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Personal Narrative: What It Meant To Be Human

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When I was nine, I remember asking myself what it meant to be human, to be an inhabitant of this world. I couldn’t figure out an answer, I mean, I was nine; nine year olds aren’t exactly meant to know the meaning of life. If I were to ask myself that question again, I still couldn’t give you an answer, not a good one anyways. When I was four, I used to sit in the corner of my closet sized bedroom and ask myself a lot of questions, a lot of them were incredibly advanced for my age, that set me aside from the kids in my class, the thing that brought me back to their level was my lack of answers to said questions. I could never come to a conclusion; it was a problem that continued into my teenage years, I have never really been good at conclusions. …show more content…

I was four when my mum’s stomach began to extrude outwards, automatically, I thought she was getting fat, but my four year old self was way off. The little, screaming thing was born several months later, even though then, I didn’t know what ‘born’ was. It didn’t take me long to start loving him, he was my best friend from the moment he left my mother’s womb. A lot of things happened when I was four; I remember them like they were yesterday. I think my memory is compensating for my lacking in answers. My mum’s father died shortly after my brother was born, I used to think it was his fault, sort of like a reincarnation thing before I even knew what it meant, and I laugh now that I look back at it. Grandad was pretty cool from what I remember of him, he was always smiling and he gave me a piece of chocolate every time my mum would look away, he lived in this big house with nice furniture and really pretty flowers on almost every surface. I remember watching my mother bursting into tears when the lawyer read out his will; he had left everything to her and not my Aunt. I remember very distinctly just how much her and dad used to struggle with money, but when I turned five, we had my birthday party in the mansions garden, when I was five, it …show more content…

People stare at us and wonder how a family like us ended up in a house like ours, but we don’t give them the satisfaction of knowing. And I think to them, the fascination comes naturally and I don’t blame them for that, humans will be humans, curious despite the dangers of it. I couldn’t tell you much about high school, other than the sweet smell of artificial people, and the general disappointment that comes along with the territory. In the end, despite the money putting me higher on the food chain, no one really noticed me. I didn’t mind it at times, but other times it kind of just felt like I am invisible, which in a way, I am. This isn’t the angst, heartbroken story about a teenager who takes off her glasses and is instantly transformed into this symmetrical faced, desirable woman, when what’s the point in wanting a male who doesn’t like you for the loser behind the glasses? Since I was little, even before the money, I wasn’t one to do anything spontaneous, even as a child when spontaneous is a kid’s middle name. I was quiet and reserved and never talked to anyone. I lived to be invisible, to fit in, and when it came down to it, by living like that, I stood out like a billboard in the middle of nowhere. It wasn’t the life I imagined for myself, the elaborate life I lived at home wasn’t extended into the real

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