Controversy: A Fictional Narrative

“Yes, doctor. I was just looking over the leaflet you gave me concerning the operation.”

Three months later, we were arriving at the hospital for the surgery; as we walked in I started to cry and get more and more nervous.

We all jump out of our seats, a scream releases from my mouth. I turn to my left and reach out to hug him. I falter, my nerves finally returns. He grabs me and pulls me into a hug. "Congratulations Alina." He whispers.

After talking to Angela Figi, i felt finally we were going to have the family i never had and prayed for. The day he was born was amazing and a bit scary. Like most woman

Lying here, waiting is difficult because I am scared, but at the same time excited, yet worried, and I don’t know if I really am ready to be a mother.

"Okay, I guess. Whatever," After this news, I just didn't want to talk. Within ten minutes, we had made it downstairs and my belly was scanned. I was shown my baby's fetus and just couldn't handle it. I left and went to my room. This day had just taken a turn for the worse and I didn't want to think

“Well, Seth, you better!” Lucy cried. “I don’t know if you’ve ever put down that damn game and the dope long enough to realize this, but do you see how big my belly has been getting lately? Do you know why that is? It’s because there’s a baby growing inside of me. In three months we’re going to be parents, Seth… you’re going to be a father.

alarmed, when my physician announced that I was eight weeks pregnant. I didn’t know how to

I sat in the chair, shaking, in excruciating pain, it was almost as if time had been frozen solid in a block of ice, as I could feel the cold, wet beads of sweat pouring from my forehead. I always fantasized of having a child. A child was the greatest gift life could possibly give. I even thought from time to time of having two children. But I never thought I would give birth to two children at the same time. Twins. On an average day, I would be ecstatic to be giving birth to two children. But you see, today is not an average day. Today is a day, I will need to make a choice between life and death.

I woke my boyfriend up and called my mother and we rushed to the hospital. I was nervous and excited at the same time. After eight hours of labor, the baby wasn’t cooperating at all. I wouldn’t dilate past eight and I already had three epidurals. I was in so much pain. After being in labor for twenty three hours, the doctors said it was time for a cesarean. I was so scared. All of a sudden, I heard my son screaming. My heart melted and I couldn’t keep the tears from coming. That was the best moment of my life. Justin and I named our son, Bentley Michael McCartney. He weighed eight pounds and thirteen ounces and he was twenty one inches tall. He was beautiful and healthy. Seeing my son made me realize that I was now an adult and I would be the best mother I possibly could be.

“I can’t believe you guys! How far along are you anyways? Who all knows? Why didn’t you tell us sooner? This is so bizarre!” so many questions were flying in my head.

In October 2016, Bevan and I found out I was pregnant. We had been quietly trying for a few months without anyone knowing. When the test came back positive we were so excited, but, resisted telling our families until I had been to the doctor at the 7-week appointment. It was a hard few weeks. Excitement slowly turned into the reality that our lives were going to completely change in the span of a few months.

“I see. Well, I would feel more comfortable if we made that the first step. It’s a minor surgical procedure, and it really is the only, truly reliable way to confirm a diagnosis of endometriosis. It could also tell us what stage of endometriosis that you have. And with this procedure we will be able to examine your ovaries, uterus, and fallopian tubes in a more thorough manner than an ultrasound would provide. So, if you feel up to that, we could do that as soon as this Wednesday.”

I will never forget the moment my labor began, the moment that marked that step in my journey into motherhood. I can remember everything about it so clearly. My mom, fiancé, and I woke up early Friday morning to make our way to Western Missouri Medical Center. I stood in front of the mirror looking at my belly knowing it would be my last time standing in that bathroom with my baby inside of me still. It was a bittersweet moment that I cherished as long as I possibly could. I was set to be induced that morning and very excited, yet a little bit nervous. I had no idea what to expect. I’d been waiting a very long 37 weeks to finally meet this precious human that had been growing inside me. I had ideas of what he might look like, and what the experience might be like, however nothing could have prepared me for what was in store over the next few days.

Finding out that I was pregnant first hand was a bittersweet but conversely a Kodak moment as well. During the first couple of days I didn’t know whether to ball up and cry or to be happy and exhilarated, I was 17 so I didn’t know how to be happy about me being with a fetus inside of me. “I have my whole life ahead of me, this can’t be real, why me?” I constantly asked myself while looking at the positive pregnancy test. After finding out this shocking news I walked in the same room that my cousin Kiana was patiently waiting in, and quietly said it’s positive. Kiana gave me the ideal expression I kind of hoped for and needed during the time-being but shortly after, I got the news that she was also pregnant. When I first noticed my first sign of pregnancy when I started spotting, and increase of hunger, I didn’t think nothing of it but I slightly had a clue. A week goes by still going unnoticed until the morning sickness stage hit. Waking up with morning sickness was one of the stages I had an aversion to the most. I partially disliked this stage because not only was it morning sickness, but because it was morning and afternoon sickness. Another reason is because it made me feel nauseous. After the morning sickness stage, it encouraged me to get a pregnancy test.