Chapter Notes : Demise - Original Writing

Has depression ruined your life and taken away the enthusiasm and zest you once oozed? Have you forgotten what it is like to feel true happiness?

As people say,” feeling of being "depressed is a normal occurrence due to loss, daily life struggles, or low self-confidence. But when feelings become stronger and sadness over

They always say that depression is something that’s all in your head. It’s something made up, something fabricated by your own selfish internal world. You don’t realize when it hits you or how it hits you. One day you just realize you no longer know how to feel; you’ve become numb. Growing up I was happy. I lived a happy life. I had a bed of my own and a roof over my head. I was surrounded by friends and family who loved me. I was content for as long as I can remember.

A Journey in Grief: A Mothers Experience Following the Death of her Daughter by Alice W. Terry describes how the loss of someone so dear to you is unimaginable. When I was thirteen I lost my grandmother. She had been sick for a long time; I remember going to visit her in the hospital many times before she passed. The death of my grandmother was my first and only personal experience with the loss of a family member. Although this reality makes it hard for me to relate to this article at a personal level, I am truly grateful for the health and well being of those closest to me. Only being thirteen at this time, I was old enough to comprehend what had happened but I had not been old enough to truly experience the sorrow of losing someone. When I lost my grandmother, all I remember doing is crying. Although I was expressing emotion and grieving her loss, I do not remember having a conversation about what happened. How was I feeling? What is going through my head? Looking back now, it is frustrating to accept the fact that no one truly knew how to comfort me.

It is normal to feel depressed and it is always an indication that something is not right in our life. Besides being a mental hazard, depressions is a gizmo for unveiling the truth, and only those brave enough confront the reality than simply wish it away. In fact, it could be

There is something wrong when we imply depression in a dark corner without air and a helping hand. Most of the time depression hides behind a smile, a day with the family, a picnic, etc.... I'm one of those cases. I grew up in an environment where I could not express my feelings because the almighty is watching me from committing any sin coming out of my mouth. I learned to hide my sufferings because this is part of the heavenly plain; to suffer just like

That’s where everything went wrong. My precious little baby was not crying like all the other babies are suppose to. I went over in a panic to my baby forgetting about the girl still bleeding on the bed. My baby wasn’t breathing. She was dead! My poor darling baby’s lungs have not developed enough to take in oxygen. I felt for the first time grief. The feeling I didn’t even feel when my own family died by my own hands when I was first turned.

she might live! I loved her; for she had been like a mother to me."[1]

I thought she would never leave me, and especially under these circumstances. We lived in a house in Rogersville Missouri and there was a hole in the floor in the kitchen entering the back deck and pool I did not have a room because they said I did not deserve one. we had a living room with ugly green carpet and the walls looked like fake wood , then tammy and buddy (buddy was the person who did those things to me he is my 2nd adoptive moms, 2nd boyfriend, she only liked him cause he was wealthy I know by the sounds of the house it does not sound like it but they were doing a renovation , we had a boat two jet skis and we had a ford king ranch and a convertible Lexus) had a bedroom with an huge bed and a bathroom with paw prints on the

Finally in a determined pause, he pulled up a chair directly in front of me as I was yet

My blood begins to thin, as my vision starts to spin… “I guess I should have stopped”, .. As my limp body dropped.. Cut my Soul in Half I observe my previous tries, My unseen hurt and earlier cries. I couldn’t hold back,

Marie became at a loss for words. In their mutual silence, Christopher came at her with the knife. What happened next occurred in an instant, but felt like an eternity to Marie. She felt a strong tug on her hand, pulling her to the side, and Christopher toppled over the balcony railing. It wasn’t a long fall to the ground, and Marie was expecting shouts of pain. But she heard nothing. She peered down, and could faintly see that Christopher had landed face-down in a rose bush. Marie immediately began calling for help, and upon closer inspection, the emergency services saw that the knife had stabbed Christopher directly in his heart.

In 2014, Sheá decided to go to Little Flower while I decided to go to Central. After several months, we weren’t as close, but we always made an effort to text each other during every class. The risk of getting caught didn’t matter. As long as we got to say our crazy hellos, it was all okay. At the end of March, I was told that Sheá was hospitalized for medical reasons but it wasn’t anything urgent. For the three weeks she was in the hospital, I only visited once. Everyday I was told that she was going to get better and that she was okay. That wasn’t the case. Everything I’ve been told was a lie. On April 5, I tried visiting again, but her room was restricted from all visitors except family. There was no news or update until the morning of Monday, April 7th, 2014, the date of her death. Monday was the start of a school week, and I knew my parents wouldn’t let me be absent from school, so I built up all my emotions from that day. Starting from this day, I became extremely depressed. I kept on thinking that I should’ve done more, I should have spent more days with her, I should have went to the funeral, and that I should've paid my respects to her family, but due

Depression has been a part of our lives for as long as humans have been on the earth. Everyone has had days when nothing was going right. But it all depends with an individual how to handled this adversity and how depressed that person becomes.

Depression has numerous causes and effects which affect not only the person but the people around them. Depression doesn’t have a specific cause; in most cases it’s different for everyone. It is a common, treatable mental illness that can be experienced at any time in life. It is often described with feeling sad, unhappy, miserable, or “down in the dumps”. Most people have these feelings on occasion. There are several types of depression. These different types of depression describe slight, but often important, diagnostic differences. True clinical depression interferes with mood disorder in everyday life for weeks, months, or even years. Most people think depression affects only one