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In The Beginning: St. Dymphna's Mental Institute For Girl

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In The Beginning Why do we get scared? Why do we feel the feeling of anxiety or panic, anger or sadness?; these were questions I thought about at least fifty times a day. As I was staring at the treeline in my nightgown at five o’clock in the morning I began to make the final arrangements of my plan. The words crazy, suicidal, and mental running through my mind over and over again. As the sun starts to rise so does my heartbeat and I realize that I had been standing here, in this same position, for five hours now. And as I begin to run back to the building I refuse to call home I ask myself, “Am I crazy?”. St. Dymphna’s Mental Institute for Girls in Kazan, Russia was one out of five girl institutes in world. It was also one of the best, …show more content…

The grounds consisted of a main building, a barn, a small playground where the younger patients get to go if they're good, and a huge green yard with a greenhouse in the corner; they always say flowers can heal any soul, but I dare them to tell that to patient number 2784. Winnie Watson was the craziest one in the place. She's been here since she was seven years old; rumor has it that at her fifth birthday party she disappeared, she was at the park with her parents getting ice cream, they turned around for one second and she was gone. Two years later she reappeared, she wouldn't talk or look at anybody. The next day when she woke up she went berserk. In the interview her parents, with their strong Scottish accents and detailed Scottish faces said, “we kept callin’ her name, then we tried screamin’ her name. It was like she couldn't hear us. She was lost in her own head, murmuring random things in several different languages.” No one knows what happened to her, she hardly ever speaks, but when she does it's usually to me. I don't know why we clicked, maybe it's because on my first day here I gave her my food. When I first got here I didn't eat for a week, before I had my plan I was determined to kill myself, one way or another. But then I kept hanging out with Winnie everything felt less lonely. 5832 is my patient number and Logan Chase is my …show more content…

In all my four years here the institute has only had one major problem; about a year and a half ago an older patient of the age eighteen got into a quarrel with a younger patient of the age ten. Long story short the eldest patient was thrown out of a fourth story window by the younger patient, all because of a stolen piece of bread. I have only gotten into about three fights. None of them serious but all of them victorious in the end, for me of course. All in all these girls are the only ones in my life and I try to show them as much respect as I can. Sometimes I think of them as my sisters, even though I refuse to call this place of torture

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