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External Influences Control Us More Than We Would Like Or Even Admit

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Shannon Antonellis IDS 201 Prof. Salvadore February 5, 2016 External influences control us more than we would like or even admit. Jenny McCarthy is obviously the leading expert on the cause of autism so we soon follow her blindly into not vaccinating our children. Gwyneth Paltrow consciously uncouples from her husband and then gets her vagina steamed and we all flock to the newest thing that we didn’t know we needed. Kim Kardashian delivers a baby, is back in a bikini within weeks and is on TV flogging an advertisement for a new diet pill and we think that the newest magic pill has arrived. The one thing that these women and their nonsensical ideals have in common is that they are not me. Prior to this class though, I was caught in …show more content…

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