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I 1 I HATE the dreadful hollow behind the little wood, | |
| Its lips in the field above are dabbled with blood-red heath, | |
| The red-ribbd ledges drip with a silent horror of blood, | |
| And Echo there, whatever is askd her, answers Death. | |
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2 For there in the ghastly pit long since a body was found, | 5 |
| His who had given me lifeO father! O God! was it well? | |
| Mangled, and flattend, and crushd, and dinted into the ground: | |
| There yet lies the rock that fell with him when he fell. | |
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3 Did he fling himself down? who knows? for a vast speculation had faild, | |
| And ever he mutterd and maddend, and ever wannd with despair, | 10 |
| And out he walkd when the wind like a broken worldling waild, | |
| And the flying gold of the ruind woodlands drove thro the air. | |
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4 I remember the time, for the roots of my hair were stirrd | |
| By a shuffled step, by a dead weight traild, by a whisperd fright, | |
| And my pulses closed their gates with a shock on my heart as I heard | 15 |
| The shrill-edged shriek of a mother divide the shuddering night. | |
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5 Villainy somewhere! whose? One says, we are villains all. | |
| Not he: his honest fame should at least by me be maintaind: | |
| But that old man, now lord of the broad estate and the Hall, | |
| Dropt off gorged from a scheme that had left us flaccid and draind. | 20 |
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6 Why do they prate of the blessings of Peace? we have made them a curse, | |
| Pickpockets, each hand lusting for all that is not its own; | |
| And lust of gain, in the spirit of Cain, is it better or worse | |
| Than the heart of the citizen hissing in war on his own hearthstone? | |
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7 But these are the days of advance, the works of the men of mind, | 25 |
| When who but a fool would have faith in a tradesmans ware or his word? | |
| Is it peace or war? Civil war, as I think, and that of a kind | |
| The viler, as underhand, not openly bearing the sword. | |
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8 Sooner or later I too may passively take the print | |
| Of the golden agewhy not? I have neither hope nor trust; | 30 |
| May make my heart as a millstone, set my face as a flint, | |
| Cheat and be cheated, and die: who knows? we are ashes and dust. | |
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9 Peace sitting under her olive, and slurring the days gone by, | |
| When the poor are hovelld and hustled together, each sex, like swine, | |
| When only the ledger lives, and when only not all men lie; | 35 |
| Peace in her vineyardyes!but a company forges the wine. | |
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10 And the vitriol madness flushes up in the ruffians head, | |
| Till the filthy by-lane rings to the yell of the trampled wife, | |
| And chalk and alum and plaster are sold to the poor for bread, | |
| And the spirit of murder works in the very means of life. | 40 |
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11 And Sleep must lie down armd, for the villainous center-bits | |
| Grind on the wakeful ear in the hush of the moonless nights, | |
| While another is cheating the sick of a few last gasps, as he sits | |
| To pestle a poisond poison behind his crimson lights. | |
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12 When a Mammonite mother kills her babe for a burial fee, | 45 |
| And Timour-Mammon grins on a pile of childrens bones, | |
| Is it peace or war? better, war! loud war by land and by sea, | |
| War with a thousand battles, and shaking a hundred thrones. | |
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13 For I trust if an enemys fleet came yonder round by the hill, | |
| And the rushing battle-bolt sang from the three-decker out of the foam, | 50 |
| That the smoothfaced snubnosed rogue would leap from his counter and till, | |
| And strike, if he could, were it but with his cheating yard-wand, home. | |
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14 What! am I raging alone as my father raged in his mood? | |
| Must I too creep to the hollow and dash myself down and die | |
| Rather than hold by the law that I made, nevermore to brood | 55 |
| On a horror of shatterd limbs and a wretched swindlers lie? | |
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15 Would there be sorrow for me? there was love in the passionate shriek, | |
| Love for the silent thing that had made false haste to the grave | |
| Wrapt in a cloak, as I saw him, and thought he would rise and speak | |
| And rave at the lie and the liar, ah God, as he used to rave. | 60 |
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16 I am sick of the Hall and the hill, I am sick of the moor and the main. | |
| Why should I stay? can a sweeter chance ever come to me here? | |
| O, having the nerves of motion as well as the nerves of pain, | |
| Were it not wise if I fled from the place and the pit and the fear? | |
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17 Workmen up at the Hall!they are coming back from abroad; | 65 |
| The dark old place will be gilt by the touch of a millionnaire: | |
| I have heard, I know not whence, of the singular beauty of Maud; | |
| I playd with the girl when a child; she promised then to be fair. | |
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18 Maud with her venturous climbings and tumbles and childish escapes, | |
| Maud the delight of the village, the ringing joy of the Hall, | 70 |
| Maud with her sweet purse-mouth when my father dangled the grapes, | |
| Maud the beloved of my mother, the moon-faced darling of all, | |
