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My Desire For Perfection As A Student

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Imagine that your mind got stuck on a certain thought or image. Then, this thought or image got replayed in your mind over and over again no matter what you did. You don’t want these thoughts, but you can’t stop them. They feel like an avalanche. Along with the thoughts come intense feelings of anxiety. You might recognize that the fear doesn’t make sense, doesn’t seem reasonable, yet it still feels very real, intense, and true. This is exactly what I experienced after I forgot to bring my homework and even forgot to do it several times in 3rd grade. I was absolutely terrified of being punished every time I forgot to either bring it or complete it due to my desire for perfection as a student. As a result, I had to constantly check the completeness and possession of my homework to relieve my anxiety and fear. No matter how many times I checked, the thoughts and fear would come back multiple times until school started. This was the first sign of my OCD.
Now what exactly is OCD? OCD is known as obsessive compulsive disorder, an anxiety disorder. It is characterized by unwanted repetitive thoughts, becoming obsessions, and sometimes accompanied by actions, becoming compulsions. A person diagnosed with OCD can have either one or both of these symptoms. Currently, there are 4.3 million people in the U.S., 1 million children and 3.3 million adults, who suffer from OCD.
However, is OCD just simply another psychological disorder that debilitates one’s ability to live a comfortable

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