Monologue For The Last Coming Home

self. The clearest examples of this struggle are shown in the two victims of suicide, Dale Harding and Billy Bibbit. Before their deaths, both characters felt a sense of uneasiness and discomfort in the psychiatric ward. Though they attempt to seem impassive and mentally stable, the men face issues within themselves and their reasons for being in the ward. Harding reveals that his issue within himself concerns his sexuality. He mentions that he feels “inferior” when “looking at the bosom” of his own wife. He also mentions comments about homosexuality, which leads readers to understand that he is in the psychiatric ward due to his sexuality. Due to these internal struggles, Harding decides to drown himself in the ward’s pool. Bibbit, on the other hand, struggles with his self-esteem. He explains that his stutter does not give him much confidence and that he has struggled to ever have relations with a woman. At the end of the story, McMurphy hires Bibbit a prostitute in hopes of gaining money and improving Bibbit’s attitude. When Bibbit is caught with the prostitute by Mrs. Ratched, his anxiety reaches a peak point. Upon being sent to the doctor’s office after being scolded, Bibbit decides to slit his own throat to avoid conflict with the ward and his mother. The internal struggle and violent responses to it show the more serious, life-or-death conflicts in the

The rain had just stopped pouring, and we had all gathered in a park nearby, as a makeshift memorial for Johnny. It wasn’t really a funeral, we didn’t have the budget for that, and it wasn’t like his parents cared enough to give him a proper goodbye.

I kept writing. It was hard, but I could get everything off of my chest. I could explain to people what had happened to me. I could tell my English teacher. It was a little hard, but I didn’t cry. I couldn’t cry. Greasers didn’t cry.

Mike begins by stretching out his mother’s life as a hard working waitress. He points out all of the things he watched her do like “[take] customers’ orders…, [walk]… through the room with plates stretching up her left arm…, [removing] a

     Billy Pilgrim has been through many cruelties in his life. As a child his own father was cruel to him. They had gone to the Y.M.C.A. to teach Billy how to swim. A horrible, traumatic, event that would stay with Billy for the rest of his life. “Little Billy was terrified, because his father had said Billy was going to learn to swim by the method of sink-or –swim. His father was going to throw Billy into the deep end, and Billy was going to damn well swim”(43). Roland Wear was a very cruel man as well. He even to it as far as to try and kill Billy by kicking

Kelby, (Billie Jo’s father), has many internal conflicts that he struggles with throughout the novel. Some may be small, while others have a great effect on those around him. For example, Billie Jo flashbacks, “Daddy named me Billie Jo. He wanted a boy. Instead, he got a long-legged girl with a wide mouth and cheekbones like bicycle handles” (Hesse 3).

His main thing that he wanted to accomplish was becoming famous. Only a couple of years being together, they got into a lot of fights and decided that they needed a break from each other. Patrick then decided to start making his songs by himself , but that did not come along easy. Although he made the song soul punx famous, it just was not as good as it was when he was in a full band doing what he loved. He knew that when he was solo he could not become famous because people did not like his solo music as much.Then he remembered his main influences and how they got into drugs so he decided to be like them when he did not succeed. Getting as close to drugs as he was really affected his life and put him at a whole new perspective. He did not get along with other people too, especially famous ones who approached him. After the long wait the had all been different, Patrick had been different the most. He had gained some weight and his style of mind was different. They started to make music again like normal and Patrick would now get made fun of because he changed a lot. The people just did not like how he approached music anymore. Even his band members and friends did not like it which caused them to get into a lot of fights and they were now one step farther away from fame. He wanted to become famous so badly because he was dreaming of it since he was around ten

Michael would have been left with possible resentment and been grieving and depressed for a while as he learnt to adapt to life without Lisa.

