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Red Monologue

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They told me to do it. The voices. It's not me, it's the voices! They never stopped talking. I'm afraid to be alone with my thoughts. ‘Why?’ you may ask. Because they're dangerous. They are harmful, they disturb me. Which make me dangerous too. My mind. It's not okay. It's hell because all I hear are instructions. Everything I love turns into my enemy. I will never be loved. I am not worthy of love, yet that's all I want. I wonder if there's anyone out there who thinks the way I do. I've always had an interest in movies. I always related to the man everyone ran away from. I imagine myself in his shoes. Over the next few weeks after reviewing the movie I was plagued by the idea of attempting the perfect murder. Throwing a body over a cliff. Spike a human with Arsenic Poison causing their skin to rot, dying a slow and painful death, degrading mustard gas. The list goes on forever. I loved to come up with ways to kill. Red is a perfect color. It's so intriguing, so grotesque, so eerie. Something about that color calms me. It's the color of roses people place on graves. It's the color of fresh blood before it rots. The screams of torture may be disturbing to others, but not for me. For me, it was music to my ears. Hearing laughter and joy drove me to insanity. It irritated me, maddened me, as nothing else under …show more content…

I don’t want to stop. It’s so purely enslaving, capturing me into years of obsession. Their bodies all lay like ghoulish mannequins. The compelling odor could just originate from recently slaughtered creatures. For this situation, the creatures were human and their carcasses were still warm, the blood thickening however not yet dried on their skin. Their slit throats caused a waste of blood. Some corpses would have their mouth open, their heads almost cleft from the body, their vessels sticking like corrugated pipes through the clotted blood. Other corpses would be propped, ungainly as rag dolls, with their heads, dropped forward over their

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