Personal Narrative: My Relationship With Writing

I have always struggled with my writing assignments. If I had the option not to write I would take that option with no hesitation. I truly dreaded it, when we have to type essays. Now, I have been into two English classes where I have felt a little more comfortable in being able to write something without being so embarrassed or ashamed in what I’m about to turn it. I still feel horrible about my spelling and grammar.

I learned a few interesting reasons regarding my overall feelings for writing. Up until now, I never examined why I disliked writing. Looking back at my past experiences with writing I now have a better understanding on what was holding me back. Self-confidence certainly played a large factor in my avoidance of writing. After writing the essay on my relationship with writing, I can use what I have learned from that exercise and apply it to my future writing adventures. I need to be more self-confident, and not worry about any judgments. I need to realize that I am able to express my thoughts through writing. This exercise gave me a very good perspective on my avoidance of writing and will help propel me to write more in the future.

My writing experiences have been minimal. So far I have only learned the basics of writing, like forming sentences and forming sentences to put into paragraphs. I can tell that my writing has improved throughout the years. I hope to improve in writing essays, paragraphs, stories, and speeches so that I have no errors with editing and creating the final product. I predict that I will be a well rounded writer when I graduate from Newman University.

My identity as a writer comes from how I view a piece of writing. I view it as art. To create something that intrigues someone, that makes them angry, sad, or confused is my goal when I write. I want the audience to feel something. It just so happens that for most people, writing with the strategy of pathos in mind is always extremely effective. My environment growing up was that of complete creative freedom and I had the privilege to be able to explore my interests at such a young age. My experience with growing my skills as a writer I think started with my love for creating artsy things if you will, but after many years of being stuck as a novice, I developed exponentially during my high school years. I came into my own as a student and learned how to let my longing to stay creative creep into every project I could get my hands on. But I struggled where I perceived creativity wasn't needed i.e. math and history. I became uninterested and skated by in that aspect. Why would I put so much of my time into something that so strongly opposed who I am as a person?

My name is Yris Guzman and I’m a senior at Perry High School. I’ve always struggled writing essays. The things I struggle the most with is grammar, spelling, coming up with a thesis, and organizing my thoughts onto paper. I hope by the end of this semester I become a better writer. We all have strengths and weaknesses.

Throughout my high school career, I have been exposed to many different elements of writing and, although some teachers have emphasized certain areas more than others, I feel I have come a long way as a writer. Despite this I also know I have much further to go. This fact became very clear to me as I was taking my previous course of English, Accelerated English Three. Within this course I was introduced to the MLA method of citation, I experienced disappointment due to receiving a lower grade than I had desired, and I discovered difficulties such as my impatient tendencies to look over errors and mistakes during the editing processes.

I grew up in Panama City, a beautiful country located in Central America, like many other kids I learned how to read and write in home, and in the school at a very young age. However, I learned how to read and write in Spanish which is my native language. Books have been part of my life since I was a kid, I remember reading story books, comics, and classic stories with my parents almost every night after school. Both, my mother and my father would prefer reading a book than watching television, nonetheless, reading was a common thing to do in my home. Even though, I love reading, I have never been a good writer; writing have been the thing which I have struggled the most in Spanish and in English. I first started

My earliest experience with reading and writing were traumatizing especially when I was in the first grade. I still recall the experience I went through to this day. It made me really hate myself because the other kids were making fun of me.

This piece of writing is a narrative writing piece, my aim is to create an atmosphere of fear and create an experience of the operation. In the writing, I used first person pronouns to show that was a first hand experience. I used I, me, and myself in this writing. I also used sensory details as the smell of the material in the operating room - the smell of anti-infective was strong and strange for me. It helps to create an atmosphere and makes the writing more authentic. I used colour adjectives to help the reader visualize the scenes – pale and blue watch. Furthermore, I also used the sounds to make my writing lively and vivid – “Tik-tok, tik-tok, tik-tok”

The writing process feels different to me depending on the topic I am writing about. Topics I don’t care for feel very long and tedious and it seems like I’m spending more time thinking about what to write than actually writing. Topics that I do like on the other hand feel much easier to write about and can feel like I’m almost rambling. My writing process begins with a fairly lengthy brainstorming session.

Finally, I will discuss on how I struggled with my writing. Writing for me was very hard because not being able to read or spell really affected my writing. I did get help with my writing but I still struggle with my writing until this day. For instance when I write sometimes I do not know where I suppose to put my commas or semicolons. I am not a very great writer because it's hard for me to brainstorm because I'm not very good at concentrating my mind tends to wonder

My relationship in writing is a relationship that I have to work on. When I started online courses it made me realize that my writing skills, was not so impressive, and needed work. Practicing writing is, on the top of my list. I prefer not, to express myself when I am writing, because I would be leaving a trail of my thoughts on paper, for someone to read. When I was reading this week’s Read, and viewing the Attend, it made me realize writing my thoughts down was not so terrible, it could be a way for me to tell a story that needed to be told, in order to help others.

I have been writing for as far back as I can remember. Everyone has their good and their bad experiences within their writing history. This will ultimately shape the way you write today and how you feel about it as a whole. Writing, to me, has been an emotional rollercoaster in my life. I have had unfortunately more bad than good memories in the writing department. This is why today writing is my least favorite thing to do. My struggles in school have contributed to my hatred for writing. My writing habits are poor and bring out my insecurities because I was never given the chance to practice my writing skills, it inhibits social interaction, and I had a bad experience with past teachers.

Writing was something I held onto tightly, concealed deep near my heart, but now I had to associate it with my worst fear: a judging audience. I felt a small ball of rage unleash within me because I felt like I was jeopardizing my

On the other hand, I have waivered with my feelings towards writing. For the early stages of my schooling I truly enjoyed writing creatively and using writing as another form of expression. But, I struggled with writing junior year during my AP Language and Composition class. I wasn’t used to reading pieces of writing under the lens of analyzing why the writer wrote the way they did. Eventually with more practice I was able to develop this skill. I am looking forward to further using and refining this type of analysis this year. Personally, I think the biggest reason I am so nervous about writing is because I have low confidence in this area. I always doubt myself about if I interpreted a piece right or if my analysis is clear, among other things.