I walked into the room and saw him staring closely at the floor with his eyebrows scrunched together. I asked him if he was ok and he stared at me for a minute then said no. My brother had just gotten back from school and normally he would be eager to share all the details about his day, but I knew he went through something difficult today. I sat down on the bed next to him and told him to explain what happened, so I could give him some insight. The next thing he told me was that his teacher had called him a terrorist in front of the whole class and everyone laughed. My initial reaction was confusion because I was only in fifth grade and I had not experienced or witnessed someone experience the same event. I wanted to understand why his teacher …show more content…
After witnessing my brother go through that discrimination, I never corrected my teachers about my ethnicity. If they thought I was Caucasian, and the majority of the time they did; I went along with that. The true test came during my seventh-grade year when my history teacher was teaching us about different religions and he asked the class, “How many of you are Muslim?” No one raised their hand, so I kept my hand down as well. I remembered when my brother faced bigotry from his teacher, so fear kept me from putting my hand up. When he asked, “How many of you are Catholic?” I saw the majority of the class raise their hand, so I pressured to raise my hand. I was willing to change my religion at that moment just to prevent any prejudice from coming my way. It only emphasized how embarrassed I was of my own …show more content…
Whenever I was asked what ethnicity I was I confidently said Middle Eastern and if any student or teacher thought I was Caucasian I would correct them. I even went as far as correcting my ethnicity on the school demographics sheet. I check marked the box for “White” when I first entered high school, but during the beginning of my senior year, I went to the school’s main office and asked them if I could change it. They said yes and I check marked “Other” and wrote in “Middle Eastern.” Not getting discriminated against through my K-12 schooling and seeing it through others, especially my brother made me terrified to share my belief and ethnicity. My brother constantly made me feel like I was privileged because I had a “White” name and I lived with a pile of guilt thinking he was right. However, over time that built up fear and guilt sparked this light within me. I became more confident and proud of where I came from and the faith I
When I was five years old I spoke better English than my parents did. This brought its challenges. I was the bridge that connected my parents to the rest of the world. I did not mind till I got older. Around age ten I began to feel ashamed. I am the daughter of two Mexican immigrants. I remember waiters at a restaurant's getting annoyed at my parents because they claimed they couldn't understand them. Then I would have to interfere and order for my family. I felt the racist undertones behind stares. I felt different and I didn't like it. I didn't want to be like my parents for a long time. I didn't like getting stared at or being frowned at. Very bluntly- I wanted to be white.
When I was young I didn’t really realize the impact of being African-American until high school. I went to a predominately white school for elementary and middle school. I was just like any other youth. I had my group of friends who were white; I was active in school activities and clubs. I was a student athlete and I got along well with my teachers. Everyone saw me as an upbeat person with a bubbly personality. Surprisingly, race was never brought up it wasn’t an issue for me during that period of my life. However, as I got older I realize there was a difference. As an adult I could really see the prejudice in others. I recall working a on a special project for the
I always identified myself as Mexican because technically I was mostly Mexican, but I didn’t speak Spanish and was never really accepted by my Spanish speaking peers. I also remember not wanting to be identified as White, I was an American but I didn’t want to be called White. I idolized Martin Luther King Jr. as a young child, and I remember feeling deeply moved and fundamentally changed after seeing the first images of the civil rights movement during Black history month. Then I remember starting to wonder why I always saw the same videos and learned the same lessons each year during February and I began to question things. I remember getting so angry at my own ignorance of the history of racism in this country during my first multi-cultural history class at Cal State Long Beach. I realized how much I wasn’t learning in school and that I never got an authentic version of history from any group other than the dominant White culture. It was an eye opening experience and it had a profound impact on me. I learned to embrace being an American as long as I was willing to commit to continuously questioning and challenging the current power structures in place and work to expose the institutionalized racism that continues to plague our public
Nonetheless, these feeling changed. Even though my understanding of ethnicity and race was limited my interest for understanding grew. For example, one weekend among peers at Connecticut College my last name was referred to in conversation about the Jewish population on campus. Without any hesitation the people around me highlighted a distinction that I was not Jewish due to my German name and looks, and therefore not included with the concern of the discussion. I came to wonder why such a distinction was made. I knew that
Truth to be told: I don’t particularly pay attention to national events or issues. My family is also incapable of comprehending national issues, especially my parents who do not have any level of proficiency in English. My family lives in a world where we go with the flow, but there are issues that I contemplate whether or not I should be involved in, particularly race inequality. Considering the amount of tension between policemen and African-American around the nation, the race to equal treatment is still ongoing.
