preview

Personal Narrative On Death

Decent Essays

On Death I am not a religious woman, I take no stock in stories of creation, I do not believe the world was crafted by some divine and omniscient power. Our thoughts, our perceptions, every aspect of our lives are a result of the intricate set of rules that govern the universe, some might call that god. I call them physics. We enter this world as a tiny collection of cells, multiplying and specializing to create a human life, and we leave it as a much larger, immensely complex amalgamation. Thus far in my life, I have never doubted my convictions, I have attended church, read scripture, and listened to the words of priests, pastors, and self-proclaimed experts. Yet a few months ago my lack of faith was tested. One night, I lay awake, filled …show more content…

As a young healthy person living in a medically advanced world, death had never been something I’d given much thought, at least regarding what it would really be like. It occurred to me, in that moment, that when I died, that would be it. I would be gone, I would cease to exist. My stream of consciousness would terminate, and the little world that is my mind would disappear forever. This, of course only caused my anxiety to increase, and nearly sent me into a panic attack. I could not comprehend the concept of stopping, of my thoughts, and perceptions simply ending. I could find no comfort in logic, for it was my logic that lead me to this conclusion. This realization caused a shift in my thoughts that bleed into every minute of my waking life. Each day seemed more solemn, and I carried with me a weight that hung heavy on every part of my mind. I spent hours obsessively racking my brain for a way out, an answer that didn’t fill every fiber of my being with electric panic. It was in these frenzied expeditions for comfort that I considered altering my world view to include an explanation of death that could sooth the hurricane that stormed in my mind. Despite myself, however, I could not let fear and panic lead me to dishonesty in my own

Get Access