| WHETHER all towns and all who live in them | |
| So long as they be somewhere in this world | |
| That we in our complacency call ours | |
| Are more or less the same, I leave to you. | |
| I should say less. Whether or not, meanwhile, | 5 |
| Weve all two legsand as for that, we havent | |
| There were three kinds of men where I was born: | |
| The good, the not so good, and Tasker Norcross. | |
| Now there are two kinds. | |
| |
| Meaning, as I divine, | 10 |
| Your friend is dead, I ventured. | |
| |
| Ferguson, | |
| Who talked himself at last out of the world | |
| He censured, and is therefore silent now, | |
| Agreed indifferently: My friends are dead | 15 |
| Or most of them. | |
| |
| Remember one that isnt, | |
| I said, protesting. Honor him for his ears; | |
| Treasure him also for his understanding. | |
| Ferguson sighed, and then talked on again: | 20 |
| You have an overgrown alacrity | |
| For saying nothing much and hearing less; | |
| And Ive a thankless wonder, at the start, | |
| How much it is to you that I shall tell | |
| What I have now to say of Tasker Norcross, | 25 |
| And how much to the air that is around you. | |
| But given a patience that is not averse | |
| To the slow tragedies of haunted men | |
| Horrors, in fact, if youve a skilful eye | |
| To know them at their firesides, or out walking, | 30 |
| |
| Horrors, I said, are my necessity; | |
| And I would have them, for their best effect, | |
| Always out walking. | |
| |
| Ferguson frowned at me: | |
| The wisest of us are not those who laugh | 35 |
| Before they know. Most of us never know | |
| Or the long toil of our mortality | |
| Would not be done. Most of us never know | |
| And there you have a reason to believe | |
| In God, if you may have no other. Norcross, | 40 |
| Or so I gather of his infirmity, | |
| Was given to know more than he should have known, | |
| And only God knows why. See for yourself | |
| An old house full of ghosts of ancestors, | |
| Who did their best, or worst, and having done it, | 45 |
| Died honorably; and each with a distinction | |
| That hardly would have been for him that had it, | |
| Had honor failed him wholly as a friend. | |
| Honor that is a friend begets a friend. | |
| Whether or not we love him, still we have him; | 50 |
| And we must live somehow by what we have, | |
| Or then we die. If you say chemistry, | |
| Then you must have your molecules in motion, | |
| And in their right abundance. Failing either, | |
| You have not long to dance. Failing a friend, | 55 |
| A genius, or a madness, or a faith | |
| Larger than desperation, you are here | |
| For as much longer than you like as may be. | |
| Imagining now, by way of an example, | |
| Myself a more or less remembered phantom | 60 |
| Again, I should say lesshow many times | |
| A day should I come back to you? No answer. | |
| Forgive me when I seem a little careless, | |
| But we must have examples, or be lucid | |
| Without them; and I question your adherence | 65 |
| To such an undramatic narrative | |
| As this of mine, without the personal hook. | |
| |
| A time is given in Ecclesiastes | |
| For divers works, I told him. Is there one | |
| For saying nothing in return for nothing? | 70 |
| If not, there should be. I could feel his eyes, | |
| And they were like two cold inquiring points | |
| Of a sharp metal. When I looked again, | |
| To see them shine, the cold that I had felt | |
| Was gone to make way for a smouldering | 75 |
| Of lonely fire that I, as I knew then, | |
| Could never quench with kindness or with lies. | |
| I should have done whatever there was to do | |
| For Ferguson, yet I could not have mourned | |
| In honesty for once around the clock | 80 |
| The loss of him, for my sake or for his, | |
| Try as I might; nor would his ghost approve, | |
| Had I the power and the unthinking will | |
| To make him tread again without an aim | |
| The road that was behind himand without | 85 |
| The faith, or friend, or genius, or the madness | |
| That he contended was imperative. | |
| |
| After a silence that had been too long, | |
| It may be quite as well we dont, he said; | |
| As well, I mean, that we dont always say it. | 90 |
| You know best what I mean, and I suppose | |
| You might have said it better. What was that? | |
| Incorrigible? Am I incorrigible? | |
| Well, its a word; and a word has its use, | |
| Or, like a man, it will soon have a grave. | 95 |
| Its a good word enough. Incorrigible, | |
| May be, for all I know, the word for Norcross. | |
| See for yourself that house of his again | |
| That he called home: An old house, painted white, | |
| Square as a box, and chillier than a tomb | 100 |
| To look at or to live in. There were trees | |
| Too many of them, if such a thing may be | |
| Before it and around it. Down in front | |
| There was a road, a railroad, and a river; | |
| Then there were hills behind it, and more trees. | 105 |
| The thing would fairly stare at you through trees, | |
| Like a pale inmate out of a barred window | |
| With a green shade half down; and I dare say | |
| People who passed have said: Theres where he lives. | |