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19 What is she now? My dreams are bad. She may bring me a curse. | |
| No, there is fatter game on the moor; she will let me alone. | |
| Thanks, for the fiend best knows whether woman or man be the worse. | 75 |
| I will bury myself in myself, and the Devil may pipe to his own. | |
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II LONG have I sighd for a calm: God grant I may find it at last! | |
| It will never be broken by Maud, she has neither savour nor salt, | |
| But a cold and clear-cut face, as I found when her carriage past, | |
| Perfectly beautiful: let it be granted her: where is the fault? | 80 |
| All that I saw (for her eyes were downcast, not to be seen) | |
| Faultily faultless, icily regular, splendidly null, | |
| Dead perfection, no more; nothing more, if it had not been | |
| For a chance of travel, a paleness, an hours defect of the rose, | |
| Or an underlip, you may call it a little too ripe, too full, | 85 |
| Or the least little delicate aquiline curve in a sensitive nose, | |
| From which I escaped heart-free, with the least little touch of spleen. | |
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III COLD and clear-cut face, why come you so cruelly meek, | |
| Breaking a slumber in which all spleenful folly was drownd, | |
| Pale with the golden beam of an eyelash dead on the cheek, | 90 |
| Passionless, pale, cold face, star-sweet on a gloom profound; | |
| Womanlike, taking revenge too deep for a transient wrong | |
| Done but in thought to your beauty, and ever as pale as before | |
| Growing and fading and growing upon me without a sound, | |
| Luminous, gemlike, ghostlike, deathlike, half the night long | 95 |
| Growing and fading and growing, till I could bear it no more, | |
| But arose, and all by myself in my own dark garden ground, | |
| Listening now to the tide in its broad-flung ship-wrecking roar, | |
| Now to the scream of a maddend beach draggd down by the wave, | |
| Walkd in a wintry wind by a ghastly glimmer, and found | 100 |
| The shining daffodil dead, and Orion low in his grave. | |
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IV 1 A MILLION emeralds break from the ruby-budded lime | |
| In the little grove where I sitah, wherefore cannot I be | |
| Like things of the season gay, like the bountiful season bland, | |
| When the far-off sail is blown by the breeze of a softer clime, | 105 |
| Half-lost in the liquid azure bloom of a crescent of sea, | |
| The silent sapphire-spangled marriage ring of the land? | |
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2 Below me, there, is the village, and looks how quiet and small! | |
| And yet bubbles oer like a city, with gossip, scandal, and spite; | |
| And Jack on his ale-house bench has as many lies as a Czar; | 110 |
| And here on the landward side, by a red rock, glimmers the Hall; | |
| And up in the high Hall-garden I see her pass like a light; | |
| But sorrow seize me if ever that light be my leading star! | |
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3 When have I bowd to her father, the wrinkled head of the race? | |
| I met her to-day with her brother, but not to her brother I bowd; | 115 |
| I bowd to his lady-sister as she rode by on the moor; | |
| But the fire of a foolish pride flashd over her beautiful face. | |
| O child, you wrong your beauty, believe it, in being so proud; | |
| Your father has wealth well-gotten, and I am nameless and poor. | |
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4 I keep but a man and a maid, ever ready to slander and steal; | 120 |
| I know it, and smile a hard-set smile, like a stoic, or like | |
| A wiser epicurean, and let the world have its way: | |
| For nature is one with rapine, a harm no preacher can heal; | |
| The Mayfly is torn by the swallow, the sparrow speard by the shrike, | |
| And the whole little wood where I sit is a world of plunder and prey. | 125 |
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5 We are puppets, Man in his pride, and Beauty fair in her flower; | |
| Do we move ourselves, or are we moved by an unseen hand at a game | |
| That pushes us off from the board, and others ever succeed? | |
| Ah yet, we cannot be kind to each other here for an hour; | |
| We whisper, and hint, and chuckle, and grin at a brothers shame; | 130 |
| However we brave it out, we men are a little breed. | |
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6 A monstrous eft was of old the Lord and Master of Earth, | |
| For him did his high sun flame, and his river billowing ran, | |
| And he felt himself in his force to be Natures crowning race. | |
| As nine months go to the shaping an infant ripe for his birth, | 135 |
| So many a million of ages have gone to the making of man: | |
| He now is first, but is he the last? is he not too base? | |
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7 The man of science himself is fonder of glory, and vain, | |
| An eye well-practised in nature, a spirit bounded and poor; | |
| The passionate heart of the poet is whirld into folly and vice. | 140 |
| I would not marvel at either, but keep a temperate brain; | |
| For not to desire or admire, if a man could learn it, were more | |
| Than to walk all day like the sultan of old in a garden of spice. | |
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8 For the drift of the Maker is dark, an Isis hid by the veil. | |
| Who knows the ways of the world, how God will bring them about? | 145 |
| Our planet is one, the suns are many, the world is wide. | |
| Shall I weep if a Poland fall? shall I shriek if a Hungary fail? | |
| Or an infant civilisation be ruled with rod or with knout? | |
| I have not made the world, and He that made it will guide. | |
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9 Be mine a philosophers life in the quiet woodland ways, | 150 |
