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Dear Diary,

Today I walked through the churchyard like a silhouette of myself, wishing I were as weak as my shadows so my insides might not feel so mangled. As I entered the church, the long held back tears began to flow. I was not ashamed. I loved him. Now he was gone a light had been extinguished forever in my heart. I sat in my silent grief and awaited the start of the funeral service.
I struggled to hold back the grief; tears flew steadily and silently down my immobile face. I felt bruised inside, numbness, emptiness, as I walked behind dad’s coffin. Although he is gone already, my soul unwilling wants to acknowledge the finality of death, thinking about how I will never be able to look upon his face again, see the warmth in his eyes, …show more content…

The sun today shone brilliantly and the virescent colour of the spring day under its glare was offensively bright and cheerful. It was as if the world wanted to show me how they would go on without him. It shouldn’t. Everything should be as grey and foggy as my emotions; it should be cold and damp with silent air. But the birds still sang and the flowers still bloomed.

The thing I couldn’t bear most was watching through my tear strained eyes, the coffin being lowered into the grave. I began to think about how Dad was such a good man, he was all that I had, and now he was leaving me. I realized that I would never see him again.
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This morning I found myself woken up by the ding of the doorbell. As I struggled to get out from bed, I remembered the melancholic atmosphere from the funeral yesterday. I opened the door to find Samantha, my best friend. She has been such a great source of support for me, from beginning to end, she has been right beside me.
We soon found ourselves talking about dad. I couldn’t get him off my mind. Even though he died peacefully at his old age, I still felt something was missing; I felt like I needed to find something for me to move on with my life. Samantha began comforting me. Something I remember clearly

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