Friday-Personal Narrative

'I cannot possibly believe you are talking like this. I thought you really enjoyed our relationship and that you wanted what was best for us. You are a quitter and I am stupid for having played your game all along. I always thought you were better than this and this is why I invested all of my

Hi... I've been trying so hard to respect that you needed some space but I just can't not talk to you any longer. I understand if you no longer want anything to do with me or if you even want to talk to me but I just want to let you know how sorry I am and how ashamed of myself I am for hurting you the way I did. You are what I loved most in this world and I ruined it. I am so sorry for lying to you and making you feel the way you did. I am also so so sorry if I ruined your week with you're family. I pray I didn't. You probably dont think I do but I love you so much Ellie and I always will. I really want to fix things, I'm willing to do anything in my power to fix things I just need to know whether or not you want me to because I will understand

It started as typical Tuesday with a couple of court hearings, maybe an arrest, but nothing to exciting. That all changed at dawn.

Hi. It’s me. Please just read this. There’s no need to respond or get in touch in any way afterward. This is just my way of getting closure since I wasn’t able to the last time we texted. It’s a jumbled mess, but I ask that you please bare with me and read it all.

When we tried to make things right by talking on the phone, you were already on the fence; you had every right to be. We worked things out and decided that we enjoy each other’s company too much to end what we had built together. We both had thoughts of doubt, which we both expressed,

I'm sorry for not being your voice when you needed it to scream, I'm sorry for not stand up for your rights, I'm sorry for not being strong enough to stop the abuses, I'm sorry for not being strong enough to stop the bullying. When you needed me the most I kept myself in silence, afraid of what it might happened to you and still couldn't be avoid it. We've been together since we were born, and we've had to learn to grow together, to learn together, to love each other despite the pain, the struggles, the obstacles, the grieve, the loneliness. I know my apology is way too late, but it is important to me to let you know how much you mean to me, I had to learn how to appreciated the woman you’re today. The woman you’re today is stronger, wiser, intelligent, sensitive, kind, tough and funny; basically, all the things you’ve always aspired to be, you’ve made it!. If I have to think in a

I’m writing you this letter and I want you to read the entire thing. I figured that I should write this instead of tell you because I’d probably forget things if I was talking and we would probably end up arguing. I feel like lately all of our conversations are very aggressive and not actually conversations. Also, I feel like whenever I try to really express what I’m feeling and you don’t agree with it, you shut me down. I don’t know if you realize that you do it, but you do and it hurts and makes me feel like I can’t say everything that I need to. For one, I am very sorry that I lied to you about going to Taylor’s and told you I was at work. It really really won’t happen again. I didn’t tell you sorry the other night or even right after because I was upset and the apology would not have been sincere. I didn’t want to just say sorry to say it, I wanted to mean it and it be genuine. I am also sorry for shutting you out. I know that it’s not fair to you and that you are just trying to make the most of the time you have with me because I’m not going to be living here for a whole lot longer. I don’t know why I thought I had to lie to you that night. There wasn’t anything super important that I just had to go over there. I am so sorry that I did it. I know that I lost a lot of trust with you by lying and I hope that I can do something to gain it back. Honestly, I just don’t know how I am going to do that. On the other hand, I do think that you overreacted. I don’t really care at

It's been a very busy summer so far. At the end of July, we returned from 23 days in Germany and Scotland.

Unfortunately I won't be in class today I'm stuck in the hospital once again with an upper respiratory infection and the flu my throat closed up Saturday night so there keeping me the until Thursday to make sure I'm okay. But just to make sure today in class where going over Russia and China right? And I'm not sure because I don't have my paper was there something about extra credit?

I was obsessed emotionally with finding you and making you safe. I knew you hated me but all I could think of is how much I love you and the primordial desire I had to reach into the river or gulf and bring you home to your life. I personally have been unable to focus on even the basics of my life without the shame I am experiencing and the continuous interruption of thought due to my feeling of humiliation, guilt, and remorse. This is the last letter I will write as part of my addiction program. It is the last because it is the hardest for me to understand. Trying to understand how I could love someone so much and treat her so poorly is a concept that I fight to come to terms. I believe I have been a good parent to you but I simple do not understand my decompensating. My therapist tells me this is all part of family, alcoholism and stress and the motto of the lessons are ?the best apology is changed behavior?. I however will always question where my anger arises from and have vowed to fight a better battle with tools other than alcohol. As I close these thoughts I want you to know that my stress, behavior, and argument with you has nothing to do with what developed

Considering the fact that I’ve had a four day weekend. I’ve been through alot those past four days. Friday I missed school because my granddad's funeral was held on that day. I never really got to know my grandad that well because my mom just find out he was her day last year. But the little moments I did spend with him will always be cherished.

As I have told you many times, I love you, and I probably always will. Brief as our relationship was, the connection to you that I formed still holds strong. I still feel as though you were struggling to convince yourself that you were over me. A struggle that I believe you are still dealing with. This connection is what drove my actions for the past several weeks. It is why I have held on so tight to a chance that we might come back to each other. It is why I was so willing to look past all of the things that should have made me angry. It is why I am working towards forgiveness now. In the stating that I am working towards forgiveness, I am not accusing you of any malicious acts. We were not together, therefore I cannot and will not suggest that you cheated. You found comfort when I failed to supply it. What I am attempting to forgive is the omission of

I was fortunate enough to come up in the music industry at a time when the competition was fierce. But in my experience, the camaraderie and support amongst fellow songwriters, musicians and music industry professionals was equally intense. I’ve often joked with friends by referring to music row in Nashville as an island of misfits. Moreover, it’s a place where there is a concentration of like-minded creative people who, more often than not, support each other. I can’t speak to the previous generation, but I have heard several music row veterans, espouse that this atmosphere of healthy competition and strong support for one another was even more prevalent back “in the day”. It’s just my opinion

I love you, more now than ever, but I wanted us to get to talk about how we can get back to where we were. The way things were.”

​I admit I made a mistake, I took you for granted and got way to comfortable in our relationship, so I did not care about the side effects of my behavior. I cannot say I am sorry enough that I have hurt you, but I would like you to trust in me enough to believe that I will not do it again. I have opened my eyes a lot over the last 4 months, even though I haven’t talked to you personally about it, I have written down everything and think about getting back together with you every day.