| We know him, but we do not seem to know | 110 |
| That we remember any good of him, | |
| Or any evil that is interesting. | |
| There you have all we know and all we care. | |
| They might have said it in all sorts of ways; | |
| And then, if they perceived a cat, they might | 115 |
| Or might not have remembered what they said. | |
| The cat might have a personality | |
| And maybe the same one the Lord left out | |
| Of Tasker Norcross, who, for lack of it, | |
| Saw the same sun go down year after year; | 120 |
| All which at last was my discovery. | |
| And only mine, so far as evidence | |
| Enlightens one more darkness. You have known | |
| All round you, all your days, men who are nothing | |
| Nothing, I mean, so far as time tells yet | 125 |
| Of any other need it has of them | |
| Than to make sextons hardybut no less | |
| Are to themselves incalculably something, | |
| And therefore to be cherished. God, you see, | |
| Being sorry for them in their fashioning, | 130 |
| Indemnified them with a quaint esteem | |
| Of self, and with illusions long as life. | |
| You know them well, and you have smiled at them; | |
| And they, in their serenity, may have had | |
| Their time to smile at you. Blessed are they | 135 |
| That see themselves for what they never were | |
| Or were to be, and are, for their defect, | |
| At ease with mirrors and the dim remarks | |
| That pass their tranquil ears. | |
| |
| Come, come, said I; | 140 |
| There may be names in your compendium | |
| That we are not yet all on fire for shouting. | |
| Skin most of us of our mediocrity, | |
| We should have nothing then that we could scratch. | |
| The picture smarts. Cover it, if you please, | 145 |
| And do so rather gently. Now for Norcross. | |
| |
| Ferguson closed his eyes in resignation, | |
| While a dead sigh came out of him. Good God! | |
| He said, and said it only half aloud, | |
| As if he knew no longer now, nor cared, | 150 |
| If one were there to listen: Have I said nothing | |
| Nothing at allof Norcross? Do you mean | |
| To patronize him till his name becomes | |
| A toy made out of letters? If a name | |
| Is all you need, arrange an honest column | 155 |
| Of all the people you have ever known | |
| That you have never liked. Youll have enough; | |
| And youll have mine, moreover. No, not yet. | |
| If I assume too many privileges, | |
| I pay, and I alone, for their assumption; | 160 |
| By which, if I assume a darker knowledge | |
| Of Norcross than another, let the weight | |
| Of my injustice aggravate the load | |
| That is not on your shoulders. When I came | |
| To know this fellow Norcross in his house, | 165 |
| I found him as I found him in the street | |
| No more, no less; indifferent, but no better. | |
| Worse were not quite the word: he was not bad; | |
| He was not
well, he was not anything. | |
| Has your invention ever entertained | 170 |
| The picture of a dusty worm so dry | |
| That even the early bird would shake his head | |
| And fly on farther for another breakfast? | |
| |
| But why forget the fortune of the worm, | |
| I said, if in the dryness you deplore | 175 |
| Salvation centred and endured? Your Norcross | |
| May have been one for many to have envied. | |
| |
| Salvation? Fortune? Would the worm say that? | |
| He might; and therefore I dismiss the worm | |
| With all dry things but one. Figures away, | 180 |
| Do you begin to see this man a little? | |
| Do you begin to see him in the air, | |
| With all the vacant horrors of his outline | |
| For you to fill with more than it will hold? | |
| If so, you neednt crown yourself at once | 185 |
| With epic laurel if you seem to fill it. | |
| Horrors, I say, for in the fires and forks | |
| Of a new hellif one were not enough | |
| I doubt if a new horror would have held him | |
| With a malignant ingenuity | 190 |
| More to be feared than his before he died. | |
| You smile, as if in doubt. Well, smile again. | |
| Now come into his house, along with me: | |
| The four square sombre things that you see first | |
| Around you are four walls that go as high | 195 |
| As to the ceiling. Norcross knew them well, | |
| And he knew others like them. Fasten to that | |
| With all the claws of your intelligence; | |
| And hold the man before you in his house | |
| As if he were a white rat in a box, | 200 |
| And one that knew himself to be no other. | |
| I tell you twice that he knew all about it, | |
| That you may not forget the worst of all | |
| Our tragedies begin with what we know. | |
| Could Norcross only not have known, I wonder | 205 |
| How many would have blessed and envied him! | |
| Could he have had the usual eye for spots | |
| On others, and for none upon himself, | |
| I smile to ponder on the carriages | |
| That might as well as not have clogged the town | 210 |
| In honor of his end. For there was gold, | |
| You see, though all he needed was a little, | |
| And what he gave said nothing of who gave it. | |
| He would have given it all if in return | |
| There might have been a more sufficient face | 215 |
| To greet him when he shaved. Though you insist | |
| It is the dower, and always, of our degree | |
