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Circa 1922 I STAID the night for shelter at a farm | |
| Behind the mountain, with a mother and son, | |
| Two old-believers. They did all the talking. | |
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The Mother Folks think a witch who has familiar spirits | |
| She could call up to pass a winter evening, | 5 |
| But wont, should be burned at the stake or something. | |
| Summoning spirits isnt Button, button, | |
| Whos got the button, youre to understand. | |
The Son Mother can make a common table rear | |
| And kick with two legs like an army mule. | 10 |
The Mother And when Ive done it, what good have I done? | |
| Rather than tip a table for you, let me | |
| Tell you what Ralle the Sioux Control once told me. | |
| He said the dead had souls, but when I asked him | |
| How that could beI thought the dead were souls, | 15 |
| He broke my trance. Dont that make you suspicious | |
| That theres something the dead are keeping back? | |
| Yes, theres something the dead are keeping back. | |
The Son You wouldnt want to tell him what we have | |
| Up attic, mother? | 20 |
The Mother Bonesa skeleton. | |
The Son But the headboard of mothers bed is pushed | |
| Against the attic door: the door is nailed. | |
| Its harmless. Mother hears it in the night | |
| Halting perplexed behind the barrier | 25 |
| Of door and headboard. Where it wants to get | |
| Is back into the cellar where it came from. | |
The Mother Well never let them, will we, son? Well never! | |
The Son It left the cellar forty years ago | |
| And carried itself like a pile of dishes | 30 |
| Up one flight from the cellar to the kitchen, | |
| Another from the kitchen to the bedroom, | |
| Another from the bedroom to the attic, | |
| Right past both father and mother, and neither stopped it. | |
| Father had gone upstairs; mother was downstairs. | 35 |
| I was a baby: I dont know where I was. | |
The Mother The only fault my husband found with me | |
| I went to sleep before I went to bed, | |
| Especially in winter when the bed | |
| Might just as well be ice and the clothes snow. | 40 |
| The night the bones came up the cellar-stairs | |
| Toffile had gone to bed alone and left me, | |
| But left an open door to cool the room off | |
| So as to sort of turn me out of it. | |
| I was just coming to myself enough | 45 |
| To wonder where the cold was coming from, | |
| When I heard Toffile upstairs in the bedroom | |
| And thought I heard him downstairs in the cellar. | |
| The board we had laid down to walk dry-shod on | |
| When there was water in the cellar in spring | 50 |
| Struck the hard cellar bottom. And then someone | |
| Began the stairs, two footsteps for each step, | |
| The way a man with one leg and a crutch, | |
| Or little child, comes up. It wasnt Toffile: | |
| It wasnt anyone who could be there. | 55 |
| The bulkhead double-doors were double-locked | |
| And swollen tight and buried under snow. | |
| The cellar windows were banked up with sawdust | |
| And swollen tight and buried under snow. | |
| It was the bones. I knew themand good reason. | 60 |
| My first impulse was to get to the knob | |
| And hold the door. But the bones didnt try | |
| The door; they halted helpless on the landing, | |
| Waiting for things to happen in their favor. | |
| The faintest restless rustling ran all through them. | 65 |
| I never could have done the thing I did | |
| If the wish hadnt been too strong in me | |
| To see how they were mounted for this walk. | |
| I had a vision of them put together | |
| Not like a man, but like a chandelier. | 70 |
| So suddenly I flung the door wide on him. | |
| A moment he stood balancing with emotion, | |
| And all but lost himself. (A tongue of fire | |
| Flashed out and licked along his upper teeth. | |
| Smoke rolled inside the sockets of his eyes.) | 75 |
| Then he came at me with one hand outstretched, | |
| The way he did in life once; but this time | |
| I struck the hand off brittle on the floor, | |
| And fell back from him on the floor myself. | |
| The finger-pieces slid in all directions. | 80 |
| (Where did I see one of those pieces lately? | |
| Hand me my button-boxit must be there.) | |
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| I sat up on the floor and shouted, Toffile, | |
| Its coming up to you. It had its choice | |
| Of the door to the cellar or the hall. | 85 |
| It took the hall door for the novelty, | |
| And set off briskly for so slow a thing, | |
| Still going every which way in the joints, though, | |
| So that it looked like lightning or a scribble, | |
| From the slap I had just now given its hand. | 90 |
| I listened till it almost climbed the stairs | |
| From the hall to the only finished bedroom, | |
| Before I got up to do anything; | |
| Then ran and shouted, Shut the bedroom door, | |
| Toffile, for my sake! Company, he said, | 95 |
| Dont make me get up; Im too warm in bed. | |
| So lying forward weakly on the handrail | |
| I pushed myself upstairs, and in the light | |
| (The kitchen had been dark) I had to own | |
| I could see nothing. Toffile, I dont see it. | 100 |
| Its with us in the room, though. Its the bones. | |
| What bones? The cellar bonesout of the grave. | |
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| That made him throw his bare legs out of bed | |
| And sit up by me and take hold of me. | |
| I wanted to put out the light and see | 105 |
| If I could see it, or else mow the room, | |
| With our arms at the level of our knees, | |
| And bring the chalk-pile down. Ill tell you what | |
| Its looking for another door to try. | |
| The uncommonly deep snow has made him think | 110 |
| Of his old song, The Wild Colonial Boy, | |
| He always used to sing along the tote-road. | |
| Hes after an open door to get out-doors. | |
| Lets trap him with an open door up attic. | |
| Toffile agreed to that, and sure enough, | 115 |
| Almost the moment he was given an opening, | |
| The steps began to climb the attic stairs. | |
| I heard them. Toffile didnt seem to hear them. | |
| Quick! I slammed to the door and held the knob. | |
| Toffile, get nails. I made him nail the door shut, | 120 |
| And push the headboard of the bed against it. | |
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| Then we asked was there anything | |
| Up attic that wed ever want again. | |
| The attic was less to us than the cellar. | |
| If the bones liked the attic, let them like it, | 125 |
| Let them stay in the attic. When they sometimes | |
| Come down the stairs at night and stand perplexed | |
| Behind the door and headboard of the bed, | |
| Brushing their chalky skull with chalky fingers, | |
| With sounds like the dry rattling of a shutter, | 130 |
| Thats what I sit up in the dark to say | |
| To no one any more since Toffile died. | |
| Let them stay in the attic since they went there. | |
| I promised Toffile to be cruel to them | |
| For helping them be cruel once to him. | 135 |
The Son We think they had a grave down in the cellar. | |
The Mother We know they had a grave down in the cellar. | |
The Son We never could find out whose bones they were. | |
The Mother Yes, we could too, son. Tell the truth for once. | |
| They were a mans his father killed for me. | 140 |
| I mean a man he killed instead of me. | |
| The least I could do was help dig their grave. | |
| We were about it one night in the cellar. | |
| Son knows the story: but twas not for him | |
| To tell the truth, suppose the time had come. | 145 |
| Son looks surprised to see me end a lie | |
| Wed kept up all these years between ourselves | |
| So as to have it ready for outsiders. | |
| But tonight I dont care enough to lie | |
| I dont remember why I ever cared. | 150 |
| Toffile, if he were here, I dont believe | |
| Could tell you why he ever cared himself
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| She hadnt found the finger-bone she wanted | |
| Among the buttons poured out in her lap. | |
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| I verified the name next morning: Toffile. | 155 |
| The rural letter-box said Toffile Barre. | |
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