Raskolnikov, By William Raskolnikov

905 WordsMar 14, 20174 Pages
Immediately after his horse dream, Raskolnikov feels repulsion and is astounded that he may really take an axe and strike the old pawnbroker on the head. He asks himself why he is still thinking about it, and consciously tells himself that he will never bring himself to do so. “He felt utterly broken: darkness…why, why then am I still…” (53, 54) Although, Raskolnikov tells himself that he will never bring himself to murder, he has already been changed and has already committed himself to murdering the pawnbroker. This proves that Raskolnikov has changed, and in very minute ways. It has slipped into his mind without him even realizing, and has changed his character immensely. Lastly, Raskolnikov is very confused after listening to the…show more content…
However, we have not seen him actually commit to the idea and devote himself to the task. We see Raskolnikov’s true motives as soon as he does the “rehearsal of his project.” This stems from his desire to be different and take a new step. As he is going through the rehearsal, it is noted that he feels a sense of violence as he considers attempting the murder. Raskolnikov inadvertently set his mind on committing the murder, and does not realize that he had unconsciously came up with the idea to murder. “Now, a month later…and on the other into the street.” (3) Very soon after, Raskolnikov again feels immense guilt and remorse that he would think these kinds of things, and feels terrible that his heart is capable of considering murder as an option. “Raskolnikov went out in complete confusion…with himself to escape from his wretchedness.” (7) After returning from the Hay Market where he heard the student and the young officer talk about the old pawnbroker, he immediately falls asleep after considering the coincidence of the situation. Once he wakes up, it is said that he eats several spoonful’s of food mechanically, and then begins preparing for the murder. This preparation proves that Raskolnikov has decided to act upon his impulses and commit the murder. “He ate little, three or four…outside when he put the coat on again” (60, 61) While reading this passage, I noticed that there was no definitive switch, or decision to go execute his plan. He woke up
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