Personal Narrative-Assisted Suicide Or Selfish Suicide?

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“Monsters don’t sleep under your bed; they scream inside your head.” When you are young and the world is fresh, the most frightening occurrences are monsters, or make believe ghosts. You would never think that you would be here, living in a personal hell; a phenomenon so much scarier, yet so overlooked. Going through the day with copious amounts of pain, with not a soul in sight with a clue is quite possibly one of the most difficult hardships someone could experience. “That happens to other people. Something like that would never happen to me,” is usually the thought that occurs when this word or topic is presented. Well, it is being brought to attention right now, and it’s something much scarier than monsters or ghosts or make believe.…show more content…
When I was experimenting with the idea of taking my own life, I looked at it as a not only selfless act, but like it was my duty to society. I used to believe that once the pain of losing me had worn away, people that were apart of my existence would realize how much better their life I was with me not being apart of it. When I tried to tell my boyfriend or my best friend, I would start shaking uncontrollably and could not breathe. I had the overwhelming feeling like I was going to throw up. I would feel worse about myself when I would go a long time without taking my anxiety medication. Since as far back as my memory will allow me, I recall stress, anxiety, panic, and all of the above. I would have anxiety and panic attacks on the regular. At the age of 12, I was finally diagnosed with social and general anxiety…show more content…
My support system was my best friend. She helped me through the worst and was always there for me. I have gotten better through prayer and with the support of people around me. I have learned to not judge a book by its cover, because you never know what hardships someone could be going through. “Always treat individuals how you want to be treated” is something that now rings so true to me. I know on the outside I come off as a very happy person because that is what I have been told on several different occasions… nobody would ever guess what I was actually going
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