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Anthony: A Fictional Narrative

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Anthony's hands shook, and as he pulled out of his driveway, he could feel the streams soaking his face and making his shirt cling to his chest from how many tears he had shed. He didn't want to do this, but he had made a choice and he had to stick with it, no matter how hard it was.
But pulling into the parking lot to get to Ian's apartment, he really did consider backing out. He considered not hurting the love of his life in the way he was about to, he considered turning his back on his future and staying with the man who loved him more than anything else. Considered keeping life the way it was.
In the end though, he hoped that this was the right choice, he hoped that by doing this he would make everyone happy. But he could only hope.
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Instead, Anthony looked up at Ian giving him a cold, dead, serious stare. "Ian, I'm trying to be nice. Let me go."
Ian wasn't terrified, and he wasn't backing down either so he just kept his death grip on Anthony's arm. "No, your not leaving me until I get an explanation, that you said I deserve."
He didn't want to be harsh to the man who was slowing it losing right before his eyes, but he was becoming desperate to let his emotions out, and he couldn't do that here.
"Dear god Ian, can't you understand when you're being rejected. Sometimes you're the most idiotic person on the planet, have you ever thought that maybe your stupidity is the reason I'm leaving you, that maybe I have found better things to do with my life."
He knew he was being harsh, and he instantly regretted every word when Ian let go of his wrists, and the saw the look of pure hurt cross his face. At this point he needed to hold the fragile boy in his arms, he needed to make that look go away, he was honestly desperate to see anything but what he was seeing …show more content…

"You should probably just go" Ian felt numb and the pain was there, he knew that but for now he just wanted to feel numb.
"Ian, please-" he didn't want things to end this way, he couldn't leave him like this no matter ehat he wanted.
"Just go, I never want to see you again, you've already done enough!" He yelled, out with tears dripping down his face.
Anthony's heart was shattered and knew that nothing could be said from either to fix this, so even though he knew it was stupid, he left.
He didn't wait to hear if Ian was ok, because he had sobs to let out, and he couldn't let Ian hear them.
But once he was in the elevator, he didn't hold back or try to keep it quiet. He could only hope this was for the best and that this was the right desicion. Even though, he knew somewhere in the back of his mind, it wasn't.
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Two weeks later, he got a call from Ian's mom that said he had killed himself the night before. Two weeks later, he swore he had never felt such pain before, such sadness, such emptiness, such

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