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(I.) I THOUGHT once how Theocritus had sung | |
| Of the sweet years, the dear and wished-for years, | |
| Who each one in a gracious hand appears | |
| To bear a gift for mortals, old or young: | |
| And, as I mused it in his antique tongue, | 5 |
| I saw, in gradual vision through my tears, | |
| The sweet, sad years, the melancholy years, | |
| Those of my own life, who by turns had flung | |
| A shadow across me. Straightway I was ware, | |
| So weeping, how a mystic Shape did move | 10 |
| Behind me, and drew me backward by the hair; | |
| And a voice said in mastery, while I strove, | |
| Guess now who holds thee?Death, I said. But, there, | |
| The silver answer rang,Not Death, but Love. | |
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(IV.) Thou hast thy calling to some palace-floor. | 15 |
| Most gracious singer of high poems! where | |
| The dancers will break footing, from the care | |
| Of watching up thy pregnant lips for more. | |
| And dost thou lift this houses latch too poor | |
| For hand of thine? and canst thou think and bear | 20 |
| To let thy music drop here unaware | |
| In folds of golden fulness at my door? | |
| Look up and see the casement broken in, | |
| The bats and owlets builders in the roof! | |
| My cricket chirps against thy mandolin. | 25 |
| Hush, call no echo up in further proof | |
| Of desolation! theres a voice within | |
| That weeps
as thou must sing
alone, aloof. | |
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(V.) I lift my heavy heart up solemnly, | |
| As once Electra her sepulchral urn, | 30 |
| And, looking in thine eyes, I overturn | |
| The ashes at thy feet. Behold and see | |
| What a great heap of grief lay hid in me, | |
| And how the red wild sparkles dimly burn | |
| Through the ashen greyness. If thy foot in scorn | 35 |
| Could tread them out to darkness utterly, | |
| It might be well perhaps. But if instead | |
| Thou wait beside me for the wind to blow | |
| The grey dust up,
those laurels on thine head, | |
| O my Belovëd, will not shield thee so, | 40 |
| That none of all the fires shall scorch and shred | |
| The hair beneath. Stand further off then! go. | |
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(VI.) Go from me. Yet I feel that I shall stand | |
| Henceforward in thy shadow. Nevermore | |
| Alone upon the threshold of my door | 45 |
| Of individual life, I shall command | |
| The uses of my soul, nor lift my hand | |
| Serenely in the sunshine as before, | |
| Without the sense of that which I forbore | |
| Thy touch upon the palm. The widest land | 50 |
| Doom takes to part us, leaves thy heart in mine | |
| With pulses that beat double. What I do | |
| And what I dream include thee, as the wine | |
| Must taste of its own grapes. And when I sue | |
| God for myself, He hears that name of thine, | 55 |
| And sees within my eyes the tears of two. | |
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(IX.) Can it be right to give what I can give? | |
| To let thee sit beneath the fall of tears | |
| As salt as mine, and hear the sighing years | |
| Re-sighing on my lips renuncitative | 60 |
| Through those infrequent smiles which fail to live | |
| For all thy adjurations? O my fears, | |
| That this can scarce be right! We are not peers, | |
| So to be lovers; and I own, and grieve, | |
| That givers of such gifts as mine are, must | 65 |
| Be counted with the ungenerous. Out, alas! | |
| I will not soil thy purple with my dust, | |
| Nor breathe my poison on thy Venice-glass, | |
| Nor give thee any lovewhich were unjust. | |
| Beloved, I only love thee! let it pass. | 70 |
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(X.) Yet, love, mere love, is beautiful indeed | |
| And worthy of acceptation. Fire is bright, | |
| Let temple burn, or flax; an equal light | |
| Leaps in the flame from cedar-plank or weed: | |
| And love is fire. And when I say at need | 75 |
| I love thee
mark!