| Where if I cannot be gay let a passionless peace be my lot, | |
| Far-off from the clamour of liars belied in the hubbub of lies; | |
| From the long-neckd geese of the world that are ever hissing dispraise | |
| Because their natures are little, and, whether he heed it or not, | |
| Where each man walks with his head in a cloud of poisonous flies. | 155 |
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10 And most of all would I flee from the cruel madness of love, | |
| The honey of poison-flowers and all the measureless ill. | |
| Ah Maud, you milkwhite fawn, you are all unmeet for a wife. | |
| Your mother is mute in her grave as her image in marble above; | |
| Your father is ever in London, you wander about at your will; | 160 |
| You have but fed on the roses, and lain in the lilies of life. | |
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V 1 A VOICE by the cedar tree, | |
| In the meadow under the Hall! | |
| She is singing an air that is known to me, | |
| A passionate ballad gallant and gay, | 165 |
| A martial song like a trumpets call! | |
| Singing alone in the morning of life, | |
| In the happy morning of life and of May, | |
| Singing of men that in battle array, | |
| Ready in heart and ready in hand, | 170 |
| March with banner and bugle and fife | |
| To the death, for their native land. | |
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2 Maud with her exquisite face, | |
| And wild voice pealing up to the sunny sky, | |
| And feet like sunny gems on an English green, | 175 |
| Maud in the light of her youth and her grace, | |
| Singing of Death, and of Honour that cannot die, | |
| Till I well could weep for a time so sordid and mean, | |
| And myself so languid and base. | |
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3 Silence, beautiful voice! | 180 |
| Be still, for you only trouble the mind | |
| With a joy in which I cannot rejoice, | |
| A glory I shall not find. | |
| Still! I will hear you no more, | |
| For your sweetness hardly leaves me a choice | 185 |
| But to move to the meadow and fall before | |
| Her feet on the meadow grass, and adore, | |
| Not her, who is neither courtly nor kind | |
| Not her, not her, but a voice. | |
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VI 1 MORNING arises stormy and pale, | 190 |
| No sun, but a wannish glare | |
| In fold upon fold of hueless cloud, | |
| And the budded peaks of the wood are bowd | |
| Caught and cuffd by the gale: | |
| I had fancied it would be fair. | 195 |
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2 Whom but Maud should I meet | |
| Last night, when the sunset burnd | |
| On the blossomd gable-ends | |
| At the head of the village street, | |
| Whom but Maud should I meet? | 200 |
| And she touchd my hand with a smile so sweet | |
| She made me divine amends | |
| For a courtesy not returnd. | |
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3 And thus a delicate spark | |
| Of glowing and growing light | 205 |
| Thro the livelong hours of the dark | |
| Kept itself warm in the heart of my dreams, | |
| Ready to burst in a colourd flame; | |
| Till at last when the morning came | |
| In a cloud, it faded, and seems | 210 |
| But an ashen-gray delight. | |
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4 What if with her sunny hair, | |
| And smile as sunny as cold, | |
| She meant to weave me a snare | |
| Of some coquettish deceit, | 215 |
| Cleopatra-like as of old | |
| To entangle me when we met, | |
| To have her lion roll in a silken net | |
| And fawn at a victors feet. | |
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5 Ah, what shall I be at fifty | 220 |
| Should Nature keep me alive, | |
| If I find the world so bitter | |
| When I am but twenty-five? | |
| Yet, if she were not a cheat, | |
| If Maud were all that she seemd, | 225 |
| And her smile were all that I dreamd, | |
| Then the world were not so bitter | |
| But a smile could make it sweet. | |
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6 What if tho her eye seemd full | |
| Of a kind intent to me, | 230 |
| What if that dandy-despot, he, | |
| That jewelld mass of millinery, | |
| That oild and curld Assyrian Bull | |
| Smelling of musk and of insolence, | |
| Her brother, from whom I keep aloof, | 235 |
| Who wants the finer politic sense | |
| To mask, tho but in his own behoof, | |
| With a glassy smile his brutal scorn | |
| What if he had told her yestermorn | |
| How prettily for his own sweet sake | 240 |
| A face of tenderness might be feignd, | |
| And a moist mirage in desert eyes, | |
| That so, when the rotten hustings shake | |
| In another month to his brazen lies, | |
| A wretched vote may be gaind. | 245 |
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7 For a raven ever croaks, at my side, | |
| Keep watch and ward, keep watch and ward, | |
| Or thou wilt prove their tool. | |
| Yea too, myself from myself I guard, | |
| For often a mans own angry pride | 250 |
| Is cap and bells for a fool. | |
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8 Perhaps the smile and tender tone | |
| Came out of her pitying womanhood, | |
| For am I not, am I not, here alone | |
| So many a summer since she died, | 255 |
| My mother, who was so gentle and good? | |
| Living alone in an empty house, | |
| Here half-hid in the gleaming wood, | |
| Where I hear the dead at midday moan, | |
| And the shrieking rush of the wainscot mouse, | 260 |
| And my own sad name in corners cried, | |
| When the shiver of dancing leaves is thrown | |
| About its echoing chambers wide, | |
| Till a morbid hate and horror have grown | |
| Of a world in which I have hardly mixt, | 265 |
| And a morbid eating lichen fixt | |
| On a heart half-turnd to stone. | |
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9 O heart of stone, are you flesh, and caught | |
| By that you swore to withstand? | |
