Personal Narrative: My Love Hate Relationship With Writing

My writing experience started in high school. I was part of the high school yearbook. I was business editor as a freshman up to being the editor my senior year. I also participated on the newspaper staff. I had some experience in college, but I did not finish college. I then did not have any more experience until I started work as a leader at Nisco. I finally started college classes again.

I learned a few interesting reasons regarding my overall feelings for writing. Up until now, I never examined why I disliked writing. Looking back at my past experiences with writing I now have a better understanding on what was holding me back. Self-confidence certainly played a large factor in my avoidance of writing. After writing the essay on my relationship with writing, I can use what I have learned from that exercise and apply it to my future writing adventures. I need to be more self-confident, and not worry about any judgments. I need to realize that I am able to express my thoughts through writing. This exercise gave me a very good perspective on my avoidance of writing and will help propel me to write more in the future.

My feelings about writing are something a teacher does not want to here. Personally I do not like to write because I struggle at it just like reading. Another reason why I do not like writing is because it is very time consuming and I do not have the patience. Writing takes many steps and processes to have a good piece of work when I would rather skip them all too just a couple steps. When I am trying to writing I feel like I so many ideas and topics to write about, but when time comes to write. Boom nothing comes to me, and I sit there staring at my blank piece of paper stressing. Trying to focus is another reason that makes me dislike writing. Before I start the paper I am think I am going to sit down and get this paper done and over with,

My writing experiences have been minimal. So far I have only learned the basics of writing, like forming sentences and forming sentences to put into paragraphs. I can tell that my writing has improved throughout the years. I hope to improve in writing essays, paragraphs, stories, and speeches so that I have no errors with editing and creating the final product. I predict that I will be a well rounded writer when I graduate from Newman University.

My mind can never be quieted. I am constantly thinking of moments or ideas or fantasies. What is all this dreaming worth if I cannot share it with the world? That is why I have gone on a quest to find an outlet for my thoughts. It has not been a process that has been traversed with ease, but through this journey, I have found many pastimes that have helped form my thoughts and beliefs.

In my first “Who I am as a Writer” paper I stated how one of the areas that I needed to improve was writing. I went into more depth talking about how my writing is not descriptive enough and how I cannot grab the reader's attention. Even though I still need to continue making improvements, I have gotten better in both of these aspects. Compared to my papers in high school my introduction paragraphs have improved.

My identity as a writer comes from how I view a piece of writing. I view it as art. To create something that intrigues someone, that makes them angry, sad, or confused is my goal when I write. I want the audience to feel something. It just so happens that for most people, writing with the strategy of pathos in mind is always extremely effective. My environment growing up was that of complete creative freedom and I had the privilege to be able to explore my interests at such a young age. My experience with growing my skills as a writer I think started with my love for creating artsy things if you will, but after many years of being stuck as a novice, I developed exponentially during my high school years. I came into my own as a student and learned how to let my longing to stay creative creep into every project I could get my hands on. But I struggled where I perceived creativity wasn't needed i.e. math and history. I became uninterested and skated by in that aspect. Why would I put so much of my time into something that so strongly opposed who I am as a person?

My name is Yris Guzman and I’m a senior at Perry High School. I’ve always struggled writing essays. The things I struggle the most with is grammar, spelling, coming up with a thesis, and organizing my thoughts onto paper. I hope by the end of this semester I become a better writer. We all have strengths and weaknesses.

When it comes to writing I have a mental breakdown, I get nervous, overthink, and emotionally stressed. These three words describe me as a writer. In high school I would have a difficult time starting papers, often times my weaknesses was grammar and sentences fragments. How I feel about writing is how I feel when a love one dies. It's like as if I'm at a funeral and my paper is the one being funeralized. I think the reason why I am how I am about writing is because my college English teacher in high school was so harsh on my papers, and ever since then I've been traumatize to write papers.

Throughout my high school career, I have been exposed to many different elements of writing and, although some teachers have emphasized certain areas more than others, I feel I have come a long way as a writer. Despite this I also know I have much further to go. This fact became very clear to me as I was taking my previous course of English, Accelerated English Three. Within this course I was introduced to the MLA method of citation, I experienced disappointment due to receiving a lower grade than I had desired, and I discovered difficulties such as my impatient tendencies to look over errors and mistakes during the editing processes.

Ever since I can remember I have always struggled with writing. I believe that Spanish

My earliest experience with reading and writing were traumatizing especially when I was in the first grade. I still recall the experience I went through to this day. It made me really hate myself because the other kids were making fun of me.

“Most of the time when I want to write I get depressed when I think about writing. Sometimes I do have an idea but it's hard to me to put them on paper, I don't know why but sometimes when I'm trying to write about idea its look like I forget everything” this is the sentence that I start my first Journey of this semester and from this time until now I learn a lot of new things and now I have an idea that how I can write correctly. I think that I find my fear of writing was because I don’t know how to write and now I have an Idea about writing and all I need some practice. As I see my biggest problem is how to use verb tense and where should I put a comma, but that problem is not big as the problem that I have at the start of the semester. I

Maybe you are a writer who is scared to let others know what you write about, like I was. Maybe you think they will judge you, and they may. If you are like me then you know what it feels like to get a sudden urge to write where you have to pour out your heart and soul. I'm talking about those urges that just don't make any sense where you can't sleep because these wonderful thoughts keep flooding your brain. Maybe you can't wait to get home so like me you carry a writing pad with you just incase you get inspired. I now realize that these strong desires for me to write, it's not for me but for others. In the past I was afraid of sharing my thoughts with others, but one day I realized, my thoughts can help others as well. Fear is crazy, it has

Addictions cover a wide range of variety whether it be a dependency for drugs or a harmful habit of drinking nail polish. While my addiction is not life threatening, it is still an addiction. Reading controls me; it has always played a role in my life and I do not wish to get rid of this addiction. Going to my school library as well as the public library near my house became a routine. I would check out a gigantic stack of books read all of them in a week's worth of time and then beg my mom to take me back to get more. In middle school we had ipads that we were able to use in class and to my advantage each of our ipads included the kindle reading app. Using the app, I would download as many as the free books as I could and then read them during class whenever I could. Most of the free books available through amazon included cliche romance novels which did not bother me because as long as I was reading my addiction would be satisfied.