| Not to be cursed with such invidious insight, | |
| Remember that you stand, you and your fancy, | |
| Now in his house; and since we are together, | 220 |
| See for yourself and tell me what you see. | |
| Tell me the best you see. Make a slight noise | |
| Of recognition when you find a book | |
| That you would not as lief read upside down | |
| As otherwise, for example. If there you fail, | 225 |
| Observe the walls and lead me to the place, | |
| Where you are led. If there you meet a picture | |
| That holds you near it for a longer time | |
| Than you are sorry, you may call it yours, | |
| And hang it in the dark of your remembrance, | 230 |
| Where Norcross never sees. How can he see | |
| That has no eyes to see? And as for music, | |
| He paid with empty wonder for the pangs | |
| Of his infrequent forced endurance of it; | |
| And having had no pleasure, paid no more | 235 |
| For needless immolation, or for the sight | |
| Of those who heard what he was never to hear. | |
| To see them listening was itself enough | |
| To make him suffer; and to watch worn eyes, | |
| On other days, of strangers who forgot | 240 |
| Their sorrows and their failures and themselves | |
| Before a few mysterious odds and ends | |
| Of marble carted from the Parthenon | |
| And all for seeing what he was never to see, | |
| Because it was alive and he was dead | 245 |
| Here was a wonder that was more profound | |
| Than any that was in fiddles and brass horns. | |
| |
| He knew, and in his knowledge there was death. | |
| He knew there was a region all around him | |
| That lay outside mans havoc and affairs, | 250 |
| And yet was not all hostile to their tumult, | |
| Where poets would have served and honored him, | |
| And saved him, had there been anything to save. | |
| But there was nothing, and his tethered range | |
| Was only a small desert. Kings of song | 255 |
| Are not for thrones in deserts. Towers of sound | |
| And flowers of sense are but a waste of heaven | |
| Where there is none to know them from the rocks | |
| And sand-grass of his own monotony | |
| That makes earth less than earth. He could see that, | 260 |
| And he could see no more. The captured light | |
| That may have been or not, for all he cared, | |
| The song that is in sculpture was not his, | |
| But only, to his God-forgotten eyes, | |
| One more immortal nonsense in a world | 265 |
| Where all was mortal, or had best be so, | |
| And so be done with. Art, he would have said, | |
| Is not life, and must therefore be a lie; | |
| And with a few profundities like that | |
| He would have controverted and dismissed | 270 |
| The benefit of the Greeks. He had heard of them, | |
| As he had heard of his aspiring soul | |
| Never to the perceptible advantage, | |
| In his esteem, of either. Faith, he said, | |
| Or would have said if he had thought of it, | 275 |
| Lives in the same house with Philosophy, | |
| Where the two feed on scraps and are forlorn | |
| As orphans after war. He could see stars, | |
| On a clear night, but he had not an eye | |
| To see beyond them. He could hear spoken words, | 280 |
| But had no ear for silence when alone. | |
| He could eat food of which he knew the savor, | |
| But had no palate for the Bread of Life, | |
| That human desperation, to his thinking, | |
| Made famous long ago, having no other. | 285 |
| Now do you see? Do you begin to see? | |
| I told him that I did begin to see; | |
| And I was nearer than I should have been | |
| To laughing at his malign inclusiveness, | |
| When I considered that, with all our speed, | 290 |
| We are not laughing yet at funerals. | |
| I see him now as I could see him then, | |
| And I see now that it was good for me, | |
| As it was good for him, that I was quiet; | |
| For Times eye was on Ferguson, and the shaft | 295 |
| Of its inquiring hesitancy had touched him, | |
| Or so I chose to fancy more than once | |
| Before he told of Norcross. When the word | |
| Of his release (he would have called it so) | |
| Made half an inch of news, there were no tears | 300 |
| That are recorded. Women there may have been | |
| To wish him back, though I should say, not knowing, | |
| The few there were to mourn were not for love, | |
| And were not lovely. Nothing of them, at least, | |
| Was in the meagre legend that I gathered | 305 |
| Years after, when a chance of travel took me | |
| So near the region of his nativity | |
| That a few miles of leisure brought me there; | |
| For there I found a friendly citizen | |
| Who led me to his house among the trees | 310 |
| That were above a railroad and a river. | |
| Square as a box and chillier than a tomb | |
| It was indeed, to look at or to live in | |
| All which had I been told. Ferguson died, | |
| The stranger said, and then there was an auction. | 315 |
| I live here, but Ive never yet been warm. | |
| Remember him? Yes, I remember him. | |
| I knew himas a man may know a tree | |
| For twenty years. He may have held himself | |
| A little high when he was here, but now
| 320 |
| Yes, I remember Ferguson. Oh, yes. | |
| Others, I found, remembered Ferguson, | |
| But none of them had heard of Tasker Norcross. | |