| For what was it else within me wrought | 270 |
| But, I fear, the new strong wine of love, | |
| That made my tongue so stammer and trip | |
| When I saw the treasured splendour, her hand, | |
| Come sliding out of her sacred glove, | |
| And the sunlight broke from her lip? | 275 |
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10 I have playd with her when a child; | |
| She remembers it now we meet. | |
| Ah well, well, well, I may be beguiled | |
| By some coquettish deceit. | |
| Yet, if she were not a cheat, | 280 |
| If Maud were all that she seemd, | |
| And her smile had all that I dreamd, | |
| Then the world were not so bitter | |
| But a smile could make it sweet. | |
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VII 1 DID I hear it half in a doze | 285 |
| Long since, I know not where? | |
| Did I dream it an hour ago, | |
| When asleep in this arm-chair? | |
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2 Men were drinking together, | |
| Drinking and talking of me; | 290 |
| Well, if it prove a girl, the boy | |
| Will have plenty: so let it be. | |
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3 Is it an echo of something | |
| Read with a boys delight, | |
| Viziers nodding together | 295 |
| In some Arabian night? | |
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4 Strange, that I hear two men, | |
| Somewhere, talking of me; | |
| Well, if it prove a girl, my boy | |
| Will have plenty: so let it be. | 300 |
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VIII SHE came to the village church, | |
| And sat by a pillar alone; | |
| An angel watching an urn | |
| Wept over her, carved in stone; | |
| And once, but once, she lifted her eyes, | 305 |
| And suddenly, sweet, strangely blushd | |
| To find they were met by my own; | |
| And suddenly, sweetly, my heart beat stronger | |
| And thicker, until I heard no longer | |
| The snowy-banded, dilettante, | 310 |
| Delicate-handed priest intone; | |
| And thought, is it pride, and mused and sighd | |
| No surely, now it cannot be pride. | |
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IX I WAS walking a mile, | |
| More than a mile from the shore, | 315 |
| The sun lookd out with a smile | |
| Betwixt the cloud and the moor, | |
| And riding at set of day | |
| Over the dark moor land, | |
| Rapidly riding far away, | 320 |
| She waved to me with her hand. | |
| There were two at her side, | |
| Something flashd in the sun, | |
| Down by the hill I saw them ride, | |
| In a moment they were gone: | 325 |
| Like a sudden spark | |
| Struck vainly in the night, | |
| Then returns the dark | |
| With no more hope of light. | |
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X 1 SICK, am I sick of a jealous dread? | 330 |
| Was not one of the two at her side | |
| This new-made lord, whose splendour plucks | |
| The slavish hat from the villagers head? | |
| Whose old grandfather has lately died, | |
| Gone to a blacker pit, for whom | 335 |
| Grimy nakedness dragging his trucks | |
| And laying his trams in a poisond gloom | |
| Wrought, till he crept from a gutted mine | |
| Master of half a servile shire, | |
| And left his coal all turnd into gold | 340 |
| To a grandson, first of his noble line, | |
| Rich in the grace all women desire, | |
| Strong in the power that all men adore, | |
| And simper and set their voices lower, | |
| And soften as if to a girl, and hold | 345 |
| Awe-stricken breaths at a work divine, | |
| Seeing his gewgaw castle shine, | |
| New as his title, built last year, | |
| There amid perky larches and pine, | |
| And over the sullen-purple moor | 350 |
| (Look at it) pricking a cockney ear. | |
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2 What, has he found my jewel out? | |
| For one of the two that rode at her side | |
| Bound for the Hall, I am sure was he: | |
| Bound for the Hall, and I think for a bride. | 355 |
| Blithe would her brothers acceptance be. | |
| Maud could be gracious too, no doubt, | |
| To a lord, a captain, a padded shape, | |
| A bought commission, a waxen face, | |
| A rabbit mouth that is ever agape | 360 |
| Bought? what is it he cannot buy? | |
| And therefore splenetic, personal, base, | |
| A wounded thing with a rancorous cry, | |
| At war with myself and a wretched race, | |
| Sick, sick to the heart of life, am I. | 365 |
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3 Last week came one to the county town, | |
| To preach our poor little army down, | |
| And play the game of the despot kings, | |
| Tho the state has done it and thrice as well: | |
| This broad-brimmd hawker of holy things, | 370 |
| Whose ear is stuffd with his cotton, and rings | |
| Even in dreams to the chink of his pence, | |
| This huckster put down war! can he tell | |
| Whether war be a cause or a consequence? | |
| Put down the passions that make earth Hell! | 375 |
| Down with ambition, avarice, pride, | |
| Jealousy, down! cut off from the mind | |
| The bitter springs of anger and fear; | |
| Down too, down at your own fireside, | |
| With the evil tongue, and the evil ear, | 380 |
| For each is at war with mankind. | |
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4 I wish I could hear again | |
| The chivalrous battle-song | |
| That she warbled alone in her joy! | |
| I might persuade myself then | 385 |
| She would not do herself this great wrong, | |
| To take a wanton dissolute boy | |
| For a man and leader of men. | |
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5 Ah God, for a man with heart, head, hand, | |
| Like some of the simple great ones gone | 390 |
| For ever and ever by, | |
| One still strong man in a blatant land, | |
| Whatever they call him, what care I, | |
| Aristocrat, democrat, plutocratone | |
| Who can rule and dare not lie. | 395 |
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6 And ah for a man to rise in me, | |