It was painful for him to see his daughter suffer, and now she was no longer alive. He reminisces through the following quote, “where Isabel is weeping against me seems a mortal wound” (98). This signifies that this sadness was unbearable to the narrator. It felt as though: how much more sadness could one bear in this lifetime? In fact, he feared his brother would pass away just like his little girl, yet for other unnatural causes. Hence, if Sonny did die, he would feel guilty about his death for a lifetime. Second, he recalled a conversation he had with his momma about keeping his brother safe, “You got to hold on to your brother, she said, and don’t let him fall no matter what it looks like is happening to him and no matter how evil you gets with him” (92). The occurrence of these two important events motivated the narrator to change his views about his brother. Thirdly, finding out about Sonny’s misfortune through the papers, opened his eyes to his brother’s misery, “I read it, and I couldn’t believe it, and I read it again” (83).

Sonny’s decision to become involved with drugs reveals that he is a person who more easily gives into despair rather than try to escape suffering. His character can be illustrated through other’s actions, thoughts, and speech (Baldwin 123). By doing drugs at such a young age, Sonny developes a new way of looking at the world, and turns to music as his escape even though he knows that his family disapproves. Another example of characterization is found when the narrator decides to contact Sonny. After the mother of the narrator dies, he completely forgets about his brother until the death of his daughter occurs.

I tell you one thing though, I’d rather blow my brains out than go through this again.”(51) The drug addiction is not what Sonny wished to live with. He would rather die than go trough the battle of drugs. Living a life so bad that date is the best options gave the biggest picture of how life truly was for Sonny. In that moment self medication is what Sonny yearned for. He yearned for the intense high of a hot needle and his muscle relaxing like a breeze on tabletop but though his music. Growing up so troubled drew Sonny closer to bearing himself in self hurt and self pity. He coped through his drugs and his drugs controlled his leered emotions. The drugs overpowered him and the only way sonny could break out was through the power of jazz. Sonny only wants to control his destiny and guide himself to the right path. All his life he wasn’t destined to be anything nor did he have control of where he would go. Self medication is where the control of his own life

Billy has lost a sense of love as death has faced him in the eyes once too many. Billy deals with his pain by turning to alcohol abuse, he cannot deal with his mourning, "Sometimes it's not as if they have died so much as that I myself have died and become a ghost." (43). From Dolores and Billy, the central theme is slowly revealed.

Firstly, Cheswick has taken his own life because he feels worthless for going up against the Nurse for his first time, to have cigarettes, but no one supported him, like how he usually does. Unfortunately, Cheswick drowns by accident because his finger got stuck, but it actually helped him escape from his misery, which is why they say, “But just as soon as we got to the pool he said he did wish something mighta been done, though, and dove into the water”(Kesey 175). For Cheswick to break away from all the mistreatment, he just needs a little more support and less control over him, but since he is dead now, he can be relieved from all the pressure. Next, Billy has just slept with a girl and the Nurse walked in on him, so she’s is mistreating him like he has done something awful. This makes Billy feel like all his confidence and masculinity has been taken away from him. The Nurse says, "What worries me, Billy," she said—I could hear the change in her voice—"is how your poor mother is going to take this" (Kesey 314). Billy’s humiliation and lack of confidence due to his restriction of rights, caused him to kill himself, rather than dealing with Nurse Ratched’s expectations and control over his life. Finally, Chief’s stability helps him break away from the pressure of the authority and higher power, considering their influences have many impacts on his life, which caused him to do the right thing. While Chief was free from the asylum, he says, “I remember I was taking huge strides as I ran (. . .) I felt like I was flying. Free. “(Kesey 324). When one regains back their mental stability they are able to escape the environment that had control over their lives, which results in them having full control and power over what they decide to do throughout their existence in

We see the main character who is referred to as Fuckhead often, take pills from Georgie who has already taken some pills. After this point is when the reality starts to fall apart. But this is a great opportunity to point into their mind to demonstrate the reader that just because they are drug users does not mean that they are bad people. We first notice that he is losing notion of reality when Georgie is mopping up because according to him the floor has blood on it and he is upset about it but the floor is actually clean. Then they take a ride in the truck and they see several things like the angel that Fuckhead sees, then he realizes that it was not an angel that he saw.

My life was flashing before my eyes, I was realizing what was happening death was coming. Cold and stillness filled the room while the feeling of death started to overtake my body it was a different feeling but it had to come. My limbs felt heavy and I thought real slow everything was slowing down. Just then something odd happened like nothing I ever thought some sound came into the room an annoying buzzing creature.