Independence Can Be Taken In More Than One Way. It Can

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Independence can be taken in more than one way. It can be viewed as being an individual free from influence of others, or socially intrinsic and introverted. Both of these definitions are me. I 've spent many years of my life worrying about how others view me. But, I can happily say that where I 'm at in my life right now, the obsession has diminished. Sometimes my mom mistakes this for a lack of care and indifference, but it has made me who I am today. As far as social interactions go, I do find myself becoming tired when constantly forced to be extroverted. Over the summer I went on a two-week trip with my neighbors to The Gulf of Mexico for fishing and scalloping. Towards the end of the trip, I found myself becoming snippy towards…show more content…
However, it is something I have always struggled with the idea of not having. I guess in a sense, security could be a synonym for stability in my case, but there are a few differentiating factors. Security gives me an ease of mind, and without it, my anxieties run wild. To be frank, I have a fear of relationships. Over the years, I have come to the conclusion that the major factor in this is the lack of security. The idea that one day my boyfriend or husband could wake up and no longer want to be with me, is terrifying. I understand that that is what love is all about, but the fact that there is no security with relationships is the reason I essentially run away from them. Stupid, I know. This is me though. Being fresh out of high school, straight honesty is not something I 'm extremely well-versed in. However, it is exceptionally important to me. Now that I can take a step back and look at all the drama and fake people that I associated with in high school, I have a greater admiration for being frank. I 've grown to be, excuse the language, a no bullshit person. If someone doesn 't like me or has a problem with me I 'd rather than say it to my face than talk behind my back. This also applies to my workplace, if I 'm doing something wrong, I want someone to tell me. I cannot fathom why people feel the need to lie others, it is inexcusable in my opinion. Five years from now I will be two years finished with
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