| That the man I am may cease to be! | |
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XI 1 O LET the solid ground | |
| Not fail beneath my feet | |
| Before my life has found | 400 |
| What some have found so sweet; | |
| Then let come what come may, | |
| What matter if I go mad, | |
| I shall have had my day. | |
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2 Let the sweet heavens endure, | 405 |
| Not close and darken above me | |
| Before I am quite sure | |
| That there is one to love me; | |
| Then let come what come may | |
| To a life that has been so sad, | 410 |
| I shall have had my day. | |
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XII 1 BIRDS in the high Hall-garden | |
| When twilight was falling, | |
| Maud, Maud, Maud, Maud, | |
| They were crying and calling. | 415 |
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2 Where was Maud? in our wood; | |
| And I, who else, was with her, | |
| Gathering woodland lilies, | |
| Myriads blow together. | |
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3 Birds in our wood sang | 420 |
| Ringing thro the valleys, | |
| Maud is here, here, here | |
| In among the lilies. | |
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4 I kissd her slender hand, | |
| She took the kiss sedately; | 425 |
| Maud is not seventeen, | |
| But she is tall and stately. | |
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5 I to cry out on pride | |
| Who have won her favour! | |
| O Maud were sure of Heaven | 430 |
| If lowliness could save her. | |
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6 I know the way she went | |
| Home with her maiden posy, | |
| For her feet have touchd the meadows | |
| And left the daisies rosy. | 435 |
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7 Birds in the high Hall-garden | |
| Were crying and calling to her, | |
| Where is Maud, Maud, Maud? | |
| One is come to woo her. | |
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8 Look, a horse at the door, | 440 |
| And little King Charles is snarling, | |
| Go back, my lord, across the moor, | |
| You are not her darling. | |
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XIII 1 SCORND, to be scornd by one that I scorn, | |
| Is that a matter to make me fret? | 445 |
| That a calamity hard to be borne? | |
| Well, he may live to hate me yet. | |
| Fool that I am to be vext with his pride! | |
| I past him, I was crossing his lands; | |
| He stood on the path a little aside; | 450 |
| His face, as I grant, in spite of spite | |
| Has a broad-blown comeliness, red and white, | |
| And six feet two, as I think, he stands; | |
| But his essences turnd the live air sick, | |
| And barbarous opulence jewel-thick | 455 |
| Sunnd itself on his breast and his hands. | |
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2 Who shall call me ungentle, unfair, | |
| I longd so heartily then and there | |
| To give him the grasp of fellowship; | |
| But while I past he was humming an air, | 460 |
| Stopt, and then with a riding whip | |
| Leisurely tapping a glossy boot, | |
| And curving a contumelious lip, | |
| Gorgonised me from head to foot | |
| With a stony British stare. | 465 |
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3 Why sits he here in his fathers chair? | |
| That old man never comes to his place: | |
| Shall I believe him ashamed to be seen? | |
| For only once, in the village street, | |
| Last year, I caught a glimpse of his face, | 470 |
| A gray old wolf and a lean. | |
| Scarcely, now, would I call him a cheat: | |
| For then, perhaps, as a child of deceit, | |
| She might by a true descent be untrue; | |
| And Maud is as true as Maud is sweet: | 475 |
| Tho I fancy her sweetness only due | |
| To the sweeter blood by the other side; | |
| Her mother has been a thing complete, | |
| However she came to be so allied. | |
| And fair without, faithful within, | 480 |
| Maud to him is nothing akin: | |
| Some peculiar mystic grace | |
| Made her only the child of her mother, | |
| And heapd the whole inherited sin | |
| On that huge scapegoat of the race, | 485 |
| All, all upon the brother. | |
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4 Peace, angry spirit, and let him be! | |
| Has not his sister smiled on me? | |
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XIV 1 MAUD has a garden of roses | |
| And lilies fair on a lawn; | 490 |
| There she walks in her state | |
| And tends upon bed and bower, | |
| And thither I climbd at dawn | |
| And stood by her garden-gate; | |
| A lion ramps at the top, | 495 |
| He is claspt by a passion-flower. | |
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2 Mauds own little oak-room | |
| (Which Maud, like a precious stone | |
| Set in the heart of the carven gloom, | |
| Lights with herself, when alone | 500 |
| She sits by her music and books, | |
| And her brother lingers late | |
| With a roystering company) looks | |
| Upon Mauds own garden gate: | |
| And I thought as I stood, if a hand, as white | 505 |
| As ocean-foam in the moon, were laid | |
| On the hasp of the window, and my Delight | |
| Had a sudden desire, like a glorious ghost, to glide, | |
| Like a beam of the seventh Heaven, down to my side, | |
| There were but a step to be made. | 510 |
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3 The fancy flatterd my mind, | |
| And again seemd overbold; | |
| Now I thought that she cared for me, | |
| Now I thought she was kind | |
| Only because she was cold. | 515 |
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4 I heard no sound where I stood | |
| But the rivulet on from the lawn | |
| Running down to my own dark wood; | |
| Or the voice of the long sea-wave as it swelld | |
| Now and then in the dim-gray dawn; | 520 |
| But I lookd, and round, all round the house I beheld | |
