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I attempted to draw air into my lungs but my throat was too tightly shut by the force of the sash wrapped around my neck. Neither would sound come out, nor air stream in. From afar, I could hear laughter and conversations going on in the near rooms. Louder in my head were muffled noises coming from my nasal passage in its final attempt to breathe in its last breath. Life and death, in this very moment, were all under one roof. My hands, still in my pockets, involuntarily clenched into a fist. My toes cleaved to one another as if to say to each other “We are in this together.” They curved in towards my heel and would have fain clenched into their own fists’. This pendulum of a girl and noose no longer oscillated. Time had stopped. The initial …show more content…

Now in my mid 20’s, I completely turned my life around. I’ve learned the first step towards getting something better out of life is to decide that you are not going to stay where you are. My older sister and I moved to Florida, where she started her own family and is a stay-at-home wife and Mother. My Mom lost custody of my younger siblings and moved away with her new boyfriend. I eventually obtained my G.E.D and started attending college so I can become a Dental Hygienist. I could never have learned how to cope without the help of an amazing councilor, who taught me how to live in this sometimes terribly painful world. She also taught me positive coping mechanisms and ways to deal with my emotions. I began to take ownership of myself and control over my thoughts, my mindset, and my existence. I do believe living is harder than dying and still have bouts of depression, and moments when I feel like ending it all – but they are fleeting thoughts! I am aware of the warning signs now and I know when the world is getting to be too much for me to tolerate. I don’t isolate myself or my disease anymore, I look for positive people I can discuss my problems with. I also live with the thought that I am here for a reason, and when I have completed my purpose here on Earth, God will call me home to be with him. I shouldn't rush things, or make a permanent end to a temporary problem or situation. Until then, I try to remind myself of how I am blessed and try to appreciate the wonders of the world and the people in

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