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Due to isolating themselves, Má and Bo did not realize that after they moved to America, as they tried to heal what's been broken, they began to cast the aftermath of their traumas over the heads of their offsprings instead. A psychiatrist at St. Joseph Hoag Health, Dr. Clayton Chau, stated that “If parents don’t resolve the trauma they experienced, their kids can inherit it. It’s partly genetic — trauma can alter genes, which get passed down to the next generation. And it’s partly behavior, usually unconscious” (Dembosky). We can see the truths told in this theory throughout the memoir since Thi, Lam, Bich, and Tam each felt the trauma their parents carried, but never realized where exactly it all was coming from. Through the pattern of Má …show more content…

The outcome of this bottled up resentment is best explained by Stephen A. Diamond, writer of “What is the Shadow?”: “The abject negativity and destructiveness of the shadow is largely a function of the degree to which the individual neglects and refuses to take responsibility for it, only inflaming its ferocity and pernicious power” (Diamond). This shadow is best seen throughout the behavior of Bo who’s actions inevitably presented a shadow over his offsprings when often he would be home alone with Thi and her brother. Eventually Thi realized that the majority of Bo’s actions with parenting was influenced by his past as she explained that she and Tam “grew up with the terrified boy who became” their father (pg.128). His actions of isolating himself to deal with his own sorrows separately and not knowing how to make his children feel safe ended up making Thi afraid of her father as she had “no idea that the terror I felt was only the long shadow of his own” …show more content…

After this dream also caught up to Thi when she got older and prompted her to leave, she realized that escaping did not fill the void to the isolation each of these family members felt. Instead, she was continuing the cycle which had the potential to inevitably affect her own offspring as well. It was after this realization where Thi began to learn about their backgrounds more and try to understand and connect because she realized that “certain shadows stretched far casting a gray stillness over our childhood hinting at a darkness we did not understand" (pg.59). Due to this thought, she strived to disperse the stillness and understand the darkness in hopes that she does not carry it on. She exerted everything she learned from the backgrounds of her country and her parents into this book for the sake of understanding the darkness she remembered throughout her whole childhood. She carried more weight than she realized. She also noticed that although she felt the most freedom leaving the home that carried so much negative energy, within herself she still wanted to learn why her family was the way it was. While having her own child she realized that “the responsibility is immense” (pg.22). This realization came from knowing that all the weight, darkness, and “shadows” she felt growing up were brought on by her

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