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Coming back from India has led me to remember when I first immigrated to the United States. I was only five or six, a very tender age. Before I grew or comprehended anything or learned the intricate navigations of culture or imagination, I was only a child, a human. I was a human who knew affection and felt love quite well. I was a child deeply devoted to India, to the land of my birth. I loved the encompassing landscape and the feeling of grandeur that came with it. I liked the stray cats and the torrential rain that came with the monsoon season. I loved the front porch with the winding tree growing on it. But most of all I loved my relatives. My aunt, like me, loved animals. She was just like a mother to me, but better, because she never …show more content…

But truth be told, I do not know if it was. I was only a child; I lived those years as any other person who lives their life. It all sounds like a lovely, fleeting dream, because that is how I remember it after 10 years. It is paradise only because I remember it that way. But who knows? I always wonder if it is just me and what I would like to believe. Over time my mind has warped my years there and molded it to become the memories that are seemingly clean and spotless. Maybe it never was Eden; perhaps I wanted to believe that I once had an Eden when there was …show more content…

I always wanted to be a good person, a good daughter. But it turns out that I am spiritually weak. They are obsessed with evidence. If God is with you, they say, we should be able to see is through your life. In other words, I should be able to pretty easily be a goody-two-shoes. I should be pretty good and get good grades, since then they would know that God is with me. My grades are not so great. I am still seething over PreCalculus. Obviously, I am not in God's favor. Of course, this worries me. I want to change. I am so tired of living this, I want to be someone else. I am willing to be prayerful and faithful, but it is so much harder than it sounds. The only thing that I want to remain is-cold. I would rather be cold-hearted and detached rather than some emotional scumbag. Not that I despise people who are. It's just that that tears and emotions and feelings and crap doesn't work for me. I will cry when I want to , not when they want me to. And that doesn't have to be when they are present. I am my own master above my emotions. I put them under subjection. And that means crying when I choose to, or when I need to, not on a whim. There is an old saying: In a selfish world, only the selfish succeed. I don't support

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