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The video, “Beyond Thought,” described self-awareness and fortified experiences I have attained in life to become aware of my own awareness. When I was young I never truly had awareness, only conscious of what was happening. I went through life as a cog in a wheel just going round and round lending my structure to make everything move. I neglected to evaluate what kind of person I was or what I needed to accomplish to leave that wheel. Life experiences allowed me to become fully aware of myself and how I fit into humanity. I was driven by my goals in life, as an only child I strived to be the best at what I could accomplish and avoided the tasks where I lacked the confidence. At the age of nineteen, I left college for medical reasons, and …show more content…

The experience permitted me to become aware of my nurturing personality. I sacrificed my work and life to comfort my family. The day after my mom was laid to rest, my loneliness pushed to get a canine companion named Trouble. He never left my side, his back always pressing up against the furniture he was my best friend. Moving from Maryland to Tampa I left the life I knew to focus on myself and to better know who I am. Fate can be cruel, Trouble bit someone and was taken away by animal control and put to sleep. I left Florida, running away again. Heartbroken, lonely, worthless and guilty for how I let those I loved down, I looked for the tallest building in town to ease my pain. Sitting on the edge gathering the strength to end my misery, listening to the people below screaming jump. I was tackled and pulled from the precipice and admitted to the hospital for a week. Why? What is so bad to try and kill yourself? Asked if I was depressed, I always responded NO! Doctors explained that I was on a stairway blocking the losses experienced in my life and transferring my pain to another step when there were no more steps, I lost my way. Those seven days I listened to other disturbed people that saw scary images and heard voices that only existed in their minds. Many were drawn to me, for my compassion and skill for listening. I had recognized how blessed I was and I need to use past experiences to become

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