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Personal Narrative: The Emergency Protocol

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I have done many interviews in my life, brought to eyes the stories of many people, and relived their experiences several times. Today, however, is unlike any interview, unlike any assignment. My regular routine is of no use today. I cannot ask those streamlined, generalized questions I ask the rest of my clients. Today I meet her; her story like none other. I open the big, white doors, inquire about her room number, and find that she is isolated from the other patients. The security guard allows me in and informs me of the emergency protocol, how I am to leave the room if needed. I see her for the first time. She stands in front of a mirror, finger-combing her hair, in an effort to untangle it. But it would not. She glances over, not frightened …show more content…

My room felt very clustered and tight. I felt surrounded by hundreds of people, uncomfortable in my own room. It felt very warm for the season, making me ponder as to how sick I was. I had weakened considerably over the past few months; the zombies taking an emotional and physical toll on myself. I crawled downstairs to get myself a glass of water and as I poured it, I felt its cold breath. Instantly, the glass fell and shattered. I looked around not to see one deathly creature, but hundreds, scattered around my house. I was angry at them. They thought they were permitted in the one place I felt the safest. I was angry at myself. How did they know enough about me to invade my life in a way I could not stop …show more content…

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