| The death-white curtain drawn; | |
| Felt a horror over me creep, | |
| Prickle my skin and catch my breath, | |
| Knew that the death-white curtain meant but sleep, | 525 |
| Yet I shudderd and thought like a fool of the sleep of death. | |
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XV SO dark a mind within me dwells, | |
| And I make myself such evil cheer, | |
| That if I be dear to some one else | |
| Then some one else may have much to fear; | 530 |
| But if I be dear to some one else, | |
| Then I should be to myself more dear. | |
| Shall I not take care of all that I think, | |
| Yea evn of wretched meat and drink, | |
| If I be dear, | 535 |
| If I be dear to some one else. | |
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XVI 1 THIS lump of earth has left his estate | |
| The lighter by the loss of his weight; | |
| And so that he find what he went to seek, | |
| And fulsome Pleasure clog him, and drown | 540 |
| His heart in the gross mud-honey of town, | |
| He may stay for a year who has gone for a week. | |
| But this is the day when I must speak, | |
| And I see my Oread coming down, | |
| O this is the day! | 545 |
| O beautiful creature, what am I | |
| That I dare to look her way; | |
| Think I may hold dominion sweet, | |
| Lord of the pulse that is lord of her breast, | |
| And dream of her beauty with tender dread, | 550 |
| From the delicate Arab arch of her feet | |
| To the grace that, bright and light as the crest | |
| Of a peacock, sits on her shining head, | |
| And she knows it not: O, if she knew it, | |
| To know her beauty might half undo it. | 555 |
| I know it the one bright thing to save | |
| My yet young life in the wilds of Time, | |
| Perhaps from madness, perhaps from crime, | |
| Perhaps from a selfish grave. | |
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2 What, if she be fastend to this fool lord, | 560 |
| Dare I bid her abide by her word? | |
| Should I love her so well if she | |
| Had given her word to a thing so low? | |
| Shall I love her as well if she | |
| Can break her word were it even for me? | 565 |
| I trust that it is not so. | |
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3 Catch not my breath, O clamorous heart, | |
| Let not my tongue be a thrall to my eye | |
| For I must tell her before we part, | |
| I must tell her, or die. | 570 |
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XVII GO not, happy day, | |
| From the shining fields, | |
| Go not, happy day, | |
| Till the maiden yields. | |
| Rosy is the West, | 575 |
| Rosy is the South, | |
| Roses are her cheeks, | |
| And a rose her mouth. | |
| When the happy Yes | |
| Falters from her lips, | 580 |
| Pass and blush the news | |
| Oer the blowing ships. | |
| Over blowing seas, | |
| Over seas at rest, | |
| Pass the happy news, | 585 |
| Blush it thro the West; | |
| Till the red man dance | |
| By his red cedar tree, | |
| And the red mans babe | |
| Leap, beyond the sea. | 590 |
| Blush from West to East, | |
| Blush from East to West, | |
| Till the West is East, | |
| Blush it thro the West. | |
| Rosy is the West, | 595 |
| Rosy is the South, | |
| Roses are her cheeks, | |
| And a rose her mouth. | |
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XVIII 1 I HAVE led her home, my love, my only friend. | |
| There is none like her, none. | 600 |
| And never yet so warmly ran my blood | |
| And sweetly, on and on | |
| Calming itself to the long-wishd-for end, | |
| Full to the banks, close on the promised good. | |
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2 None like her, none. | 605 |
| Just now the dry-tongued laurels pattering talk | |
| Seemd her light foot along the garden walk, | |
| And shook my heart to think she comes once more, | |
| But even then I heard her close the door, | |
| The gates of Heaven are closed, and she is gone. | 610 |
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3 There is none like her, none. | |
| Nor will be when our summers have deceased. | |
| O, art thou sighing for Lebanon | |
| In the long breeze that streams to thy delicious East, | |
| Sighing for Lebanon, | 615 |
| Dark cedar, tho thy limbs have here increased, | |
| Upon a pastoral slope as fair, | |
| And looking to the South, and fed | |
| With honeyd rain and delicate air, | |
| And haunted by the starry head | 620 |
| Of her whose gentle will has changed my fate, | |
| And made my life a perfumed altar-flame; | |
| And over whom thy darkness must have spread | |
| With such delight as theirs of old, thy great | |
| Forefathers of the thornless garden, there | 625 |
| Shadowing the snow-limbd Eve from whom she came. | |
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4 Here will I lie, while these long branches sway, | |
| And you fair stars that crown a happy day | |
| Go in and out as if at merry play, | |
| Who am no more so all forlorn | 630 |
| As when it seemd far better to be born | |
| To labour and the mattock-hardend hand, | |
| Than nursed at ease and brought to understand | |
| A sad astrology, the boundless plan | |
| That makes you tyrants in your iron skies, | 635 |
| Innumerable, pitiless, passionless eyes, | |
| Cold fires, yet with power to burn and brand | |
| His nothingness into man. | |
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5 But now shine on, and what care I, | |
| Who in this stormy gulf have found a pearl | 640 |
| The countercharm of space and hollow sky, | |
| And do accept my madness, and would die | |
| To save from some slight shame one simple girl. | |
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6 Would die; for sullen-seeming Death may give | |
| More life to love than is or ever was | 645 |
| In our low world, where yet tis sweet to live. | |
| Let no one ask me how it came to pass; | |
| It seems that I am happy, that to me | |
| A livelier emerald twinkles in the grass, | |
