Blood Paid: A Short Story

There she was, waiting anxiously and quietly with fear, laid Kathy McGray. She was fourteen and was a straight A student who had never held any grudges against anyone. She was always polite and kind to others. But right now she wondered. Why? Why would anyone want her?

Anxiety is common for people these days. Not just while studying the night before a big test, or before something you’re really nervous for. My anxiety is around all the time. I carry my anxiety with me. My anxiety is undiagnosed, but when you have it, you know. My worries come from the guilt I possess. There’s really no way for me to stop overthinking things, and remembering old things that I feel bad about. Anxiety isn’t a heavy thing to carry most of the time, however, when it surfaces, it becomes the most abundant thing I have with me. When I’m with others, it becomes less of a burden, as they help me carry it, but when I’m alone, it comes back just as strong. Anxiety is sometimes hard to carry because it pairs terribly with depression, something else that stays with me. Depression is probably the worst

I slowly back away from the table. I peel off the sticky gloves and rip away the mask, swallowing the cold air. I am numb to the pain in my body, as I turn to escape that room. I speed away. I shove open the door to the bathroom, yank on the sink, and splash the ice water on my face. My breathing is labored from the effort, and my face is red and shiny from the sweat as I stare down at my shaking hands. I want to rip them off: my hands that didn't push hard enough, didn't pump his heart enough, or got tired too quickly. I clench these hands until the knuckles are white, and then I keep clenching. My nails dig into my palms, scraping away the skin and drawing blood; my body is still numb to the pain. I slowly unclench my fists and gently place them into the sink. With the cold water gliding over my hands, I reach over and squirt soap into my palms and scrub. I keep furiously scrubbing, trying to remove my skin from under my nails, washing away the sweat and the stench of burnt hair that remind me of the events that have just

To control my anxiety, I do whatever I think would help. When I wake up the morning of a presentation I try to calm myself. For example, I tell myself that the presentation is going to be fine, or if it is near the end of the day I will tell myself that it is not until later, so I do not need to worry about it right now. It usually helps to do this, but when I was younger I could not do it myself. My mom used to tell me these things and it would calm my nerves somewhat. I eventually picked up on how to believe myself when I try it on my own and now I can keep myself calm. If that does not work I tell others, such as my mom or friends, and they usually help. It may be really annoying to them to hear me complain about how I really do not want to do a presentation, or how I am scared because it is mentioned constantly. When none of this works I try to take matters into my own hands. If I am able to control the situation, such as a presentation, I try to get it done as soon as possible. I do things like these because to me it means that the situation will be over sooner and the sooner the better, especially with

Growing up I've always struggled with anxiety, but I never really knew what to call it up until a couple of years ago. He said that he would be very happy to give me a couple of tricks to help and to setup an appointment with him if I felt like things were getting worse or weren't getting better. He told me that: giving yourself time away from distractions such as listening to music or doing calming activates would help reduce my mild anxiety, as well as eating a balanced diet, controlling my breathing to deep breathes, and most immortally staying positive and keeping a positive attitude.

Hands trembling, heartbeat throbbing in my ears, I stood in front of the class and opened my mouth to speak. All that came out was a shaky breath. Oh no, I thought, this is not really happening. I looked up at my audience and felt my cheeks flush. “Umm… May I have the line, please?”

I tried to descry hints which implied that the grade was only a figment of my imagination. I blinked, but nothing changed; the torturing number was still thirty-three. Releasing my tight grip on the paper, I lowered my head. Burning tears pushed viciously at the back of my sore eyes (personification). I shut my eyes and swallowed hard, ignoring the pang in my throat. I tried to push back the urge to cry, but the moment I opened my eyes, tears welled up and blurred my view. I quickly raised my chin and stared at the vapid ceiling to prevent the tears from dropping, but the accumulation of tears was too fast. I pinched myself using a leonine force, leaving a scarlet-purple mark on my arm; and bit hard at my lips to stop the surge of grief from deluging me (hyperbole,

There was a time that I use to have crippling anxiety attacks and it’s something I deal with on a daily basis, but it’s something that through the years I have become better at mastering and taming. My anxiety is something that use to cripple me and make me choke during speeches. Sometimes just being in front of people would cause an episode. I use to be afraid of meeting new people and I let it constantly control my actions and stop me from taking chances and opportunities. This is something that I regret to this day. Now I try to get more involved with people and make new friends. I have made so many new friends by not letting my anxiety control me.

He felt sick. Not flu sick or cold sick. Really sick. Had anything out of the ordinary happened that day? This question fazed him until he shut his eyes and went to sleep, not knowing that this was his final thought before the reactions killed him.

I suffer from extreme anxiety. Ranging from test-taking to driving, I manage to overthink every situation I come across.

I walked into the dusty and wasted carpet. Not sure how many years passed since the last time that carpet has been washed, but at this moment I honestly won’t worry about that. I moved towards the handle to open the door of my bedroom. I felt goosebumps just by the cold touch of the handle. I pushed the handle and took my hand off of the handle quickly so the coldness of the handle didn’t annoy me anymore.

Overtime, individuals develop their own unique way of reducing anxiety. These individuals may use positive strategies such as, exercising, reading, and dancing, or negative strategies such as, crying, yelling, and smoking.

Just fix the anxiety.” Little did I know that all of my symptoms stemmed from my feelings, childhood, and family. I was formally diagnosed with PTSD and learned to work through my trauma history. The hardest part of the entire process was recognizing my defense mechanisms used to keep others at bay and my self-worth protected. By the time we tore down each layer of defense all that was left behind the layers was a hollowed out shell of my sense of self. During this time I struggled with using identification as a defense mechanism. I didn’t know who I was so I tried to be like everyone else around me that I thought “had it all together”.

Anxiety can be very difficult to relieve but there are a few natural ways which can help you. Relaxation plays a very important role when you try to cure anxiety. 1. Healthy diet When you are stressed the organism consumes quicker the nutrients and if they are not replaced the anxiety gets installed. There for it is important to have a healthy diet. The black bread and rise are very good and can have a relaxing effect. 2. Vitamins are essential! Eat a lot of fruits and vegetables for vitamins. The B vitamins are the most important for curing anxiety. 3. Maintain the sugar in your blood! Eat little and often during the day in order to maintain the sugar in your blood. Malnutrition can lead to anxiety also. 4. Have an equilibrate life You must maintain equilibrium between resting, exercising and recreation. This will help you feel better and have a positive attitude. Anxiety is not going to disappear if you have a hectic life. 5. Go to gymnastic classes Gymnastic will help you relief all the tension from your body and mind. The more physic effort you make the more relaxed you will feel afterwords. 6. Positive thinking By using affirmations you will be able to put the accent on the good things in your life and personality. Create short sentences and repeat them with loud voice a few times. For example say to yourself that you are good at your job. 7. Appetite Anxiety can kill or grow your appetite. Eat less sugar and more aliments made of white bloom. 8.

The floors of my school were really slippery so I slipped and fell on my right eyebrow. “Why isn’t is hurting?” I wondered. I didn’t really worry because it wasn’t hurting. I quickly took a drink and was going back to class but suddenly, I felt something dripping down my face. “What happened to you, why is there blood dripping down your face?” asked a teacher. I didn’t know what was happening but the teacher took me to the office in my school.