I Was A Last Year Old Girl, Living Inside Myself Essay

The first two lines of "Song of Myself" tells something distinctive about American identity. The lines “I celebrate myself, and sing myself / And what I assume you shall assume,” to me constitutes the heart of what America was established for. We as Americans pride ourselves on our rights and opportunities; so having the ability to praise ourselves symbolizes our rights to be free and who we need to be.

This fight again only lasted a short time before we made up, but only to become friends. Over the summer we talked but I was very hesitant

Unlike most people, I did not get to be a carefree child for long. Even though I always said that I could not wait to grow up, now I wish that it all did not happen so fast and early in my life. From eleven to twelve years old—that would be the period I describe as the time I had to put my big-girl pants on and face the real, cruel and unwelcoming adult world. In that time period, I can specifically pinpoint two major events that ended my childhood: my move from Russia to the United States and the birth of my baby sister Toma. To some those might not seem significant enough to change someone’s life to the extent that they changed mine; however those events molded me into the person I am today.

When I was 4, my father left my brother, mother and I and we were alone and had nowhere to go and no one to turn to. The way that I felt had only ever been expressed through poems that I had written over the years, but they were all full of anger and sadness and were all feelings that I

Walt Whitman, a democratic poet, celebrated himself and his connection with the world by writing “Song of Myself” in 1855. According to Eric Forsythe, “Throughout the poem, Whitman probes the question of how large the new democratic self can become before it dissipates into contradiction and fragmentation, and each time he seems to reach the limit, he dilates even more” (Forsythe). The poem shaped the idea of what it meant to be an American, by bringing citizens together. It also foreshadowed the Civil War, which began in 1861, through a symbol of grass. In “Song of Myself,” Whitman’s themes of individualism and carpe diem developed from the transcendentalist movement.

occasions casted out emotions of a younger age, due to obstaclas in life that hit me.

We talked about a lot of stuff like what we have been doing over summer, What class I would want for next year, but, they were interested in the relationship between me and David. They were like “When did you go out with David”, “how long have you been dating David”, how long do you think your relationship is going to last” and they kept on asking”Are you sure he is the right guy for”. I was like “I Don’t know”, I really haven’t dated anybody in my entire life because I thought nobody liked me for me and David, he is just a chill guy that I know he won’t cheat on me. The thought of him cheating on me is just, hurtful.

I thought I did something wrong. And I thought, ‘Well, maybe by meeting up with him… I was asking for it.'”

I ran outside back into the car. The image kept replaying in my mind. I tried to hold in everything, but the pain kept coming up my throat like a silent scream. Beads of water kept falling out of my eyes with no signs of stopping. I couldn't distinguish whether the sadness was due to betrayal or due to the heartbreak both of them have caused me.

I was stunned, how could my friend lie to me like this? I message him one more time.

The people that I interviewed are good friends to my parents. There names are Audelia and Alex Pelegrino. When I interviewed them they had a lot to say. They told me they met at a disco and after a few times they finally decided to meet each other. Ironically, since it was so dark at the disco Alex had to look very carefully because he couldn't remember how she looked like. She said that she used a code name, Erica, for the men she wasn't interested in. So, at first she wasn't actually thinking of going out with him at all. She also wasn't thinking of even settling down with him, but her decision suddenly changed. They then officially started to date. What they did to get to know each other was go on dates whenever they could. It was every week or so in Mexico. Soon afterwards it was 2 to 3 times a week in which they would hangout with each other. That didn't happen till they moved to America though.

Bailey James Kummet entered my life at the age of eleven. I had met him through a friend, she had forgotten his number and begged me to message him for her later on in the afternoon, I did her the favor expecting that to be the end of it. I would have never thought that this random boy would become such a major part of my life.

In my youth, I was like every other child, completely oblivious to the world round me and the hatred it contained. I was a happy little girl who was a little to clingy to her mother, all though that didn’t last long. I have no memory of my dad between the ages 2-4 considering he was never home. I had quite an imagination so I was always daydreaming which gives me trouble today considering I can’t remember what of my early childhood was real. My parents split when I was two so I don’t have much of a concept of how my parents’ relationship was, although now I’ve come to know that it wasn’t at all good.

A year ago around this hour I met a "guy" for drinks and dinner... I was down in Whittier and had time and figured after months of texting and chatting, but never meeting why not just ask to meet up. Little did I know (and I know for him as well did he know) that it was going to be an evening where we can look back a year ago and wonder...what happened.

It hadn’t been more than a month or two after my first semester at college started. I was doing something on my laptop, sketching, coding, something or another. I looked down at my phone to see a message from one of my best friends, you all know him as OptionalSauce. He asked me about a game he recommended me a few months back, Katawa Shoujo. We messaged each other