Running Back To The Army: Personal Narrative

I was scared to let you know how I feel but every time I didn't I was losing you, just when things got better they got worse.

Remember when you said you’ll be there for me, have my back, and fight for me, Remember when we would play fight, play video games, especially FIFA, and sleep together, Remember when you used to blame on me for everything, read me bedtime stories, and cook for, I’ll forget those moments we’ve shared. You was gone too soon. It’s not your fault that you was in the hospital, or buried, we don’t know what happened to you, it happened too soon,

ornery I can handle it because whatever you throw at me I’ll catch. I like how I know almost a lot about you like we have the same favorite colors but in different colors and your favorite bands and your like apple pie which is disgusting and you must be the devil. I remember when we first met or I at least have memories from when I was around you and our conversations about ourselves and what we’ve fascinated with, those were the little things that made me want you and look now I have you. I fall for you even more when you tell me those three words. You’re always on my mind when I wake up and when I’m in bed laying my head on the pillow. I decided to type this out because I have hella shitty writing and this is more neat and I have more space

At the end, I think you knew that, and though you accused me with words and violence, I remained faithful for the few years we had. Even if I begged you to release me, your jealousy and your desire to feel young again would never have allowed you to let me go.

"What are you sorry for?" he asked, pulling my face in front of his, gazing into my eyes intensely since I first climbed astride on him. I didn't reply. I didn't have to, for in his eyes I saw the sudden acknowledgment that I had found in myself as I stood in front of that doorway staring at him just minutes earlier. An hour prior our whole relationship had been predicated on sex, however now it was so much more.

why he didn’t want this amazing opportunity. I still remember his words. He said that

I joined the Marine Corps looking for a challenge. I wanted to open doors for a new career and longed to have a positive impact on the world around me. Looking back five years later, I realize I found all that I originally sought, but I’ve also found something profoundly satisfying and meaningful that I never knew I was missing.

We had a lot of fun at first. Taking each other to our favourite places; all those secret hideouts in the forest, the breathtaking views over the river. The cliche stuff I’d imagined every couple would do. You were sweet, too. Offered to take me on dates, buy me flowers, chocolate, all that fancy stuff. But your company was always enough.

I remember as you walked towards me for the last time, a metal beast wrapped around your hands. Your skin glowed brown in the sun. I opened my arms to you, but you turned away as my leaves rustled in the

Even 14 years later, I still remember your warmhearted smile and your caring look. I remember all the good and bad situations we’ve gone through, all the wonderful experiences we had and places you showed me.

It’s impossible for me to view that face without adoration. When I think of you I think of all the stuff we’ll never do together.

You will have to excuse me as I regress baby. But as you could have guessed I miss you baby. Today I woke up finding the atmosphere to be quite sullen.

Yeah, I don’t really know what I am doing with myself anymore. When we started dating I was confused and scared. I pushed you away. I know and I feel horrible about it. I didn’t mean to but I just didn’t know how to express my feelings for you and I don’t do well with embarrassment or compliments. And It’s easy for me to get embarrassed when someone I like says something nice to me or about me. Later on I heard that you had done some unfavorable things to people I was close to and I became conflicted. Then my friend told me that he wished for me to break up with you. We talk often about me breaking up with you. People thought that I didn’t really love you, to be honest I wasn’t really sure if I loved you. Then thanksgiving came around and I couldn’t see you or talk to you everyday, so I wished to see you everyday. Though that didn’t come through because I ignored you. Though it wasn’t intentional at first as time passed I was afraid of answering you because I didn’t know what to say. I stopped talking because you insisted on buying me a Christmas gift. Which is a nice gesture but I didn’t want you to buy me anything because I was fine with just having you. The last day we were together Jaden said you were upset with me and I understood why I mean I did ignore you that that hurt you so much. But when you said you would ignore me the rest of the day it made me really upset, Instead of being mature and ignoring that comment since I knew you weren’t going to

It has been almost a year since you were almost mine, and I’m noticing that your eager attempt to domesticate me has begun to wear off. That recklessness you despised is returning like a hurricane. The plates are piled high in the kitchen, I’ve had a glass of wine more than two days in a row, and I haven’t even looked at the ironing board in a week. I can almost hear your skin crawling from my hometown, and I believe I’m living further North than you’ve ever been in your life. It’s perhaps a terrible thing, that I’m enjoying being everything you hated when I did, truly, love you so, but neither of us have been the most considerate to each other; when all is said and done, I’m being unkind in retaliation. I hope you can forgive me.

I cried last night. I know I’m losing you. I don’t want it to be reality I just want it to all be a dream and when I wake up I would be in your arms. I lost you God da**-it. I fu***** lost you. How did I let this happen? You promised you wouldn 't let go. You promised. You broke it. I’ll just toss that promise in with all the other broken ones.