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Narrative On Identity

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"Why do you wear that thing on your head?", she pointed her long red-polished fingernail at the flowered scarf on my head. I wasn’t ready for that question. I would think that by now I would have a prepared answer ready for each time I am asked, but the reality is that every time I am asked I am somewhat taken aback. Why? Simply, because I am so used to it and feel so normal in it that I forget that I appear strange to everyone around me. Growing up as a child to Moroccan immigrants, I was always confused about my identity. Was I Moroccan, Moroccan American, American, American Muslim. Muslim. I always considered myself Moroccan even though my attachment to the country and culture wasn’t equal to that of a native Moroccan. And in the same …show more content…

I had been lost all of this time and can finally find myself with my people. I shortly realized this wouldn’t be the case.
My family would jokingly call me "Mericania" or American.
Back home in America, I was definitely not American. To me, American meant having blonde hair and blue eyes, and your name was something like Jill or Jane, and I most definitely didn’t fit the criteria. So for much of my life, I lived with the absence of a true identity. I could not define myself and that left me confused. This led me to hang out with the wrong crowd. I wanted acceptance from my peers. I didn’t want to be different, I just wanted to fit in somewhere. DESCRIBE HOW I FELT HEARING MY GRANDFATHER DIED
GOING BACK TO MOROCCO
It was my junior year of high school when I realized I shouldn’t care about people. My personal happiness became more important. That was kind of difficult for the people around me. One reason was that during the previous year, all my friends had seen me without my hijab on, so it was a bit hard for them to grasp my new look. The year before I started wearing my hijab, I was a little rebellious and rather outgoing, so wearing the hijab the following year turned me around 180

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