Personal Narrative: What I Hate Means

I loved you more than I loved myself. Not even, I was in love with you, and you broke my heart by breaking it off between us without even blinking an eye. When I called you on the phone a couple hours later, you sounded like you absolutely hated me, and that hurt even more. (Don’t get me wrong, though. I’m not trying to sound like a victim. I’m sure you hurt or were hurting too.) We used to talk just about everyday for the past year or so. Not talking to you everyday is so strange. I don’t know what to do with myself half the time. Whenever something happens - whether good or bad - and want to run to tell you about it. I didn’t only lose my boyfriend, I also lost my real best friend, and my first real, true love. I really thought you were the one. After all, we were talking about going on a mini vacation by ourselves in the summer. You were supposed to come to my Abuela’s wedding and spend your 20th birthday with

I've sat in my room crying for days before because this entire situation has gotten out of hand & went ways it shouldn't have & a lot of people hate me whenever I did absolutely nothing to you but give you my everything & just sat there loving you and trying to give you my all.. please remember that because I've never have had taken the time & consideration to do that for anyone at all ever & of course when I do it wasn't good enough obviously & your way more happier now & it hurts me that its not with me anymore but it doesn't matter how I feel. I even took the time to try to help you out finding who actually did it to you and that wasn't enough for you either. I have no idea what is good enough for you anymore since you have changed so much. I can't walk around school bumping into you as much as I do & just act like I have no idea who you are after everything..this honestly probably doesn't mean absolute shit to you at all but I needed to get it out & tell you. Please stop hating me for absolutely no reason it's awful knowing your feelings towards me have changed so dramatically because of some dumbass who wanted to ruin not your life but

I want to spend m forever and my always with you I know I jump to guy to guy because I leave when I get hurt but you don't have a reason to hurt me you have to be the best thing that ever happened to me when I see you my heart speeds up my thoughts get lost with your name...

While I was a lost boy in a dream world, that was only filled of you and me together. I know you saw this. Ill still have a dream world but I want it to be one we both create together, I know you have a brilliant mind. You will always light me up like the sun. Thats the best dream world I can possibly imagine and it basically makes me cry like a kid, because I only bring out the best in me. I know its probably odd being the center of my universe or a heavy burden.. but don't let it be, its pretty simple in my head and my love for you is unconditional and always will be, the good and the bad. I've only held you the closest to me above all others always, because you are my heart.

I made the worst bad decision a girl could ever make and now you hate me. I know that. I also know that you could never forgive me. It makes me think. Was it really worth losing my best friend? Was it worth abandoning a friendship that lasted eight years? I wish you would just listen, Oliver. Can you really blame me for this? You were the initiator. You asked for it. Now you won’t even look at me. I don’t understand why you can’t just move on. I know you think I betrayed you and I know that you are ignoring me. In reality, all I did was do what you wanted. I miss you, Oliver. I know that you just want everything to go back to how it was, but it can’t. It will never be the same, especially with your illness. Change is a part of life

Dylan, you are my everything. My every single thought. There isn't a second that goes by and I'm not thinking of you. You are the oxygen I need to breathe. Without you, I don't know how I would survive. I need you to survive. Your ever so gentle hands are yet, so strong and make me feel so protected when I'm with you. When you wrap your arms around me, I feel safe. The feel of your soft lips again my skin relaxes me. When I'm with you, I just have this feeling that no one else gives me. When we're together, it's like wee the only two people in the world. You somehow make it so I feel like I'm the most important girl in the world, as if, I'm the only girl in the world. You make me feel like no one else can. Maybe some would say it's just lust, but I know for a

I remember the day that I was introduced to you. I remember crying and worrying about my future. I hated knowing of your existence. You always followed me wherever I went. I always knew you were there, but you would vanish the moment I looked for you. I hated you all my life, yet you remained unaffected by my actions.

