Speech For My Beloved

I’m currently sitting in my room thinking about how great these two weeks with you were. Thank you so much for all the memories and fun times. I will always hold them very close to me. My god, it has only been a couple hours since you left and I already miss you so much. You have made me immensely happy, I cannot express that enough. I only hope to make you as happy as you make me. I know we are both still young, but no matter what happens or where life takes us, I know for a fact that I will always love you. You have taught me so much and I will forever be grateful for that.

When I look back at my childhood I cannot picture it without you. You have helped shaped who I am today and for that I thank you. When I think of you i think about all the love that you have to give. I am so lucky to have you in my life and I will always cherish the memories that I have with you.

“The seventieth birthday! It is the time of life when you arrive at a new and awful dignity; when you throw aside the decent reserves which have oppressed you for a generation and have stand unafraid and unabashed upon your seven-terraced summit and look down and teach-unrebuked. You can tell the world how you got there.” Mark Twain

First and foremost, I want to start off with an apology. I apologise for all the times I have hurt you, for all the times I made you miserable. They are all mistakes that I regret. I regret making you angry. I regretting making you feel sad. I am sorry for it all.

1) Write a will for yourself. This does not have to be a long document, but it should look like a will. Look at examples on Google to determine the format to use.

I hope you are doing well and that the abr tour has been a great one for you guys. Parting ways is never simple. I am well aware that writing to you goes against everything society states is the proper way to deal with this experience, I can't seem to fall in line with the masses. Let it be clear that this is not a plea and it holds no expectation of you. This is to share what I should have shared while in California and what should have been addressed when our relationship was abruptly ended.

Being a twin is never something I asked to be, but I like to think that im lucky that it did. I mean how many people can say that they grew up with someone literally from the moment they were born till the day you both leave home. When I was younger I thought having a twin was the biggest burden in my life, but now that I’ve come to appreciate him I would not want it to be any other way.

Over the past two years, you’ve been thanking me and reminding me of how grateful you are. In response, I’m always speechless and emotional. How can you still treat me with so much affection and care after the pain I’ve put you through? You continue to show kindness, perseverance and unconditional love, despite my past irrational ways. Although you have forgiven time after time, I need to apologize with sincerity.

I love you and I want you to know that I'm only writing you this email because I want to say things the way I want to. I would rather tell you this in person, but it would be so hard to say everything without having a panic attack. Also, this isn't a life-threatening, so please don't freak out.

I think this is the best way for us to communicate for the time being. This way we can say everything we need to say and have enough time to think before we respond. I want to start out by saying I really do LOVE, APPRECIATE, and RESPECT you very much. I did NOT take this decision lightly. I don't think you've realized how hard things have been for me. I am not trying to guilt you in the slightest. I've been getting treated for depression by my doctor and therapist. Even with medication I have been struggling to feel happy and actually want to do things... I mean for a while, there was literally nothing I had the desire to do but sleep. I knew I was ok though. There was apart of me deep inside that wanted to go outside and study and plan things for my club and call my friends and family and cook and eat.

I am going to try to write this in hopes of expressing my feelings for you, but that will be a monumental task because I know that there is no way that I will be able to fully express how happy you make me feel. I feel privileged and blessed to have met you. I am so euphoric now, and it 's all because of you. I can 't stop thinking about you, and you always manage to plaster a smile on my face. You bring to me immeasurable joy, and your warmth and caring gives me the feeling that the best is still ahead. Your intelligence, warmth, compassion, sense of humor and way of being amaze me. Thinking of you, fills me with a remarkable feeling.

A big thank you for the snacks and countless meals you’ve provided me with. Thank you for buying me lunch even though I had my debit card on me. Your simple acts of such unconditional love have made me so grateful of you. The way you treat me has only inspired me to treat others with this same unconditional love. Thank you for allowing our countless group sleepovers filled of overly loud laughs and gossip until the early hours of the morning. Also, thank you so much for the pictures you are always so willing to take at such important events, I mean seriously, our prom pictures were amazing thanks to you

The past few weeks its just been friendly conversations which has made it just a tad bit easier to make this transition. I think its time. I want you to know that I am super duper proud of you and all of your accomplishments. Everything you went/go through was to give you more opportunities to be you. I will support everything you do from a far. If you need advice or someone to talk to that knows you oh so well holla at me. Please continue to be a blessing to others. I will never forget the good of our relationship. Everything happens for a reason and for a season. Thank you for once making me feel like a very special girl and putting a smile on my face daily. I have discovered I have an issue with letting go and it has been the hardest job yet. I have been typing this email for like four weeks now. I've been trying something new and preparing myself to let go. I know you are saying oh this is our rough time we will be back but I don't think so. I knew it was coming just not this fast. It's really just not the same. I've been going to couseling by myself because there are issues I have to deal with from being involved with you. Learning about this process of letting go has me constantly thinking and trying to control myself. It felt so real and wrong at the same time.Thanks for all you have done for me. I will always love you Wes and be grateful for the love you have for me!! No more texts from me I am ready to focus on me and finding peace, love and joy for myself. If you really need me you can email me. Muah

I guess I should end it here. This whole letter confession thing isn't something I've ever done with a guy before, so excuse me if I'm not doing it right. This vulnerability is new to me. I feel like I've done some humiliating things trying to get you to understand me, but I'm starting to realize that being vulnerable and unabashedly honest with how I feel is something I'm ok with. I wish you could remember what you saw in me when you first met

In The Symposium Diotima’s speech on love it is the most important, therefore she should be the last speech to help impact the overall meaning. Although, she actually is not the last speech, Alcibiades is. This leads to questioning over why Alcibiades is at the end if the speech is just drunken madness. Diotima’s speech focuses on love and places important emphasis on the idea of beauty pertaining to love. She also focuses on the way a boy and a man’s relationship are centered around love because of the mentorship that they obtain with each other. It does not make sense in a book about love to have the ending be Alcibiades drunk confessing his love for Socrates.Bataille has led me to the belief that it does make sense for Alcibiades to be the end of the Symposium because of the objective for humans to reach continuity through a drunken state of being. After reading Erotism, Diotima cannot be the final speech in The Symposium.