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Cause and Effect of my Hallucinations Essay

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My sophomore year of high school I discovered my brother's ADHD medication, Adderal. My first experiences with Adderal were pure satisfaction. Take enough of the drug and you will sit in one spot for 8 hours talking your head off and it will feel as if it was only one hour. It was the most content feeling i have ever experienced in my life. Adderal effects everyone differently, most just feel that …show more content…

My main hallucinations were looking at something disappear, watch something move and the most common and the hardest to explain; any blank surface I looked at a clear type orb would come out of it, it was constantly twirling in and out of itself, moving closer and closer to me until I could hold it in the palm of my hand and play with it. As odd as my life was seeming to become I kept this abnormality to myself for several months considering how I had obtained my problem. But as you can imagine the constant hallucinations can mess with you and make you feel a little bit crazy. The nights were the worse, in pure daylight the hallucinations were as clear as day, but in the dark it was harder to tell what I was looking at. I regressed back to a child like state where I was too scared to sleep in the dark. One night the hallucinations and confusion of what I was seeing overwhelmed me and I had a panic attack and which I explained everything to my mom. She took me to see my family doctor, it was becoming more and more difficult explaining to him what I was experiencing when after each sentence I finished he looked at me as if I was more and more crazy. He told me either I had a brain tumor or that I was crazy. It was even hard for me to believe I wasn’t crazy, I felt like I was practically Schizophrenic, the only difference was I knew what I was seeing was just in my head. Imagine sitting in a classroom at high school surrounded by

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