People constantly let me down. I constantly let myself down. I have been like trump and built a wall around my life. You on the other hand have a superpower no other person has. You can phase through walls, and you have mine. You're the only person I trust to not let me down. I want to keep you that way. I don’t want to take away that superpower or I will be all alone inside my walls. Your different Ashleigh. I am getting all mad about the smallest things because around this time is when I have been starting to get cheated on. So I am paranoid that I am going to lose you like I lose everything else. I don’t try to get worked up, it is just my inner self telling me “Hey! Remember that thing that happened around this time in your relationship. Yeah, it might be happening again.” But everytime that happens, you just walk through those walls and make everything better. You make me a better person. Instead of having those walls maybe you can help me build a window and a door and stuff so I can start to open up again. I want you to be the person to do that, and you have those

I appreciate everything you do for me. Not one person in the world could replace someone like you. You are one of most caring people I have ever met. You are always compassionate towards those that are close to you, but also to people you don’t know. You are also on the most patient person. Whether it is helping me with homework, a friend situation, or I just need someone to count on, I know I can always count on you regardless of the time or place. With patience comes the dreadful task of being a good listener, but you never fail to amaze me in that aspect as well. You never put me down and always act as my sounding board. You always try to guide in the right direction, and be a supporter of anything in my life. You believe in me and aid me in having confidence in myself. Not a day goes by that I don’t think you are the most amazing woman in the world. You always put me first and never fail to make me a priority in your life. You constantly love me, even when I’m not lovable at

I hate it when you lie. I hate it when you make me laugh, even worse when you make me cry. I hate the way you're not around, and the fact that you didn't call. But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you. Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at

From day one I always knew you weren't like the rest and there was much more beneath your surface. You have more to offer in every single aspect of your life and everyone and anyone who knows you are endlessly inspired by just being in your presence. I often find myself wondering why it has been so hard for me to move on and I realized that unique things are special because they cannot be replicated, but since they cannot be replicated unique things don't satisfy like the last. You are my last Abby. Time is going to pass and you will find yourself so happy with someone else and create all new memories with them and I couldn't be happier for you. Who knew that love could be one of the cruelest things to happen to a person, but I have become my own worst enemy for my actions. Some of my best memories are the ones with you in it. I could sit here and write to you all day, but there is no amount of time or embarrassment I could save you and I cannot begin to express how deeply sorry I am for every single second I have made you waste. I'd love to be writing a different story for us, but I just wanted to say how grateful I am for

I'm sorry for not being your voice when you needed it to scream, I'm sorry for not stand up for your rights, I'm sorry for not being strong enough to stop the abuses, I'm sorry for not being strong enough to stop the bullying. When you needed me the most I kept myself in silence, afraid of what it might happened to you and still couldn't be avoid it. We've been together since we were born, and we've had to learn to grow together, to learn together, to love each other despite the pain, the struggles, the obstacles, the grieve, the loneliness. I know my apology is way too late, but it is important to me to let you know how much you mean to me, I had to learn how to appreciated the woman you’re today. The woman you’re today is stronger, wiser, intelligent, sensitive, kind, tough and funny; basically, all the things you’ve always aspired to be, you’ve made it!. If I have to think in a

The helplessness I felt as I sat clenching my head in the murky, brisk night. The words “ I will always love you no matter what”, repeatedly played in my head like my favorite melody. The feeling of your hands riveting my face as you gave me one last kiss overwhelmed me with heartache. The pessimistic stare you gave me as you proceeded to say, in a sorrow manner, “Goodbye Jo”, haunted me forever. The moment I never thought would come about came into prospective right then, you were no longer mine.

I know I get mad over stupid things and I'm gonna work on it I am. I just don't wanna lose you ever and I don't want you not to tell me things and I'm not saying you don't. I just know how it is when someone says they don't care you just stop telling them shit period. I shouldn't of said "that I didn't care" in the car and I'm really sorry, but I didn't mean it and I was just frustrated at the time. I always want to hear what you have to say. I just wanna be better I don't wanna stress you out and I really do hate fighting with you. I wanna make happy because that's my job, to keep you smiling. We do think differently about certain things though, which I know we will. But I know we can come to some kind of argument.