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Cathy Malchiodi's Five Paintings

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As a young Black girl I internalized the trauma and repress my despondent feelings. What my silence meant to the world is she must be okay, because she not a danger to herself or anybody else. I wished my parents had spoken to me despite the fact they believed I was too young to understand. I may not have been old enough to understand the terminology of trauma and pain, however I was old enough to experience it. Research has shown girls have more of a tendency to internalize trauma, by dissociation and feeling powerless, which is often too difficult to identify. Cathy Malchiodi observes the pattern for the use of art expression in helping individuals to express crisis and trauma through imagery. The therapeutic benefit of nonverbal communication …show more content…

“While survivors often feel shame in talking about abuse, talking about their artworks is an experience of finally coming home.” The first picture I created as a little girl, the second as an art student in college, and the other three in my adulthood. Painting, for me, is an affective methodology, a force of feeling life. Being an adult does not erase the childhood memories of abuse. The paintings presented here, convey psychological emotions of how a Black girl who witnessed domestic violence became a Black woman and how these paintings still give me space and freedom. The exploration of these paintings gives me a sense of accomplishment that I certainly would not have had if my father had shot me. I created a safe space for myself by focusing from my inner resource using my artwork and being self-empowering rather than being a victim. My journey taught me that I do not need to fear the past or give into negative criticisms about how I live my plight. Like Picasso, who felt wholly alive when he was painting and, only then, was it possible for him to taste freedom. What is significant for me now is how this little girl survived severe trauma and how I survived today as a Black

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