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Piano Failure

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Every Tuesday afternoon after preschool my mother took my brother, my sister, and me to the home of a kind woman. There, my mother failed to distract me with crosswords and coloring books; instead, the nearby dissonances and unsteady rhythms enticed my innocent mind. Each night at home, I heard similar sounds after my father returned from work, but those tones instead formed rich melodies. I knew that the key to skillfully producing the impassioned music which I listened to every night lay in what I witnessed my older siblings do every Tuesday: take piano lessons. I begged my mother to allow me to study under the kind woman, and she reluctantly agreed despite her worries about my short attention span. I was three years old.
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It was as if my middle-school self was an unhappy worker who devoted his capacities to fortune and fame instead of unmaterialistic authenticity. While I may have had sporadic moments of satisfaction, my happiness was not sustainable. Until I experienced true failure by not even passing the screening round for the junior division Renee B. Fisher Competition in eighth grade (a piano competition held in New Haven, CT) did I begin questioning my intentions on piano. Should I even seriously pursue something at which I am not the best? Of course, I acted unperturbed by this rejection and left myself alone to discover that I must forsake my “musical materialism” and instead appreciate the intangible dimensions of music. Entering high school, I experimented with original melodies and chord progressions until I attained a conceptual grasp of music theory, which enabled me to fathom the skill and insight of revolutionarily creative composers from Bach to Gershwin as well as begin composing myself. A freeing abundance of pleasure emerged from my ability to improvise; I could create lush melodies or enhance those I already know at my leisure. Improvisation now relieves stress, distracts me from monotonous routines, and even allows me to orchestrate my pieces for a written channel of my emotion. A new independence evinced from my incorporeal understanding of music, and with this new understanding of the intangible aspects of music, I placed fourth in the senior division of the same competition I had failed three years

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