| A purer sapphire melts into the sea. | 650 |
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7 Not die; but live a life of truest breath, | |
| And teach true life to fight with mortal wrongs. | |
| O, why should Love, like men in drinking-songs, | |
| Spice his fair banquet with the dust of death? | |
| Make answer, Maud my bliss, | 655 |
| Maud made my Maud by that long loving kiss, | |
| Life of my life, wilt thou not answer this? | |
| The dusky strand of Death inwoven here | |
| With dear Loves tie, makes Love himself more dear. | |
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8 Is that enchanted moan only the swell | 660 |
| Of the long waves that roll in yonder bay? | |
| And hark the clock within, the silver knell | |
| Of twelve sweet hours that past in bridal white, | |
| And died to live, long as my pulses play; | |
| But now by this my love has closed her sight | 665 |
| And given false death her hand, and stoln away | |
| To dreamful wastes where footless fancies dwell | |
| Among the fragments of the golden day. | |
| May nothing there her maiden grace affright! | |
| Dear heart, I feel with thee the drowsy spell. | 670 |
| My bride to be, my evermore delight, | |
| My own hearts heart, my ownest own, farewell; | |
| It is but for a little space I go: | |
| And ye meanwhile far over moor and fell | |
| Beat to the noiseless music of the night! | 675 |
| Has our whole earth gone nearer to the glow | |
| Of your soft splendours that you look so bright? | |
| I have climbd nearer out of lonely Hell. | |
| Beat, happy stars, timing with things below, | |
| Beat with my heart more blest than heart can tell, | 680 |
| Blest, but for some dark undercurrent woe | |
| That seems to drawbut it shall not be so: | |
| Let all be well, be well. | |
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XIX 1 HER brother is coming back to-night, | |
| Breaking up my dream of delight. | 685 |
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2 My dream? do I dream of bliss? | |
| I have walkd awake with Truth. | |
| O when did a morning shine | |
| So rich in atonement as this | |
| For my dark-dawning youth, | 690 |
| Darkend watching a mother decline | |
| And that dead man at her heart and mine: | |
| For who was left to watch her but I? | |
| Yet so did I let my freshness die. | |
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3 I trust that I did not talk | 695 |
| To gentle Maud in our walk | |
| (For often in lonely wanderings | |
| I have cursed him even to lifeless things) | |
| But I trust that I did not talk, | |
| Not touch on her fathers sin: | 700 |
| I am sure I did but speak | |
| Of my mothers faded cheek | |
| When it slowly grew so thin, | |
| That I felt she was slowly dying | |
| Vext with lawyers and harassd with debt: | 705 |
| For how often I caught her with eyes all wet, | |
| Shaking her head at her son and sighing, | |
| A world of trouble within! | |
| |
4 And Maud too, Maud was moved | |
| To speak of the mother she loved | 710 |
| As one scarce less forlorn, | |
| Dying abroad and it seems apart | |
| From him who had ceased to share her heart, | |
| And ever mourning over the feud, | |
| The household Fury sprinkled with blood | 715 |
| By which our houses are torn: | |
| How strange was what she said, | |
| When only Maud and the brother | |
| Hung over her dying bed | |
| That Mauds dark father and mine | 720 |
| Had bound us one to the other, | |
| Betrothed us over their wine, | |
| On the day when Maud was born; | |
| Seald her mine from her first sweet breath. | |
| Mine, mine by a right, from birth till death | 725 |
| Mine, mineour fathers have sworn. | |
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5 But the true blood spilt had in it a heat | |
| To dissolve the precious seal on a bond, | |
| That, if left uncancelld, had been so sweet: | |
| And none of us thought of a something beyond, | 730 |
| A desire that awoke in the heart of the child, | |
| As it were a duty done to the tomb, | |
| To be friends for her sake, to be reconciled; | |
| And I was cursing them and my doom, | |
| And letting a dangerous thought run wild | 735 |
| While often abroad in the fragrant gloom | |
| Of foreign churchesI see her there, | |
| Bright English lily, breathing a prayer | |
| To be friends, to be reconciled! | |
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6 But then what a flint is he! | 740 |
| Abroad, at Florence, at Rome, | |
| I find whenever she touchd on me | |
| This brother had laughd her down, | |
| And at last, when each came home, | |
| He had darkend into a frown, | 745 |
| Chid her, and forbid her to speak | |
| To me, her friend of the years before; | |
| And this was what had reddend her cheek | |
| When I bowd to her on the moor. | |
| |
7 Yet Maud, altho not blind | 750 |
| To the faults of his heart and mind, | |
| I see she cannot but love him, | |
| And says he is rough but kind, | |
| And wishes me to approve him, | |
| And tells me, when she lay | 755 |
| Sick once, with a fear of worse, | |
| That he left his wine and horses and play, | |
| Sat with her, read to her, night and day, | |
| And tended her like a nurse. | |
| |
8 Kind? but the deathbed desire | 760 |
| Spurnd by this heir of the liar | |
| Rough but kind? yet I know | |
| He has plotted against me in this, | |
| That he plots against me still. | |
| Kind to Maud? that were not amiss. | 765 |
| Well, rough but kind; why, let it be so: | |
| For shall not Maud have her will? | |
| |
9 For, Maud, so tender and true, | |
| As long as my life endures | |
| I feel I shall owe you a debt, | 770 |
| That I never can hope to pay; | |
| And if ever I should forget | |
| That I owe this debt to you | |
| And for your sweet sake to yours; | |
| O then, what then shall I say? | 775 |
| If ever I should forget, | |
| May God make me more wretched | |
| Than ever I have been yet! | |
| |
