My Experience With Homesickness, And Poor Study Habits

I learned that I had created my own feeling of inferiority by putting so much focus on someone else’s best quality. I was too busy trying to be better than them when I just needed to be my own best. As long as I focus on being the best for myself I could eliminate so much of the silly mental worries. Sometimes I still do this to this day but perhaps one day I will realize that I no longer need to compare myself to other people. In the meantime, I’m learning to accept that this is something I do and finding ways to use is as a force for positive

Since coming to America, I have moved to an ample amount of places because my father’s job concerns. I changed school frequently and in each new school I was never greeted with a warm welcome. With one glance my classmates saw I was different from them. I was often bullied and teased because of my racial difference from my classmates, from these experiences I became a quiet and docile girl. This way I thought I would not get in anyone’s way. I had closed up in the world in front of me; I never expressed my own opinions and always agreed with the majority. However secretly inside of me, I was frustrated not being able to express myself and yet I was unable to change. I craved to be what I was in the inside to be on the outside. Still by

The first and second year after moving from China to the United States, I was afraid to talk to strangers because my English was not quite well. I had to depend on my husband to deal with my personal business, such as making a doctor’s appointment, calling to the bank, or questioning the DMV officers. Douglass says, “being a slave for life began to bear heavily upon my heart” (62). Being a dependent and helpless adult is a shame for me. In addition, I did not have extra money to go to school to improve my English skills. Thus, I stayed home all the time to avoid the embarrassment that happened when I did not understand strangers’ conversation. Meanwhile, being silent at home leaded worries to my future. I realized that I had to improve my oral English to gain self-confidence. I spent time reading various articles on the internet, and I watched English dialogues’ videos on YouTube. As a non-English speaking immigrant living in the U.S., I challenged myself to overcome difficulties to integrate myself into a new

I was also shy and often insecure because I did not believe in myself. I was looking for the approvals of others, because I did not believe that what I was, was good enough. Like Youth I did not want to be judged, I just wanted to be accepted for who I was. The paradox here came from the fact that my family was always supporting me and I was the one that did not want to open up, I was the one creating my own fears, when everything around me was more than beautiful. When I became a teenager, exactly like Youth, I wanted to escape and go to a better place. I was wishing that somewhere far way would be much more interesting and I would find what I was looking for. Now, couple of years later, I am far way, in a foreign land, and my wishes have became reality. Now, when I have all that I want, I realize that everything has its price. I am here, I am achieving my goals, but something is missing. It feels unrealistic to search for something that you have already had before. I guess, I needed to travel so far away to start loving myself. And when I did, I found that that indeed my family was the most important for me. I had to travel all over the world to realize that I love my country, my family, my friends so much and it only feels real when I am back home, because only love is real. I do not regret for anything, because everyone learns his or her lessons. I know that I am here for a reason and I respect this country I am in right now. I am here because I experiencing my journey, and now I love myself, I do not feel insecure, I listen to every advice from my family, and I appreciate it with all my heart. I am very thankful, and I pray that all my family and beloved people will be safe and sound. From now one, I just want to continue my journey with a lot of courage and a lot of love in my heart. Because I learned that the most important thing in life is to follow your

Throughout my teenage years, I was the embodiment of the average introvert. The pressure to succeed and become a first generation college student in my family was overwhelming, and the constant battle of not being good enough defeated me. My parents only spoke Spanish, and were unable to help me with my school assignments. As I struggled with my academics silently, my self-consciousness and insecurities grew. The fear of speaking out in public was a lingering shadow that developed more, as I grew older. Being that English was my second language, I had always felt inferior to those who spoke English as their primary language.

On the first day, I cannot speak any English at all. I felt very uncomfortable sitting in the class, listening to everybody talking without saying any single word. Later on, I got home, and I was very disappointed in myself. I could have just given up, but I didn’t. I kept on studying very hard, and as the time went by, those hard works paid off. I improved, and I can finally speak with everybody. If I have never face the situation like this, I might have given up on everything that’s hard. Furthermore, I wouldn’t have realized how big this world is and how hard is it to try, and just keep being the same old negative person. When we are facing new vocabulary words from the book we’re reading, if we are not practicing how to use and pronounce it, our English will always be on the same level. Like me, without this situation, I wouldn’t have changed and keep believing in something that was

