My Dream Future

I have come from a well-meaning but very scarring, ambivalent and dysfunctional family. My father was a sometimes physically, but often times very emotionally abusive person. Using a large amount of fear and intimidation of him to control our family and home. My mother regularly took out her anger and frustration towards my father on me since my parent’s first major separation when I was seven years old which in conjunction with the negative impact of my parents’ off and on separations leading up to their eventual divorce I developed depression, anger and other behavioral problems as well. I suffered many years of abuse from my mother as a result of these things. I understood both my parents cared for me, even though their actions often time both demonstrated it and contradicted it which lead to much confusion in relationships and friendships outside of my family. One of if not the most scarring experiences were of my mother and the adults she surrounded herself with sympathizing her abuse towards me because of the abuse she endured by my father and

Growing up, I never lived in a steady household. My biological mother moved us around, had different men coming in and out of our lives, endured physical abuse from my biological father, and threatened to end her life countless of times, leaving my siblings to take the reins, and not only take care of the house, but me and themselves as well. None of us had it easy, but being the youngest, and the only one who lived at home until I was eighteen, I seemed to bear the brunt of it all. At such a young age, I began to become less and less happy, no longer enjoying the finer things in life. Due to my emotions plummeting, not only did my opinion on myself began to change, but apparently so did the opinion of others, resulting in a major shift in appearance. As time passed, I received numerous amounts of negative commentary on the change of both my appearance and personality, which did nothing but enhance the self loathe I had for myself, leading to the

I had no hopes or dreams growing up. I never thought too much about the future as a child. I lived from day to day just waiting for one to finish and another to begin. I grew up in this fashion and did not change at all until middle school. By middle school, I was aware that life did not revolve around school and that there were expectations for me to meet. Both parents and teachers expected me to rise above and beyond. Now my reason for waking up every day and working hard was to meet these expectations. I worked hard to keep up with the expectations, though eventually, the young child that I was could no longer handle the stress of all the work and slipped into melancholy. It was an endless cycle of work, failure, and shame. This continued until I graduated and went off to high school.

believe that there is a middle point to where history and your own identity shape your future. Without your history, you could have never been born and without your identity you true future will never be shown. Multiple examples such as Martin Luther King Jr., Sacred Heart Cathedral, and my mom’s history give details on why I think history and identity tie together to make your future. Martin Luther King Jr. was born into a rural, poor, religious family. From there, he followed his father’s footsteps and became a pastor.

“I like the dreams of the future better than the history of the past.” - Thomas Jefferson.

Throughout my life I never really had parents; coming home to a drug abuser who was constantly zoned out was a normal day. I wasn't loved or even thought of as a child. My biological parents never once came to my awards or conferences. I used to lie to my childhood friends and say that my parents had to constantly work. In reality they didn't care at all.As a child I had both of my parents; when I grew up everything collapsed. I was in 7th grade when I realized that my life would change dramatically. My biological mother fell deeply into drugs, as for my biological father he left without saying anything. At the age of 12 , I was placed with a family friend, while my biological mother was in rehabilitation.

“ The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams.” - Eleanor Roosevelt. “Every great dream begins with a dreamer. Always remember you have within you the strength, the patience and the passion to reach for the stars to change the world.” - Harriet Tubman. “ A positive attitude can really make dreams come true-it did for me.” - David Bailey.

I wasn’t born into a wealthy family where things were handed to me on a silver platter. I had to learn at a young age that I was going to have to do a lot of things in life myself if I wanted to become successful. I feel like after my mom passed away I lost track of that and started doing reckless things, such as smoking marijuana, smoking cigars, and selling drugs. I even quit playing football because my habits were interfering with my mind and I couldn’t do anything. It also made it to where my family was even beginning to turn their backs on me because I wouldn’t listen to anything they were telling me. It was basically sending me in a downwards spiral. Instead of making my life better I was hurting myself and my family. My so-called

Despite the love and support of my family, I did succumb to making poor choices. I started hanging with the wrong group of friends, caring less about school, doing things the Lizmery now wouldn’t do. My perspective changed when I entered high school. I noticed how much of a rebel I had been with my family. I understood then, all the things that my mother had done and sacrificed to give my sister and me the world. I saw my sister earn her master's degree and buy a house. As the youngest, I had great role models in front of me. I knew that what I did in the next four years had to be drastic. I had to step outside of my comfort zone, leave the negative friends behind, and take my education

These past experiences have really left a mark in my life. I found a purpose and a way of changing myself. I knew this was my way of truly emerging into the best person I could be. I firmly believe you must have a dream and see yourself doing something that awakens passion within. Surely then it is bound to materialize. I read that, Nelson Mandela says “It doesn’t serve any purpose to keep your light under a cup.” It is important to use the gifts that you are given.

My life has been a great life so far and I hope it stays that way. Within the short eighteen years of my life, I have made mistakes and learned from them which has made me a better person today. In my future, I plan to pursue at least one of my dream jobs. Leading up to the person I am today I am proud of who I am and who I am becoming. Every day I try my best to achieve a new goal or try new things. As this autobiography of my life comes to an end, I hope my future plans allow me to be successful and happy. My future is what I am going to make it adventurously and

Past, present and future are all important to keep in perspective. Looking back and not having regrets is extremely satisfying. Your current situation and your contentment with it are also very important, and having goals and milestones to work toward in the future keeps you motivated and keeps life interesting and challenging.

Too often we get bogged down in our past, and in memories of events that we think define us and restrict us from moving forward. The truth is that we can decide today who we want to be. We may have some baggage, and we may have future dreams, but today is the only day where we can define who we are and what direction we want our lives to go.

There’s a lot we can learn from the stories of our past – if we tell them in such way that enables us to hear what they really have to say. This holds true with me and my life. To put it simply, the life I’ve lived up to this point has been nothing short of a beautiful (and bumpy) roller coaster ride! As I have grown up there have been many factors that have influenced me to take on or do certain things. These things, plus some of my individual choices, have contributed into what’s made me who I am today. And with that, I’m happy to say for this moment in time, I’m satisfied with the person I am and the path I’m taking.

"The judge has made his decision, the accused has been found guilty." These are the words that one day I will finally hear. My future goal is to be a lawyer. A lawyer is a professional person authorized to practice law. They defend or prosecute people for the crimes they have committed. (dictionary.com) I am very out spoken and believe in fighting for what I want or think is right.