10 So now I have sworn to bury | |
| All this dead body of hate, | 780 |
| I feel so free and so clear | |
| By the loss of that dead weight, | |
| That I should grow light-headed, I fear, | |
| Fantastically merry; | |
| But that her brother comes, like a blight | 785 |
| On my fresh hope, to the Hall to-night. | |
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XX 1 STRANGE, that I felt so gay, | |
| Strange, that I tried to-day | |
| To beguile her melancholy; | |
| The Sultan, as we name him, | 790 |
| She did not wish to blame him | |
| But he vext her and perplext her | |
| With his worldly talk and folly: | |
| Was it gentle to reprove her | |
| For stealing out of view | 795 |
| From a little lazy lover | |
| Who but claims her as his due? | |
| Or for chilling his caresses | |
| By the coldness of her manners, | |
| Nay, the plainness of her dresses? | 800 |
| Now I know her but in two, | |
| Nor can pronounce upon it | |
| If one should ask me whether | |
| The habit, hat, and feather, | |
| Or the frock and gipsy bonnet | 805 |
| Be the neater and completer; | |
| For nothing can be sweeter | |
| Than maiden Maud in either. | |
| |
2 But to-morrow, if we live, | |
| Our ponderous squire will give | 810 |
| A grand political dinner | |
| To half the squirelings near; | |
| And Maud will wear her jewels, | |
| And the bird of prey will hover, | |
| And the titmouse hope to win her | 815 |
| With his chirrup at her ear. | |
| |
3 A grand political dinner | |
| To the men of many acres, | |
| A gathering of the Tory, | |
| A dinner and then a dance | 820 |
| For the maids and marriage-makers, | |
| And every eye but mine will glance | |
| At Maud in all her glory. | |
| |
4 For I am not invited, | |
| But, with the Sultans pardon, | 825 |
| I am all as well delighted, | |
| For I know her own rose-garden, | |
| And mean to linger in it | |
| Till the dancing will be over; | |
| And then, oh then, come out to me | 830 |
| For a minute, but for a minute, | |
| Come out to your own true lover, | |
| That your true lover may see | |
| Your glory also, and render | |
| All homage to his own darling, | 835 |
| Queen Maud in all her splendour. | |
| |
XXI RIVULET crossing my ground, | |
| And bringing me down from the Hall | |
| This garden-rose that I found, | |
| Forgetful of Maud and me, | 840 |
| And lost in trouble and moving round | |
| Here at the head of a tinkling fall, | |
| And trying to pass to the sea; | |
| O Rivulet, born at the Hall, | |
| My Maud has sent it by thee | 845 |
| (If I read her sweet will right) | |
| On a blushing mission to me, | |
| Saying in odour and colour, Ah, be | |
| Among the roses to-night. | |
| |
XXII 1 COME into the garden, Maud, | 850 |
| For the black bat, night, has flown, | |
| Come into the garden, Maud, | |
| I am here at the gate alone; | |
| And the woodbine spices are wafted abroad, | |
| And the musk of the roses blown. | 855 |
| |
2 For a breeze of morning moves, | |
| And the planet of Love is on high, | |
| Beginning to faint in the light that she loves | |
| On a bed of daffodil sky, | |
| To faint in the light of the sun she loves, | 860 |
| To faint in his light, and to die. | |
| |
3 All night have the roses heard | |
| The flute, violin, bassoon; | |
| All night has the casement jessamine stirrd | |
| To the dancers dancing in tune; | 865 |
| Till a silence fell with the waking bird, | |
| And a hush with the setting moon. | |
| |
4 I said to the lily, There is but one | |
| With whom she has heart to be gay. | |
| When will the dancers leave her alone? | 870 |
| She is weary of dance and play. | |
| Now half to the setting moon are gone, | |
| And half to the rising day; | |
| Low on the sand and loud on the stone | |
| The last wheel echoes away. | 875 |
| |
5 I said to the rose, The brief night goes | |
| In babble and revel and wine. | |
| O young lord-lover, what sighs are those, | |
| For one that will never be thine? | |
| But mine, but mine, so I sware to the rose, | 880 |
| For ever and ever, mine. | |
| |
6 And the soul of the rose went into my blood, | |
| As the music clashd in the hall; | |
| And long by the garden lake I stood, | |
| For I heard your rivulet fall | 885 |
| From the lake to the meadow and on to the wood, | |
| Our wood, that is dearer than all; | |
| |
7 From the meadow your walks have left so sweet | |
| That whenever a March-wind sighs | |
| He sets the jewel-print of your feet | 890 |
| In violets blue as your eyes, | |
| To the woody hollows in which we meet | |
| And the valleys of Paradise. | |
| |
8 The slender acacia would not shake | |
| One long milk-bloom on the tree; | 895 |
| The white lake-blossom fell into the lake, | |
| As the pimpernel dozed on the lea; | |
| But the rose was awake all night for your sake, | |
| Knowing your promise to me; | |
| The lilies and roses were all awake, | 900 |
| They sighd for the dawn and thee. | |
| |
9 Queen rose of the rosebud garden of girls, | |
| Come hither, the dances are done, | |
| In gloss of satin and glimmer of pearls, | |
| Queen lily and rose in one; | 905 |
| Shine out, little head, sunning over with curls, | |
| To the flowers, and be their sun. | |
| |
10 There has fallen a splendid tear | |
| From the passion-flower at the gate. | |
| She is coming, my dove, my dear; | 910 |
| She is coming, my life, my fate; | |
| The red rose cries, She is near, she is near; | |
| And the white rose weeps, She is late; | |
| The larkspur listens, I hear, I hear; | |
| And the lily whispers, I wait. | 915 |
| |
11 She is coming, my own, my sweet, | |
| Were it ever so airy a tread, | |
| My heart would hear her and beat, | |
| Were it earth in an earthy bed; | |
| My dust would hear her and beat, | 920 |
| Had I lain for a century dead; | |
| Would start and tremble under her feet, | |
| And blossom in purple and red. | |
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