, | 1500 |
| Spurred here by the Kings prayer for no delay; | |
| And I pray God aloud that I say true. | |
| And after a long watching, neither speaking, | |
| You do, said Lionel; for by my soul, | |
| I see no other than my lord the Bishop, | 1505 |
| Who does Gods holy work in Rochester. | |
| Since you are here, you may as well abide here, | |
| While I go foraging. | |
| |
| Now in the gateway, | |
| The Bishop, who rode something heavily, | 1510 |
| Was glad for rest though grim in his refusal | |
| At once of entertainment or refection: | |
| What else you do, Sir Lancelot, receive me | |
| As one among the honest when I say | |
| That my voluminous thanks were less by cantos | 1515 |
| Than my damp manner feels. Nay, hear my voice: | |
| If once Im off this royal animal, | |
| How o Gods name shall I get on again? | |
| Moreover, the King waits. With your accord, | |
| Sir Lancelot, Ill dry my rainy face, | 1520 |
| While you attend whats herein written down, | |
| In language of portentous brevity, | |
| For the Kings gracious pleasure and for yours, | |
| Whereof the burden is the word of Rome, | |
| Requiring your deliverance of the Queen | 1525 |
| Not more than seven days hence. The King returns | |
| Anon to Camelot; and I go with him, | |
| Praise God, if what he waits now is your will | |
| To end an endless war. No recrudescence, | |
| As you may soon remark, of what is past | 1530 |
| Awaits the Queen, or any doubt soever | |
| Of the Kings mercy. Have you more to say | |
| Than Rome has written, or do I perceive | |
| Your tranquil acquiescence? Is it so? | |
| Then be it so! Venite. Pax vobiscum. | 1535 |
| To end an endless war with pax vobiscum | |
| Would seem a ready schedule for a bishop; | |
| Would God that I might see the end of it! | |
| Lancelot, like a statue in the gateway, | |
| Regarded with a qualified rejoicing | 1540 |
| The fading out of his three visitors | |
| Into the cold and swallowing wall of storm | |
| Between him and the battle-wearied King | |
| And the unwearying hatred of Gawaine. | |
| To Bors his nephew, and to Lionel, | 1545 |
| He glossed a tale of Roman intercession, | |
| Knowing that for a time, and a long time, | |
| The sweetest fare that he might lay before them | |
| Would hold an evil taste of compromise. | |
| To Guinevere, who questioned him at noon | 1550 |
| Of what by then had made of Joyous Gard | |
| A shaken hive of legend-heavy wonder, | |
| He said what most it was the undying Devil, | |
| Who ruled him when he might, would have him say: | |
| Your confident arrangement of the board | 1555 |
| For this days game was notably not to be; | |
| Today was not for the Kings move or mine, | |
| But for the Bishops; and the board is empty. | |
| The words that I have waited for more days | |
| Than are to now my tallage of gray hairs | 1560 |
| Have come at last, and at last you are free. | |
| So, for a time, there will be no more war; | |
| And you are going home to Camelot. | |
| |
| To Camelot?
| |
| To Camelot. But his words | 1565 |
| Were said for no queens hearing. In his arms | |
| He caught her when she fell; and in his arms | |
| He carried her away. The word of Rome | |
| Was in the rain. There was no other sound. | |