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| WHO 1 grace for zenith had, | |
| From which no shadows grow, | |
| Who hath seen joy of all his hopes, | |
| And end of all his woe; | |
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| Whose love beloved hath been | 5 |
| The crown of his desire; | |
| Who hath seen sorrows glories burnt | |
| In sweet affections fire; | |
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| If from this heavenly state, | |
| Which souls with souls unites, | 10 |
| He be fallen down into the dark | |
| Despairèd war of sprites, | |
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| Let him lament with me; | |
| For none doth glory know, | |
| That hath not been above himself, | 15 |
| And thence fallen down to woe. | |
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| But if there be one hope | |
| Left in his anguished heart, | |
| If fear of worse, if wish of ease, | |
| If horror may depart. | 20 |
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| He plays with his complaints; | |
| He is no mate for me, | |
| Whose love is lost, whose hopes are fled, | |
| Whose fears for ever be; | |
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| Yet not those happy fears | 25 |
| Which show Desire her death, | |
| Teaching with use a piece in woe, | |
| And in despair a faith. | |
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| No, no; my fears kill not, | |
| But make uncurèd wounds, | 30 |
| Where joy and peace do issue out, | |
| And only pain abounds. | |
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| Unpossible are help, | |
| Reward, and hope to me; | |
| Yet while unpossible they are, | 35 |
| They easy seem to be. | |
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| Most easy seems remorse, | |
| Despair, and death to me; | |
| Yet while they passing easy seem, | |
| Unpossible they be. | 40 |
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| So neither can I leave | |
| My hopes that do deceive, | |
| Nor can I trust mine own despair | |
| And nothing else receive. | |
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| Thus be unhappy men | 45 |
| Blest, to be more accurst; | |
| Near to the glories of the sun | |
| Clouds with most horror burst. | |
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| Like ghost raised out of graves, | |
| Who live not, though they go; | 50 |
| Whose walking, fear to others is, | |
| And to themselves a woe; | |
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| So is my life by her | |
| Whose love to me is dead, | |
| On whose worth my despair yet walks, | 55 |
| And my desire is fed. | |
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| I swallow down the bait | |
| Which carries down my death; | |
| I cannot put love from my heart | |
| While life draws in my breath. | 60 |
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| My winter is within, | |
| Which witherèth my joy; | |
| My knowledge, seat of civil war, | |
| Where friends and foes destroy; | |
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| And my desires are wheels, | 65 |
| Whereon my heart is borne, | |
| With endless turning of themselves, | |
| Still living to be torn. | |
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| My thoughts are eagles food, | |
| Ordained to be a prey | 70 |
| To wrath, and being still consumed, | |
| Yet never to decay. | |
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| My memory, where once | |
| My heart laid up the store | |
| Of help, of joy, of spirits wealth | 75 |
| To multiply them more. | |
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| In Paradise I once | |
| Did live, and taste the tree, | |
| Which shadowed was from all the world, | |
| In joy to shadow me: | 80 |
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| The tree hath lost his fruit, | |
| Or I have lost my seat; | |
| My soul both black with shadow is, | |
| And over-burnt with heat. | |
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| Truth here for triumph serves, | 85 |
| To show her power is great, | |
| Whom no desert can overcome, | |
| Nor no distress entreat. | |
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| Time past lays up my joy, | |
| And time to come my grief; | 90 |
| She ever must be my desire, | |
| And never my relief. | |
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| Wrong, her lieutenant is; | |
| My wounded thoughts are they | |
| Who have no power to keep the field, | 95 |
| Nor will to run away. | |
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| O rueful constancy! | |
| And where is change so base, | |
| As it may be compared with thee | |
| In scorn and in disgrace? | 100 |
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| Like as the kings forlorn, | |
| Deposed from their estate, | |
| Yet cannot choose but love the crown | |
| Although new kings they hate; | |
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| If they do plead their right, | 105 |
| Nay, if they only live, | |
| Offences to the crown alike | |
| Their good and ill shall give. | |
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| So I would I were not, | |
| Because I may complain, | 110 |
| And cannot choose but love my wrongs, | |
| And joy to wish in vain. | |
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| This faith condemneth me; | |
| My right doth rumour move; | |
| I may not know the cause I fell, | 115 |
| Nor yet without cause love. | |
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| Then, love, where is reward, | |
| At least where is the fame | |
| Of them that, being, bear thy cross, | |
| And, being not, thy name? | 120 |
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| The worlds example I, | |
| A fable everywhere, | |
| A well from whence the springs are dried, | |
| A tree that doth not bear; | |
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| I, like the bird in cage, | 125 |
| At first with cunning caught, | |
| And in my bondage for delight | |
| With greater cunning taught. | |
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| Now owners humour dies; | |
| Im neither loved, nor fed, | 130 |
| Nor freed am I, till in the cage | |
| Forgotten I be dead. | |
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| The ship of Greece, 2 the stream, | |
| And she, be not the same | |
| They were, although ship, stream, and she | 135 |
| Still bear their antique name. | |
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| The wood which was, is worn; | |
| Those waves are run away; | |
| Yet still a ship, and still a stream, | |
| Still running to a sea. | 140 |
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| She loved, and still she loves, | |
| But doth not still love me; | |
| To all except myself yet is | |
| As she was wont to be. | |
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| O my once happy thoughts! | 145 |
| The heaven where grace did dwell! | |
| My saint hath turned away her face; | |
| And made that heaven my hell! | |
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| A hell, for so is that | |
| From whence no souls return, | 150 |
| Where, while our spirits are sacrificed, | |
| They waste not, though they burn. | |
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| Since then this is my state, | |
| And nothing worse than this, | |
| Behold the map of death-like life, | 155 |
| Exiled from lovely bliss: | |
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| Alone among the world, | |
| Strange with my friends to be, | |
| Showing my fall to them that scorn, | |
| See not, or will not see; | 160 |
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| My heart, a wilderness, | |
| My studies only fear, | |
| And, as in shadows of curst death, | |
| A prospect of despair. | |
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| My exercise must be | 165 |
| My horrors to repeat; | |
| My peace, joy, end, and sacrifice, | |
| Her dead love to entreat; | |
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| My food, the time that was; | |
| The time to come, my fast; | 170 |
| For drink, the barren thirst I feel | |
| Of glories that are past; | |
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| Sighs and salt tears my bath; | |
| Reason my looking-glass, | |
| To show me, he most wretched is | 175 |
| That once most happy was. | |
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| Forlorn desires my clock, | |
| To tell me every day | |
| That Time hath stolen love, life and all | |
| But my distress away. | 180 |
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| For music, heavy sighs; | |
| My walk an inward woe; | |
| Which like a shadow ever shall | |
| Before my body go. | |
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| And I myself am he | 185 |
| That doth with none compare, | |
| Except in woes and lack of worth | |
| Whose states more wretched are. | |
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| Let no man ask my name, | |
| Nor what else I should be; | 190 |
| For GRIEVE-ILL, pain, forlorn estate | |
| Do best decipher me. | |