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Personal Narrative: My Story Needs Heard

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My Story Needs to be Heard
Madison Kauffman Being or feeling alone is one of the worst parts of being in high school. I understand that people might be friendly to one another, but does that really make you friends? In my personal opinion... no. You need a good foundation to be friends or best friends. Friends need to build off of good memories, and be able to get along well. Being a freshman in high school has really changed my entire view on life already. Knowing that I am not only in cheer as the mascot, but I play basketball, throw in track, and try to excel in school with my advanced classes. I have quickly realized that life is hard, but I recall no one ever said that it would be easy. I am fifteen years old, quite tall for a girl, …show more content…

It was a Tuesday evening. I remember what was going through my mind, and what my surroundings were like that evening. I recall not feeling good enough, feeling like a waste of space. All the tears that continuously ran down my face. One by one, I tried to wipe them off my cheeks as they continued to roll down. I looked up videos on how to take apart a disposable razor and when my searches were deemed useless, I figured it out on my own. I knew I didn’t keep scissors in my room, but I always have nail-clippers. I slowly clipped the outside of the blades off and sat there. I held the blade in my shaky hand. All I did was cry and pray for God to help me, lead me in the right path. I feel like I didn’t actually want to see the path that God was laying out for me. I was completely blind to any logic. Somewhere deep within me told me that I needed to do it, that it was suppose to happen to me. I knew that is was gonna happen that night because I had one again put myself in a predicament that left me hurt and even more confused on why I deserved to be alive. As the night carried on, oh so slowly, my dog must have sensed my distress because Gage sat at the door of the stairs whining and pawing. I silently wept as I sat on the edge of my bed wondering why I was never good enough and why I was such a disappointment. I decided what I was going to do, and that decision hurt the people that love me the most. I …show more content…

I turned towards people who had went down the same path that I had. I turned towards three people, and not a single one was my best friend. I wanted to tell her; I really did, but every time I typed up a message I found myself scared she would judge me. Liagh is my best friend and I couldn’t bring myself to tell her about my biggest struggle, I honestly didn’t think she would understand what I was going through. I turned to people that I am friends with, but they aren’t my best friends. I talked to Aj and Abby before I could even bring myself to tell anyone else. Abby was simple and took what I was saying like a pro; she knows the pain of cutting yourself. More importantly she understood how to handle what I was going through. And Aj went through the same struggle that I was going through, so he understood me greatly. He was worried and for the next few mornings he would walk with me before school. Sometimes Brianna would tag along too. After talking to Aj and Abby I turned towards the guy that I broke a promise with. No one knows Dylan, he lives in Ohio and I met him at a church camp. He and I talked about everything and just when I needed him most, he left. Although it hurt, it proved the fact he wasn’t worth my time. If he can’t continue to be my friend through the bad, he doesn’t deserve me at my best. I confided in these people because I knew they wouldn’t tell others, or bring it up. So the morning after

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