I have always been afraid of people even when I was younger and in primary school I had this irrational fear. I hated school because of it. School was mortifying for me and I would cry, but I would cry before any of the other students arrived. I think I was afraid of my own emotions back then and I still am, but i’m trying to walk one step at a time across that imaginary bridge of fears I have. I don’t think i’m anywhere close to fully crossing it yet, it’s like I take two steps forward and one step back. Now that i’m in highschool, I realise that I have to get across, and soon because if I don’t get across I’ll fall to my doom. Everyday the ropes holding the bridge up are unraveling, I know I must move fast, but I feel as though my fears outweigh my confidence. But, I have been challenging myself and taking just one small step at a time to cross the bridge of fears. I wear clothes that have colors and patterns, anything that I like I have forced myself to wear it because it’s who I am and I can express myself. It has taken me awhile to realize that it’s okay to be yourself and express who you truly

I when I first came to America I felt like It wasn’t home, I wanted to go back to Kenya. I felt dumb, because I couldn’t speak the language. I also felt frustrated because I didn’t know the language. People constantly teased me, and made stereotypical comments because I came from Kenya. Because of that, I was very quiet and shy in middle

Growing up I was always been self-conscious of myself when it came to appearance, grades, and style, I was always concerned with fitting in. Growing up at a school in the Dallas community, I was constantly worried about if my clothes and hair fit in with everyone else, if my body was skinny enough, and to make sure my grades are kept at the standard my parents hold for me. This was an ongoing struggle going through middle school and even high school. For some reason I was more worried about what people thought of me rather than just being myself. Until I ended up rereading the book One Fish Two Fish Red Fish Blue Fish in the middle of my junior year. After rereading this book, I learned to apply it to my

As time passes and the older I get I have more confidence in myself. About four years ago when I started high school everything for me changed. Receiving good grades and passing all my classes was a big goal I wanted to achieve. My first semester as a freshman didn't go as planned. Taking a normal English class then being transferred to a two hours of English was a big

• Lack of confidence and low self-esteem : feeling of hopelessness, “not being good enough” and “not worthy”

“In order to succeed, your desire for success should be greater than your fear of failure” (Bill Cosby). Reflecting back on my life I have dealt with numerous downfalls but I always bounce back. I was born in India and moved here when I was six years old. As I grew up in California I was not a bright student at first. I was enrolled in Carmichael Elementary in which I was the only one with Turban on my head, which caused me to get into a lot of fights with other students who were making fun of turban. Not knowing how to speak English at the time affected the way interacted with teachers and students. On the other hand my family always had a tight budget at home. Both of my parents worked at the store we owned which was the only source money. At school kids were always talking about their new shoes and the iPod which his or her parents got them. I didn’t get everything I wanted as a kid but as I got older I understand if did I could be a spoiled brat. When I moved from Carmichael to Sacramento and I was enrolled at Maeola R. Beitzel elementary. Going to this new school I already learned English so I made marvelous friends and was surrounded by positive people. Going from a chaos environment to this harmonious environment in part because I was speaking English, made me have unique personality .I was playing sports and growing as a student. Those years went by in no time. Now I am in high school and my family’s income has been growing. My mom changed her work to now at Jack in

From a young age to about eight years of age, my mother homeschooled my siblings and I until she obtained employment to support our family. Being introduced into public schooling at the age of nine, I not only struggled with social anxiety, but also was diagnosed with dyslexia. Being dyslexic not only made academics difficult, but because of the difficulty I had, I was held back a year in second grade. After many months, from the assistance of many teachers, I began to manage my social anxiety and face my dyslexia. With having to work harder than my peer group to maintain decent grades, I often found myself making comparisons of my attributes against those of my classmates. This caused me to become self-aware and extremely self-conscious of what others thought of me. Furthermore, this caused me to hide my age from many people for fear of them calling me stupid.

Our lives are not too different from this story. We sometimes face difficulties and challenges such as being unhappy at work, being unhappy with our bodies because we picked up weight, toxic relationships and criticism. This results in us being unfulfilled. From this we also experience a low self-esteem and a lack of confidence -: sometimes we know that if we could just take a leap of faith and jump to change our lives our lives could improve, but we

My life as a student has been a fairly good one. I’ve received good grades throughout all my years of high school and pride myself as an intelligent individual. But my individual ability to grow and learn has been always changing and shifting as I have grown. I think that currently, I am at a low point in my mindset and learning ability, but there is hope on the horizon. This essay will explore the growth and mindset of Will Roser, and how I can grow as a learner, friend, and individual.