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My Obsession With OCD

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Perfectionist Imagine someone constantly slapping your face, screaming at you to do something over and over. Until you do as they say, they will not stop yelling at you and telling you to follow their instructions. If you are anything like me, you would just do as you are told and not question it whatsoever because you perceive yourself as helpless and standing up for yourself is not an option. Once you give into the pressure and complete the task being forced upon you, they finally leave you alone. Although your face is now as red as a tomato, you feel a sense of relief and satisfaction for handling that situation without it getting out of hand. Now imagine if this person did this to you every day, and this action is now a part of your …show more content…

It makes me feel satisfied and relieved knowing that I have control over almost everything that I do and I can make it as neat, and equal as possible. I truly believe that my OCD has also made me more organized, efficient, and overall a smarter person due to the obsessions of making sure everything is “perfect”. There is almost never a mistake that I have made that I did not notice and fix before it turned into a disaster. When I was about thirteen years old, I newly found out about OCD and after going to the doctor’s office to get her opinion on my behaviour, she suggested that I might have this disorder. After watching numerous documentaries, I found myself saying “I do that too!” to many of the people and their symptoms and came to the conclusion that I have this disorder. I always wondered why it was considered a terrible thing to be obsessive-compulsive and why it was referred to as a disorder. Because the entire idea about being obsessive-compulsive is being orderly and doing things in an orderly manner, how can there be a disorder of order? I thought it was natural to live life in a systematic way, regardless of how that made you feel. But, OCD is like a monster inside your head; the more you feed it, the stronger and bigger it becomes. In my case, my monster was overly fed, and along with it came

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