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House On Mango Street Monologue

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When I was about 5 years younger, I was fascinated with survivalism. Me and a group of goddamn hippies and EDM dipshits went out to the desertous gorgeous hell known as Anza Borrego. I intended on surviving at least one day by using only the deserts resources to survive. So I only ate insects, aloe, and mushrooms... eh, psychedelics to specify. More like food poison induced disassociation to be partially medically accurate. I was dating the first Jasmine (I've had a history of dating girls with the same name for an unconscious liking to pairs) who was needless to say, very ashamed. Everyone was either disturbed, disgusted, or had a distaste above all regarding my actions in the gorgeous hell. Long story short, a night of too many …show more content…

Young me fell deep into infatuation. I called Jasmine and told her "I fucked someone lastnight." We didn't offically break up until a few days later at a Dalai Lama conference at her universities arena. "I'm going to pursue this girl", I told her, being comepletely indifferent to the man of the hour. She was so souless I had to push her buttons. After a year of being chronically submissive to her, I felt free, but of course, there was a complication: I had to secretly see the Honeybadger. Her group of friends banned the idea of us. Well, this rally being lead by her cousin. He hated my guts with all his wits. She begged me to keep "us" a secret, especially from him. Sick of seeing her in the shadows and desperate for change, I told him that I believed I loved her one drunk evening. That I needed his blessing to see her... he said it was fine, Saw the pure intent in my eyes. I told her that everything would ne be fine. She then replied "Sounds fucking great for, you, but I'm done. Don't take it personal, I hate everyone, and I'm morphing into a honey badger now. …show more content…

I felt such a responsibilty to take care of her as her cousin would look out the window with the expression of a protective dog. Her family in San Diego would have her doped up on meds for countless disorders. She'd beg me to help her escape onca a day to clear her mind, and I felt like I was doing her such a service. Details aside, it wasn't easy. She eventually moved back to Riverside one day. It wasn't until I fully let her go when I learned a lot more about this secrets of this Scorpio... She was also sleeping with her cousin. He was the main enforcer of keeping her doped up on her meds, and regulating her life. I belive that was one of many reasons why she jumped. Why it had to be a secret. She was basically using me to escape the asylum that was San Diego. Or was it refuge in a nearly as crazy friend. I have no idea where she is today, but, I can only wish it is

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