I first learned about the world from my parents. Their viewpoints on people and their opinions about issues shaped my perceptions growing up. After interacting with people outside of my house, however, I began to doubt the explanations that my parents offered about issues like race and religion. For example, I distinctly remember my dad telling me to avoid befriending black people due to their “inherent aggressive behavior.” Then, I moved schools in third grade and started interacting with African American kids my age while also learning about the civil rights movement and segregation. With these new experiences and education, I realized that what my parents said to me was wrong and how our negative stereotypes of African Americans are harmful. I shared my findings with them, but they simply shrugged my comments off and kept their bigoted opinions firm despite everything I said. I think it was at that moment I realized
With my identification as mainly White, I receive more privileges from this affliction and privilege that other groups do not always inquire. I feel that this identity offers me a lot of opportunities to develop as a person, but also creates ignorance towards other minority groups. I used to strongly hold the belief that people of color should not been seen as their skin color and should be treated only based on their human value. Even though sometimes ignoring skin color can be beneficial, it can create strong oppression towards cultural differences and not allow for diversity to be present in the community. My ignorance towards decreased my understanding on why certain groups were being oppressed and different cultural ways that I could fix those being oppressed. The identity of being White can help me reach opportunities that increase my chances as a human being, but it also increases the chances of other groups being oppressed by my White
However, I have not always been confident in my own skin, being as my appearance clearly shows I am hispanic. My tan skin, slight accent, dark hair and eyes, shows my hispanic being on my outside. Last year, in my eleventh grade year is when I was the least confident in myself. I have always brushed off the gardener and maid jokes, but this experience impacted me. Last year when I was walking in the hall, a random boy I did not know handed me a folded up sheet of paper. When I opened it, it had the bolded, upcased letters spelling out “Trump.” At the time I took it hard. I did not know what it meant. Was it some silly prank? Was the boy telling me I was gonna get deported? My parents and I are here legally, but it still shook my character and confidence in myself and culture. For a week I felt down, there was even a family gathering that weekend, and I told myself that I did not want to go, so I sat in my room the whole time. But then I realized that this is who I am. I am cuban. I am proud of who I am and no one should be able to take that away from me. My hispanic background is not something I can hide, so I have learned to not only accept it, but to embrace it. Even though this experience made me less confident in myself then, it made me learn to love my culture so much more now. I feel as if my
Walking the halls at school was an overall awkward situation as I attended a predominantly white private school. It was not uncommon for my peers to make jests and snide comments about the oddity of our relationship. I vividly remember the stunned expressions on the faces of my parents and siblings as I explained that my new boyfriend was not white. While my family was accepting of the news, I was warned to not mention my new relationship to my grandfather who would not be quite as understanding as he would only be blinded by his outdated and old fashioned state of mind. Meeting my boyfriend's parents for the first time was unnerving to say the least. I felt like an exhibit at a museum, being observed and analyzed by a group of people who no doubt had already made their own assumptions of my character. I could see from the skeptical look in their eyes that I was nothing more than a vapid and privileged white girl to them. All of these outward opposing forces undoubtedly created friction within the relationship. I found myself questioning if our racial differences were forcing a wedge between our families and friends or if the relationship was worth the criticism we faced. A few short months later, we called it quits, although not entirely due to the racial
I have this fear of being demoted because the way I look. I’m in a constant battle with the questions, am I white or am I mexican? I have an identity crisis on my hands, and growing up those questions weren’t any of my concerns. During the duration of my experiences involving race I have been placed into stereotypes that deceive who I really am. I would look too “mexican” to wear that outfit or I would sound too “white” to learn Spanish. Racial categories are both confusing and senseless, yet is a significant part in our society.