I love theein thy sight | |
| I stand transfigured, glorified aright, | |
| With conscience of the new rays that proceed | |
| Out of my face toward thine. Theres nothing low | |
| In love, when love the lowest: meanest creatures | 80 |
| Who love God, God accepts while loving so. | |
| And what I feel, across the inferior features | |
| Of what I am, doth flash itself, and show | |
| How that great work of Love enhances Natures. | |
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(XIII.) And wilt thou have me fashion into speech | 85 |
| The love I bear thee, finding words enough, | |
| And hold the torch out, while the winds are rough, | |
| Between our faces, to cast light on each? | |
| I drop it at thy feet. I cannot teach | |
| My hand to hold my spirit so far off | 90 |
| From myselfmethat I should bring thee proof | |
| In words, of love hid in me out of reach. | |
| Nay, let the silence of my womanhood | |
| Commend my woman-love to thy belief, | |
| Seeing that I stand unwon, however wooed, | 95 |
| And rend the garment of my life, in brief, | |
| By a most dauntless, voiceless fortitude, | |
| Lest one touch of this heart convey its grief. | |
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(XIV.) If thou must love me, let it be for nought | |
| Except for loves sake only. Do not say | 100 |
| I love her for her smileher lookher way | |
| Of speaking gently,for a trick of thought | |
| That falls in well with mine, and certes brought | |
| A sense of pleasant ease on such a day | |
| For these things in themselves. Belovëd, may | 105 |
| Be changed, or change for thee,and love, so wrought, | |
| May be unwrought so. Neither love me for | |
| Thine own dear pitys wiping my cheeks dry, | |
| A creature might forget to weep, who bore | |
| Thy comfort long, and lose thy love thereby! | 110 |
| But love me for loves sake, that evermore | |
| Thou mayst love on, through loves eternity. | |
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(XVIII.) I never gave a lock of hair away | |
| To a man, Dearest, except this to thee, | |
| Which now upon my fingers thoughtfully, | 115 |
| I ring out to the full brown length and say | |
| Take it. My day of youth went yesterday; | |
| My hair no longer bounds to my foots glee, | |
| Nor plant I it from rose or myrtle-tree, | |
| As girls do, any more: it only may | 120 |
| Now shade on two pale cheeks the mark of tears, | |
| Taught drooping from the head that hangs aside | |
| Through sorrows trick. I thought the funeral-shears | |
| Would take this first, but Love is justified, | |
| Take it thou,finding pure, from all those years, | 125 |
| The kiss my mother left here when she died. | |
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(XX.) Belovëd, my Belovëd, when I think | |
| That thou wast in the world a year ago, | |
| What time I sate alone here in the snow | |
| And saw no footprint, heard the silence sink | 130 |
| No moment at thy voice, but, link by link, | |
| Went counting all my chains as if that so | |
| They never could fall off at any blow | |
| Struck by thy possible hand, why, thus I drink | |
| Of lifes great cup of wonder! Wonderful, | 135 |
| Never to feel thee thrill the day or night | |
| With personal act or speech,nor ever cull | |
| Some prescience of thee with the blossoms white | |
| Thou sawest growing! Atheists are as dull, | |
| Who cannot guess Gods presence out of sight. | 140 |
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(XXI.) Say over again, and yet once over again, | |
| That thou dost love me. Though the word repeated | |
| Should seem a cuckoo-song, as thou dost treat it. | |
| Remember, never to the hill or plain, | |
| Valley and wood, without her cuckoo-strain | 145 |
| Comes the fresh Spring in all her green completed. | |
| Belovëd, I, amid the darkness greeted | |
| By a doubtful spirit-voice, in that doubts pain | |
| Cry, Speak once morethou lovest! Who can fear | |
| Too many stars, though each in heaven shall roll, | 150 |
| Too many flowers, though each shall crown the year? | |
| Say thou dost love me, love me, love metoll | |
| The silver iterance!only minding, Dear, | |
| To love me also in silence with thy soul. | |
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(XXVI.) I lived with visions for my company | 155 |
| Instead of men and women, years ago, | |
| And found them gentle mates, nor thought to know | |
| A sweeter music than they played to me. | |
| But soon their trailing purple was not free | |
| Of this worlds dust, their lutes did silent grow, | 160 |
| And I myself grew faint and blind below | |
| Their vanishing eyes. Then THOU didst cometo be, | |
| Belovëd, what they seemed. Their shining fronts, | |
| Their songs, their splendours, (better, yet the same, | |
| As river-water hallowed into fonts) | 165 |
| Met in thee, and from out thee overcame | |
| My soul with satisfaction of all wants: | |
| Because Gods gifts put mans best dreams to shame. | |
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(XXXV.) If I leave all for thee, wilt thou exchange | |
| And be all to me? Shall I never miss | 170 |
| Home-talk and blessing and the common kiss | |
| That comes to each in turn, nor count it strange, | |
| When I look up, to drop on a new range | |
| Of walls and floors, another home than this? | |
| Nay, wilt thou fill that place by me which is | 175 |
| Filled by dead eyes too tender to know change? | |
| Thats hardest. If to conquer love, has tried, | |
| To conquer grief, tries more, as all things prove; | |
| For grief indeed is love and grief beside. | |
| Alas, I have grieved so I am hard to love. | 180 |
| Yet love mewilt thou? Open thine heart wide, | |
| And fold within the wet wings of thy dove. | |
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(XXXVIII.) First time he kissed me, he but only kissed | |
| The fingers of this hand wherewith I write; | |
| And ever since, it grew more clean and white, | 185 |
| Slow to world-greetings, quick with its Oh, list, | |
| When the angels speak. A ring of amethyst | |
| I could not wear here, plainer to my sight, | |
| Than that first kiss. The second passed in height | |
| The first, and sought the forehead, and half missed, | 190 |
| Half falling on the hair. O beyond meed! | |
| That was the chrism of love, which loves own crown, | |
| With sanctifying sweetness, did precede. | |
| The third upon my lips was folded down | |
| In perfect, purple state; since when, indeed, | 195 |
| I have been proud and said, My love, my own. | |
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(XLIII.) How do I love thee? Let me count the ways. | |
| I love thee to the depth and breadth and height | |
| My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight | |
| For the ends of Being and ideal Grace. | 200 |
| I love thee to the level of everydays | |
| Most quiet need, by sun and candlelight. | |
| I love thee freely, as men strive for Right; | |
| I love thee purely, as they turn from Praise. | |
| I love thee with the passion put to use | 205 |
| In my old griefs, and with my childhoods faith. | |
| I love thee with a love I seemed to lose | |
| With my lost saints,I love thee with the breath, | |
| Smiles, tears, of all my life!and, if God choose, | |
| I shall but love thee better after death. | 210 |
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