Essay about Facing My Fears (of Graduation)

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Facing My Fears (of Graduation)

Here it is, late in the school year, and what have I accomplished? I have been living in a fantasy world for the past three and a half years. The best years of your life right? Says who? I am not going to deny the fact that I have had the time of my life, but for what? Where am I ?

What is college anyway? Is it a preparation for the "real" world? I guess it depends on what you think the real world consists of. If you see the world as a never ending party filled with blood shot eyes and hangovers, coffee with extra shots of espresso and lost homework assignments, late rent and stacks of dirty dishes, parking tickets and MIP's, tailgating and basketball games, all nighters and pizza,
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I guess I just always had a preconceived notion that at the end of my college term, all the answers would appear on my doorstep, or maybe in one of those all famous University E-mails. Well, not even pilot has helped me out on this one. After all this preparation, I still feel like the beach ball ball being passed around aimlessly among the crowd at a home football game.

Not only am I still as confused as most of the advisors here at State U, I have another big issue with this college stuff. Although attending a Big Ten University has been a great experience, I am beginning to see ONE of the major downsides to it. Because this is such a large school, the students attending it are from all over the place. When I first came to good 'ol State U, the only friends I knew lived within a ten miles radius of me. Well not anymore!! Now I am tormented with the reality that all of my closest friends are soon going to be randomly sprinkled all over the United States. I am forced to ask myself if it was worth it. The people that I have grown with and invested my thoughts, feelings, hopes and dreams into are all abandoning me. This is not real life!! In real life, you keep the friends you love close to you. This has been like a tease for the past three years. Each time I start to get close to someone I wonder if it is a good idea. Why torture myself?

Is this all part of that "great learning

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