For a short period of time or what would I say my high school years I was interested in law. I wanted to become a lawyer to fight both cases that impacted my life. When I moved to Pennsylvania and went to school where I was one of the few minorities, I realized that it was different. People’s views were very different. I was able to choose the classes I had wished to take. When learned about this I was more interested in school since this was a chance to experience and get taught subjects I found to be most interesting. Law was in fact my favorite subject. Lucky for me there were multiple classes offered for it. Since my freshman year to my senior year I had ended up taking a total of three Law classes. During this time of my life I had started to feel out of place in the school I had attended. Things that I had said or the way I had dressed was just not what they accepted, for example if I was not on the basketball team there should be no reason for me to be wearing certain brands of sneakers. Diversity never seemed to be accepted. I had the need to balance the culture in my life if that could ever make sense to the person that reads this. When trying to integrate my friends together, it never seemed to end well. My friends in white bodies would constantly talk down to my friends in colored bodies. They would always say negative comments about them. What they considered as
I am a white, heterosexual, Christian female. In today’s society, there can be three issues with my cultural identity. As a white person today, there are many stigmas that are faced, along with many cultural biases. As a Christian, there are also major social biases that are brought forth regularly. In today’s world, many people choose to talk about white privilege; however, there are also many other forms of privilege that are considered too taboo to speak about in public. While I will not deny that there are “white privileges”, there is a legitimate case that there is also “black privilege”, “non-Christian privilege”, and even “Asian privilege”. With each of these cases, I have my own personal experience.
Throughout my whole eighteen years of life, I have always been in public school with people that were not like me. For as long as I can remember it seems like I had always been a minority because I was the “white student” in the class. As a young naive girl I would always ask mom why I didn’t have
My family instilled in us at a very young age that we had to work for anything we wanted, my families’ social class is middle class. My parents always emphasized the importance of education and respect. My parents always taught me that we are equal to any other race, we lived in a neighborhood that was predominantly African American and attended an all-black elementary school. My earliest memory of race was when I was twelve I was adopted by my aunt and uncle who loved in a predominately Caucasian neighborhood, I would play outside, with my cousins being a few years older than me I often played and rode my bike alone. Soon I met some children that lived in the neighborhood who were caucasian and we would play with each other, I use to even go over their homes. Well, one day I asked one
I’m native American someone who is indigenous to north America. I came to this identity at young age because both my parent practice our traditional ways and culture beliefs. My identity to me is very important because it plays profound impact for shaping me. It native cultural we do a lot of ceremony’s and I took part in at young age. To Native people our traditions is very sacred thing to us and I’ve always felt that way. I remember witnessing a ceremony around 7 or 8, we went south Dakota to attend sun dance. It ceremony where you don’t eat or drink for four days and you offer of your flesh by tying rope to a tree and you piece little wood stakes on each side of your chest and you lean back until the stakes are rip out of your chest. After that you do your back by dragging 7 buffalo skulls across the ground until they rip out of skin. Seeing never bother to me but it was very powerful thing to see and I think that when I started to get into my heritage. After that I learn how to dance, sing traditional songs and learn from elder on how to make native flutes. They’re was powerful experience I had in 8th grade that to me made taught me prejudice can happen from any color person and I think that when society taught me who I am. I was harassed by Latino kid in class and I did something to piss him off and his response was “go back to your home land” I was furious to hear this so I punch him in face. After 8th grade I left Sonoma county and went to boarding school for only