“There seemed to be nothing to see; no fences, no creeks or trees, no hills or fields. If there was a road, I could not make it out in the faint starlight. There was nothing but land…I had never before looked up at the sky when there was not a familiar mountain ridge against it. But this was the complete dome of heaven, all there was of it. I did not believe that my dead father and mother were watching me from up there; they would still be looking for me at the sheep-fold down by the creek…. I had left even their spirits behind me. The wagon jolted on, carrying me I knew not whither. I don't think I was homesick. If we never arrived anywhere, it did not matter. Between that earth and that sky I felt erased, blotted out. I did not say my prayers that night: here, I felt, what would be would be.” This new surrounding is the beginning of an adventure for
The last thing I saw before I was whisked away was my brother, a lonely soul with no one left to love him. I left on a Monday morning and by nightfall, I was in what seemed like another world,
you lived a perfect live, worked hard througout school and been a faithful christian you whole life. you were respectful and grateful as a kid and never took anything for granted. you have worked your whole adult life on being the perfect father and dont think you could have done any better. you read the scripture every day and work extremely hard to provide for our family. you never yell or raise you voice and always keep your cool. you manage to bring scripture into punishing us. you struggled early on in your marraige just to put aside money to put us through college. i have done nothing to deserve it. you have been the perfect husband to mom. never fighting and always compromising to make her feel like she should feel. you are so
I feel pleasure in dwelling on the recollections of childhood, before misfortune had tainted my mind, and changed its bright visions of extensive usefulness into gloomy
Recently it has occurred to me, that I am finally free from the shackles of fear and its hold on me, that this might be the end of the trail. Nonetheless, the sense that suffering is chasing me weighs down any notions of comfort or relief, frankly because my valley was once no different than the peak, just as safe and appealing. And so I moved in life, the trail never ended. The same pebbles remained unmoved, the same voices and sounds, everything was the same. Remarkably, the further I climbed, the more my perspective changed drastically, shifting my perception of moments and bonds that I developed with others into everlasting memories. Wounds seem to have healed. Gradually the valley below began resembling a gem with undeniable beauty contradicted
No longer boiling or tight. Still driving, you thought about how much Bellflower hadn’t changed. Not too desolate, but not too crowded. Almost inevitably, the thought of the wall drifted its way back into your mind. You loved the wall with all your heart, even more than some people you knew, but if somebody were to knock it down the next day, you wouldn’t have stopped them. When you arrived, I noticed the tenderness with which you exited the car. Timid? Crestfallen? You couldn’t get over the way this town ran you ragged and left you in its cellar. Why had they left you? Why were you always catching up? The questions and the sorrow that came with them created a black cloud above your being. So large that one didn’t have to look closely to see its presence. It tangled you up! Pulled at your legs and hair trying to find the easiest route to your soul. It swallowed you whole and carried you through your worst nightmares, your lowering defeats, and your forgotten memories. And just when you thought you couldn’t take it any
During my childhood there were plenty of times that my parents have made me angry, but that completely changed into to anger towards my step dad. When he first came into our lives it was strange because he wasn’t my dad and I didn’t really like someone I didn’t know trying to discipline me especially if you weren’t my parent. As a child I couldn’t stand I had a lot of built up anger towards him because he wasn’t my parent so what gives him the right to put his hands on me even if I was being bad it wasn’t his job to discipline me it was unfair. That anger suddenly turned into rage and hatred towards him when I witness something I remember clear as day. Though I tried my best to suppress the memory every time I looked at him I remembered everything
Hey dad I'm writing to you because I feel it's easier and it gives you more time to think. I wanna just tell you how I have been feeling lately and what I'm going through, okay here it goes. Ever since I was about 12-13 I've noticed that I never had any feelings towards guys and it wasn't till I started hanging out with a close friend of mine that I realized I really did like her. I noticed every little thing about her, I worked out her flaws, I could be myself around her she made me feel safe. The day I actually confronted her about it she said it was disgusting and that she couldn't be friends with me anymore. It hurt a lot that someone would say that and so from then on I didn't say anything about it I kept telling myself that I liked guys but all I did was lie to myself and I don't wanna do that anymore.
The Birth of my first, Jayden, was pretty normal, and he was on time. I was in labor for
“Prove them wrong” When I was in fourth grade my dad and brother and I were playing basketball at our house, to help my brother practice. I had never played basketball except against my brother, Brayden. My dad would always be our referee and it was a lot of fun. Even though I never beat Brayden. Brayden didn’t think I was very good, and he would have to play easy on me instead of playing as well as he could have played. It really annoyed me I wanted to be as good as him or better because I wanted to actually have a chance to be better than him at one sport.
Even now it is hard to think that my dad was gone for large portions of my childhood because he always had a large influence on my morals and values. The reason was because he was always working in order to keep a roof over our heads. He used to do construction and he would leave on Monday morning and not return until Friday afternoon. My dad would eventually get a job at a warehouse yet he never forgot his construction roots. On occasions he would do some roofing jobs on the side and it would be my responsibility to help him since I was in 6th grade. That painfully backbreaking work with my dad showed me that that was not the job or the life that I wanted. These jobs and my dad would always remind me that with a great education and a degree
Walking into the stadium I can hear the screaming as I get my ticket, going through the gate and looking out at the 8 mats. As I look to the left there is a mom screaming jumping up and down in tears because her unranked son just beat the 6th ranked guy. I can also point out the father of the young man that lost that match, his face is blank he can't believe what has just happened. On the mat straight ahead there are two of the best wrestlers in the state going head to head for a spot in the finals, one of them had his head wrapped to stop the blood and the other has a big black brace on his left leg because he had tore his ACL a month before. The sweat dripping off of him is like rain pouring down during a storm. The match is in overtime,
Grandpa was the first to notice. No one else suspected anything different about me; nothing seemed to separate me from the other kids my age. But grandpa knew, ever since I looked up into his reassuring eyes with that innocent smile, that I was special. I acted the same as the other kids, always playing and climbing without a care in the world. Only when I got bigger and grew older did I begin to realize myself. Grandpa and I didn’t even have to say a word; we shared a unique connection. Those eyes, piercing blue but overcome by a sense of comfort, could communicate far beyond words. They took me to a place where I felt like I could stay a kid forever, and never have to worry about a thing. We were outcasts, Grandpa and I, but nobody knew.
Venezuela is just another chapter in my on going book. I was born in Tamaulipas, Mexico my home country and got moved 3 months later to New Orleans. It was uncommon for a mexican family to move so constantly all over the world, we are known to migrate to US or not migrate at all. I don’t remember New Orleans so I regarded to my next move, Colombia as my home. Colombia was everything a 4 year old wanted, friends, close to family, wonderful house and most importantly the school was accepting to others. I felt as if I belonged, I even sang the national anthem with pride, because it was my country. I knew Colombia inside out, I knew the language, culture, food, education which gave me comfort because for a long time I felt ordinary like any
Ben said “Dad, it’s me Ben I wanted to let you know I only have a few days left to live, I know we haven’t been close for a while but I wanted to let you know that I still love you. Thanks for everything Dad, I love you.”