Cedric's Therapist: A Fictional Narrative

It seems as if his wifes emotions is exactly what he had hoped for them to be. The grim reminder is a success. The wife can never handle the workbox without being constantly reminded of John Waywards death.

Tom sat up and pulling a cushion onto his lap, he hugged it protectively against his chest. “You were staring at me,” he mumbled against his trembling fingers.

John still feels as though he can relate with his brother on a new level of trust and respect. “But where was I? Who was I? How did I miss so much (Wideman 687)?” John admits to himself here that the situation with Robby had gotten so out of hand for him and his family most of the time they chose to look away. He has blocked so many wrongful actions from his mind that Robby’s “confession” made him realize all that he had been suppressing for years. John feels like a “hypocrite” because when the TV was stolen his father in law bought him and his wife a new one. With their homeowners insurance though they were refunded 100 dollars. Instead of giving it to his father in law he chose to keep it. When the truth came out his father in law was hurt and felt that John had manipulated the situation. Though this is a small mistake compared to Robby and his crimes,

His head shot up when his tears had stopped and his face had stiffened, returning back to its original stoic expression. His gaze shifted over to his organ where his piece rests in its leather binding.

John was terrified of discovering the truth about his father. O’Brien explained that for John, “[Knowing] is to be disappointed. To understand is to be betrayed.” (242) While hiding the truth was convenient for John, the secrets piled up and ultimately proved to be too much of a burden. For as hard as John tried to cover up the truth, he always knew about his father’s drinking. “That was the worst part. The secret drinking that wasn’t secret,” O’Brien explained. (66) When Paul hanged himself, however, John was finally able to face the truth. He was still a child, and at the funeral he continually screamed in front of the entire procession, finally relieving himself of the burden of years of secrecy. While the truth of Paul’s alcoholism was not pretty, and was certainly less convenient to face than simply ignoring it, it was a significant relief for John. His mother explained: “I hate to say it, but it was a relief to have him out of the house. John and I, we both adored the man, but suddenly all the tension was gone and we could have supper without sitting there on the edge of our seats.” (97) Throughout the rest of John’s life, a similar process of hiding the truth and ultimately accepting it would repeat. As he progressed to the next stage of his life, as a young adult serving in the Vietnam War, John would bear a secret much heavier than his father’s

The reader will start to fear for John’s safety mostly because they don’t know what will exactly happen to him. The uncertainty of John’s fate created an even more suspenseful outcome. By making John’s future unclear, the author was able to plant thoughts of unsureness and anxiety within the reader’s mind. Another internal event is when Alejandra went to visit John in the barn to talk about what Duena Alfonsa had said to him. After John Grady explained that he’s not allowed to be seen with her, Alejandra expresses the unfairness of her great-aunt’s order. At this moment, John starts to believe that he sees sorrow within Alejandra and starts to feel bad for her. He begins to feel concern for her and eventually agrees to disobey Duena Alfonsa and spend time with Alejandra. Right after John agreed to do whatever Duena Alfonsa asked him to do he breaks his promise once he sees Alejandra. His inner thoughts had an affect on his consciousness and changed his views on spending time with Alejandra. Due to John’s sympathy towards Alejandra’s apparent sadness, he makes the decision to go out with

Immediately after he goes through with the marriage to Jesse, but he has not let go of Polly. John continues to convince the Hutchinsons the Polly is still alive, to get money from them and also because he is too afraid to tell them she has died. The way he lied however put her sister on edge and led to an investigation of Polly’s whereabouts and John eventually gets arrested for her murder. While he is in jail he tries to commit suicide, initially it’s because he wants to out of the situation and he doesn’t want to face the damage he has caused but he also uses it to plead insanity in court. He does so when the he is called up to the stand and instead of going he “trembles violently, shakes his head and refuses to get onto his feet.”(PG) John is looking for a way out, he does not want to be questioned about the murder because he had not come to terms with it nor does he want to deal with it. He is always looking for a way out, especially when he is

John knew he could live with his wrongdoing for his children but then he heard that Glies Cory died by being crushed to death for refusing to go to trial. What really was the last straw was when he saw Rebecca Nurse being brought in and refusing to confess a crime she didn't commit. He then realizes again that honor is more important and proceeds to rip up his signed confession.

“The last thing I heard where the sirens. And the last thing I saw where a kaleidoscope of blue and red. And then everything went black, every ounce of air had escaped my lungs and had reached the surface of the lake in the form of little bubbles.” I told Louis Green, possibly the most boring person on earth. I don’t think he wanted to be my therapist anymore then I wanted to be in therapy.

After fetching one alcoholic beverage for John, the woman realizes how he’s stopped with dialog while finding out he’s slumping in the chairing occupied by him. She thinks he is trying to play it up for drama and kicks yet the woman calls ambulances to

He is more or less having the lie of a nightmare Madeline explained to him, but for John it is real. This scene leads into John staying at a psychological hospital for some time.

Wooden crutches grazed the tender skin under his arms, but he refused to sit. Pride prickled his spirit and straightened his spine and as Charlotte’s sea blue eyes met his, they crinkled with love, respect and admiration. Yet, they remained tinged with a hue of sadness that masked their shared grief.

The approaching footsteps clip-clopped down the polished wooden floor & came to halt in front of his desk.“Levi, Mr. Ackerman summoned you at his office now.” Isabel, Levi’s personal secretary said as she put down a stack of paper on the desk.

John placed his hands on the sides of his face and he began hysterically crying, “How can you ask me to do that, how could you think that I would even agree to that?!”

As I glance sideways towards John, I fold my arms across my chest and chew on my lip. The fury in his eyes has dissipated, though he refuses to glance my way. He hides his hands within his pockets. “I was feeling kind of lonely over there.”