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Stereotypes Of Middle School

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Every time that I muster up the courage to exercise it is like every part of my body bounces, like dropping a tennis ball from a fifteen story window and waiting for it to settle. My mind screams “Work harder! Obtain your goals!” while my body lags behind whining about wanting to sit on the comfortable couch at home. Unfortunately I have never been able to match those two up. The first time that I had questioned my size was in the first grade when your teacher makes you line up by height and not by name. I was easily the tallest kid in my class, towering over the little boys and girls with both my height and my stature. I remember looking back behind me and seeing all of the other kids judgmental eyes glaring at me and in my mind …show more content…

Middle school tends to be those three years of your adolescence that you do not reminisce on, strictly because your hair was an odd shape and your body goes through some irregular changes. Hormones are raging at that point in your life; puberty is marking its time to strike. Boys and girls are starting to pair up, although nobody knows what they are doing or why. Regardless, I was thrilled to think that a semi-cute pimple faced squeaky voiced boy would want to perhaps have his mom drive us to the movies. Boy was I wrong. The middle school boys work in only one way; relentlessly teasing any vulnerable naïve little girl that they can sink their claws into. Unfortunately for pudgy twelve year old me, I was the ultimate target. Gym class was just a way to force a bunch of sweaty awkward little kids to do obscure sports in uncomfortably baggy clothing. My clothing size was the largest of the girl and still incredibly tight around my body. My stomach bulged out and my thighs rubbed together every time I took a …show more content…

My weight never once had a part in any of these life decisions. We are now currently in the spring semester of my first year of college and I am finally realizing something. My weight is not a reflection of my mood. Ten year old me would have never believed that the word “obese” was not the worst word she would or could be called in her lifetime. Twelve year old me would have never guessed that a girl her size could get a boy a zillion times better than Austin, a boy named Travis who tells her he loves her every chance he gets. Sixteen year old me only assumed that the weight loss that she had lost was only the product of a sport that she no longer played, but now she is under the goal that she had set for herself when she was at her worst and is still working towards losing more. I am currently eighteen and I have learned two things. Everyone’s thighs jiggle when they run and that assuming things about the future does make an ass out of you and me. I still binge on fast food sometimes, and say hateful things to myself in the mirror too. I am only human. My diet is also healthier; I exercise frequently, and try to smile more often. Although my weight is still something I believe I could work on, it is no longer in control of how I feel. I am, and that's just a bittersweet

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