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Finding Dory

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Scanning through the movie options available on the hotel’s On-Demand service, my sister and I looked over every movie available, finding none that caught our eyes. As we transitioned from the New Release section to the Still In-Theaters section, my sister screamed in excitement as an image of some blue and orange fish caught my sister’s eyes and she eagerly tried to take the remote to play the movie. In the midst of the fuss over Finding Dory, my mother woke up and walked out to the living room, only to look at the screen in horror and shut it off manually. My sister and I were utterly confused. My mother forbade us from ever watching that movie again. I refused to submit to my mother’s authority, and asked for an explanation to her anger. “There’s a lesbian character in the movie,” whispered my mother, as if “lesbian” was a forbidden word. The overarching sense of homophobia that plagued my childhood was rooted in my mother’s mindset, ultimately breaking mine. …show more content…

Neither my mother, my father, nor my other closest friends know. It is the aspect of my personality that defines me the most, yet it also haunts me every day. Being the oldest of three siblings, I carry my family’s pride on my shoulders. The pressure of success stands before me, with only my sense of masculinity to prove my worth. Growing up in an environment scrutinized by homophobic comments, the love that my family has for me is conditioned to an untruthful assumption that leads me to questioning the loyalty I have to myself. All my parents claim to want is my happiness, but how can I truly be happy if suppressing my identity is the only way to prove my sense of purpose towards them? I want to express my sexuality with a burning passion; I want it to come out with the intensity of a lion’s roar. Yet, how can I truly be loyal to myself if the options are either hiding who I am to make those I love the most proud, or coming out and being true to my

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